Monday, December 11

Sisterly Spanking Aftermath

As I recounted in Spanked by my Sister, I got my very first spanking from my sister, and it was a doozie! Apologies for me recapping the session, I am sort of obsessed with it.


The physical aftermath you can see above. In the same session I received an open-handed punishment to my breasts (repeated hard slaps from all angles and sides), and suffered the (self-inflicted) abject shame of grinding my pussy against Sue's tweed slacks while she spanked me, with the inevitable humiliating result. I was left in pain and in tears with my hands on my head and my nose in the corner, T-shirt raised to bare my sore breasts, with instructions that immediately after Sue had left that I was to present myself to my husband, under pain of a repeat of my spanking the next week, for likely the most humiliating sexual act a man can perform on his wife.


I have a pen-pal, brett, who always manages to express my thoughts better than I can myself at times. I thought I would share some of our correspondence (slightly edited), both before and after the event, with my commentary (in red).

Hi Julie,

I don't know your sister, but I believe I have a sense of what you're in for. Interpreting her words to you, it appears you're right that she means business. Sue originally threatened to put you across her knee. That was her idea. Think about that. To put you across her knee. She is taking charge of her little sister.

"Me: on the bare?
Sue: yup
Me: not hard though?
Sue: hard. very hard!
Me: No!
Sue: YES
Me: Please no!
Sue: if i do it, there will be tears."

Sue has a clear vision of what she is going to do to you, and she wants to make it perfectly clear to YOU. She didn't try to sugarcoat it or put you at ease, even with your clearly shown reluctance and pleading. You asked, however timidly, and she has taken charge. She has your hand firmly in hers, and you're being taken to the woodshed. I'm not sure if she is so forthright because she wants you to be one very nervous little girl, or if she just doesn't want any misunderstandings that lead to resentment after you've been spanked.

[Yes, brett understands the situation all right. I asked him to tell me what he thought my spanking was going to be like...]

I understand what you're going through. It's knowing for certain that you really are in trouble. Are you sitting reading this? I would be squirming a bit in my chair. When I knew I was in for the paddle at home, like a premonition, I could feel the warmth on my behind where it was going to be on fire.


[brett's Daddy was a woodshed, wood shingle, spanker - bare butt, low ass cheeks, to tears]

Can you also feel the anticipation in your stomach and below? I certainly did. The threat and promise of a punishment-grade spanking, as you call it, consumes your mind and your body. It gave me a very hard erection. Does the thought of your very hard spanking over Sue's knee make you tingle? The sexual and erotic impact of this anticipation is so highly potent. Otherwise, you would not have asked your sister for what will be truly painful and deeply embarrassing.

[This is so ridiculously true]

The pleasure of this kind of spanking comes at a cost. Sue is a real spanker, and if it was me facing a licking from her, I'd be squirming. Despite you being sisters, she assured you it would be on the bare. She isn't making that a choice for you. I always got punished on my bare bottom, and when the one doing the spanking insists on it being that way, you know they spank with a purpose. For me it was to teach a boy who had been bad a lesson he would never forget. Hard wood on tender bare skin. No compromise. For you, I believe Sue intends to give you something you will also never forget. Having your bottom bare is a requirement despite the embarrassment your exposure under these circumstances will cause.


[brett's right - the worst part was preparing myself, nose in the corner, ass bare, waiting for her. And then when she came, feeling and hearing her behind me, examining my butt from every angle, sizing it up, laughing gently... sent shivers down my spine!]

Sue assured you the spanking will be very hard and that there will be tears.

"Get your spanking chair out, and a box of kleenex for your tears."

She wrote it twice! She is going to make you cry. To me that is like a written guarantee that you're getting a punishment-grade spanking. With play spankings, you may assume the role of a naughty little girl. When you get your spanking chair out, think about this---you will be forced to cry like a little girl. In that case, you are no longer hiding behind a role. For those moments you will be, in your mind and for all intents and purposes, what you appear to be. That is what you will show to anyone watching or listening.


[I don't cry easily, even when most women would. I took Sue's promise of tears lightly, and learned better.]

