Miss Julie, I've followed your blog for awhile. I know you enjoy dishing out the embarrassment, but wondered if you would ever experience it yourself. Well, your face is blushing hot now, isn't it, young lady? You must know there is no way to be naked over a woman's knee for a strict paddling and maintain your dignity at the same time. You have something to think about.
I see you in that position, and it's a vision of intense embarrassment. I can taste it. I feel embarrassed for you. Strict Julie, the one who has ruled over her husband with supreme dominance, has subjected him with glee to such suffering, is now bare, upturned, and exposed. You'll be totally naked, right? Your pretty bottom will certainly be bare. Have you ever clenched your sensitive bottom cheeks in anticipation of a punishment spanking? You should be clenching them in dread.Finally it's going to happen. Can you believe it? You're getting a SPANKING! When the time comes, you'll be asking yourself again and again, is this really happening? Am I actually being punished like a naughty little brat? You have good reason to be afraid of your Daddy's paddle. I hear maple burns. You'll never be more aware of your bottom being bare. Do you think you'll be able to hold up over Tracy's knee? I see the big, bad Strict Julie over her lap, and it is not ending well for you.I'm actually a little concerned and wonder if you really know what you've gotten yourself into. Your delicate skin has never even tasted the hardwood. I mean tasted it HARD. 24 good hard licks with nothing between the paddle your Daddy made and your bare. A wood-fire paddling not under your control! This is really long overdue, young lady. I think it's about time you were not in control. Time for some frantic bottom wiggling. And some tears. When was the last time Strict Julie cried like a thoroughly repentant little girl?
I would love to see you getting your red bottomed paddle spanking from Tracy. She will be in control. Will she take good care of a tingling hot girl after her spanking? Being vulnerable under control is such a different experience than what you're used to.
Oh Golly Gosh! Well that 'sorta hit the nail on the head! I emailed back and thanked him for my teasing, and encouraged him to write more, which he did.
Anticipation is an important part of the experience. The butterflies in your tummy. The increased heart rate. That paddle is going to sting like nothing you've felt before, and you'll sit on pins and needles waiting for your punishment as part of the punishment. You're feeling what many boys and girls have felt in this situation. It's a humbling feeling. It should be sexually exciting, a push and pull of the dread you have for the paddle, thinking about how you will be exposed with the blood flowing to your sensitive nether regions. Before and after a blister spanking is a time for strong arousal.
I wrote back noting that he said "before and after", but how about "during"? Is that just pure fiery hell, or is there arousal during? As much as I spank my husband, I don't know the answer to that. He responded.
I hear there are some people who can be aroused during a hard paddle spanking. I believe it's rare, and expect that it takes some building up a tolerance and acclimation to that level of pain. If one craves that pain, then their masochism is driving their experience. Even for someone who isn't a hardcore masochist, the excitement surrounding the activity of being punished releases chemicals in the body that can make the pain more tolerable.
You won't know what it's like for you until it happens. I expect that it will be no different than what most people experience. If Tracy means business, then during the spanking I think you'll be angry with yourself that you ever agreed to such a thing. Then you'll have a burn on your bottom that will be uncomfortable for awhile. That burn for some, or the soreness that remains even longer, is an arousal of an erogenous zone, but you don't know yet how that works for you. What drives you, though, is the eroticism of the event. Certain aspects of it have that effect on you. Those who really crave that arousal take the unpleasant spanking that goes with it. Being a sorry, embarrassed little girl is inherently unpleasant. If your spanking is a success, then you will still be glad you went through the ordeal.
Considering that you are a Dom, and generally do not fantasize about being spanked, I wouldn't be surprised if you didn't want any more punishment paddlings after this one. That intrigues me because this isn't the usual sub getting spanked because that's who they are and what they want. There's a realism here that is different. You're experiencing a spanking, now the anticipation, eventually the consequences and after effects, more the way it is experienced under *real* circumstances. That's exciting.
Yes, it feels extremely real to me. I will be spanked, really, against a large part of my will, with this tiny part of my will pushing me into it. I wrote back telling him how insightful I thought his comments were, and how they really captured what I felt, expressing it better than I could. I asked if I could publish his emails here, and if he had anything additional to add, which he did.
Yes, she certainly did, but I don't know how serious she was about that. If she's not a latent spanko she's liable to give me a few weak swats and joke about how I won't be sitting. I don't actually want that. I want a punishment paddling. I want to feel like D describes above, that I just know the spanking will be impossible to take, but that if I don't behave, and don't submit completely to her will, it will be even worse, and even more humiliating for me. For example, her husband called in to see my shame, my bared bottom upraised and my bared breasts dangling as Tracy spanks the brat. Both of them laughing at my naked submission across his wife's knee.Thank you for the compliments, Julie. It appears we have similar feelings about what a spanking experience can be. You can use in your blog something I write if you feel it belongs there.
I think this anticipation phase of the spanking is the best part actually. You get to live in that role and the mindset that accompanies it. Even before the paddling, you feel naked. What is it like for you to have a Daddy now and be under his control? And to be facing the punishment you're facing? It's certainly 180 degrees away from normality for you and, as such, even more highly embarrassing. Your attitude and actions must respect the reality of your circumstances, where you are not in control. You are experiencing submission and vulnerability.
Are you embarrassed to know that the best thing you can do for yourself now is to be as polite and obedient as you can be? That is generally how boys and girls act when they know they are getting a paddling. You don't dare earn more licks, and if you can demonstrate convincingly that you want to be the best behaved young lady you can be, your Daddy may decide to be more lenient with you. At least that's the hope many have had. For the time being, forget all about being a strong, dominant woman, and face the reality that you are extremely vulnerable facing your first blistering with the paddle. This is no time to be bratty or try to show you're somehow above the over-the-knee spanking you have coming. Though I am enjoying the predicament you're in, and would be noting with pleasure every detail of your exposure and comeuppance, if I was there I'd want to hold your hand and try to help you get through it. These are moments when you're not the strong one but rather the one needing to be taken care of. Your nerves will be raw going into it, and you could be quite emotionally upset by the time it's over. Didn't Tracy promise you won't be sitting when she's done?
D wrote some more after I posted the first version of this blog:
I am thinking John will likely not be invited, as that is what I requested, but I have a strange craving to have him invited in to watch just as D describes above. As I think of this scenario, I get wet. Very wet. It's the humiliation. I'm starting to "get it".Julie, I see the possibility of having John, the husband, there is causing you angst. I completely understand how you do not want him there to see your spanking with the paddle. This is only normal. Of course we don't want witnesses to our punishment. Things are bad enough, aren't they? The emotions should already be plenty for you to deal with. Having a witness there, especially a male, may be too much humiliation for a first experience. If I was Tracy's husband, I can assure you I would want to be there. If he's like me, he'll walk around during the paddling to catch from every angle your naked performance over Tracy's lap. Your facial expressions will be dramatic and unforgettable. From the perspective In front of where Tracy is seated, you'll be presented like a child over her Mommy's knee, and the view will be the full extent of your nudity which, as you write, will include your upturned bare bottom and your bare breasts dangling. Despite having good reason to be proud of your body, this is total exposure in front of another woman's husband. Is that what you want? There should be some frantic movement during the punishment, as if you are performing a bizarre erotic dance for the pleasure of your sexual partner. Do you want him to see that? The prime view, though, will be the display you present from behind. I especially enjoy the kicking feet and desperately wiggling behind and, of course, with all that thrashing around, I don't need to tell you what will be revealed.As it is happening, you likely won't be in a frame of mind to be concerned about showing your bare pussy and naughty little bottom hole. So you should make it clear that John should not be there. Otherwise, it will only cause you more anxiety now, and after you've settled down from the paddling, you'll have to deal with the shame of knowing he saw everything! We get an erotic charge from the idea of public humiliation, but the reality of it can be more devastating than anticipated. For a first experience, an intensely private affair, sharing your abject vulnerability only with Tracy may be best for you. On the other hand, your Daddy is the one to decide what you need and, if not him, then you are still under Tracy's control. When she tells you something, you're going to say with a red face, "Yes, Ma'am," even should she inform you that John will be present. She may use even the slightest hint of rebellion on your part as an excuse to add the extra punishment of a witness. If it's decided that you are to be paddled in full view of John or other interested party, then what are you going to do? That is the nature of not being in control and where your fragile fate is in the hands of another. This could be a memory that will make you blush for the rest of your days.
My paddling is probably not this week coming up, but next. We are still trying to arrange it. I will post one more preparatory blog entry and then the main event (hopefully!)