Me: but not in front of david, ok?
Sue: ok. He can jerk off to the sound of you getting spanked from his bedroom :-)

Imagine that. Your husband is going to hear you getting spanked from his bedroom. At our house, you could always hear a spanking loud and clear from every room in the house. That is simply the nature of a real punishment spanking. Oh my, I know! The embarrassment of everyone hearing! When I heard it, I always felt so sorry for the unfortunate one. You heard every last shred of dignity being stripped from them, and you realized they were actually quite fragile in the process of learning their lesson. You will be truly humbled over your sister's knee, and david from his bedroom will likely have thoughts similar to what I felt in that situation, though he'll have a clearer erotic appreciation than I did. He's going to hear a little girl getting punished on her upturned bare bottom. I believe Sue is going to make sure you give a performance that david will never forget either.


[Immediately after my spanking, david was concerned for me, and he cared for me sweetly. Next day, when he knew I was ok, then the gentle teasing started. I do not begrudge him that, it is part of my experience to be teased like that about what a racket I was making while across Sue's knee.]

"Sue: be standing bare bum in the corner when I get there. t-shirt on. no bra. Will let myself in."

"Why do you think she specified T-shirt but no bra???"

That's a good question. Only Sue knows for sure, but we can make some educated guesses regarding possibilities.

As you know as a strict wife and HOH, generally, when a dominant partner specifies a particular kind of attire, or lack thereof, for their "sub", they are doing it because they will derive pleasure from it, they are making a point symbolically or psychologically, or they want to enhance or add to feelings of vulnerability. In the case of certain relationships, they may also feel the need to maintain some level of propriety with regard to modesty.

I know what it's like when full nudity is considered perfectly acceptable and exposure, whatever it might be, is a humiliation to be suffered no matter how much you wish otherwise. As we've discussed in the past, you like spanking "birthday bare," and you understand and enjoy administering that vulnerable aspect of a mortifying lesson. So why doesn't Sue have you totally bare naked, or on the other hand, allow you to retain all of your clothing except what covers your spank spots? Instead, she spares your breasts from exposure, yet at the same time, requires they be bare under your T-shirt.

Is it for her pleasure? Does she get turned on by the image of breasts bare under cotton? The sight of taut nipples straining against the cloth, feminine shape teasingly revealed? I'm not what you'd call a "breast man," but that idea turns me on. Your sister may have a fetish.

Is Sue making a point? Perhaps to her, total nudity is not appropriate for the message this spanking is to convey. Your top half is not being punished. You are bare for a spanking as tradition would dictate. Bare from the waist down was always required at our house. If we happened to have a shirt on, there was apparently no reason to remove it.

Is it about vulnerability? You get to keep your top on, but you will feel more naked without your bra. You will also feel less adult. Little girls don't wear bras, do they? Just like every naughty little girl who has ever been put across Mommy's knee, you will be dressed accordingly.

Does your sister feel it is more appropriate, in her presence, that her little sister's breasts be covered? Is she affording you that modesty? Surely not in your case, but what I'd expect if sisters had no history together of sexual involvement. She may want to remove your t-shirt at some point during the ritual of punishing you. Only she knows.


[I think all those things. But the main thing was that she intended to make a ritual of baring my breasts and then slapping my tits silly so "the punishment fits the crime" I guess]

"Sue: you're getting the wooden spoon and the big hairbrush. Have them ready."

I don't think we should try to minimize this, Julie. You are IN TROUBLE!

Have them ready. Sue is confident and in control. She has no doubt that you are an obedient young lady. So how does it feel to be told what to do? Having to follow instructions certainly is a different animal when you're under the authority of a strict disciplinarian, and your bottom is at their mercy. I remember how calm and confident my parents were when they had decided on the worst fate for me. Every firm but matter-of-fact command is a fist to the stomach. Everything has been considered, and there will be no reprieve. Sue is going to give you a spoon spanking and, from what I gather, girls raised that way genuinely fear the wooden spoon. I've read accounts and been told by some who have actually experienced it, that the sting on bare skin is ferocious. The big hairbrush is a real wood spanking like I got growing up. Do I need to describe in detail what a real wood spanking is like?


[Gulp... no need, sir]

He then sent me another note after I posted my blog entry (gave him a bit of a preview before via a couple of email exchanges).

Hi Julie. As I implied in my comment on your blog, I was somewhat surprised by the monumental spanking you got from your sister. I didn't know how open she is to sexual relations with a blood relative, how dominant she is, how much of a disciplinarian she is, or how much of a spanker she is. The only way I can describe it is that she owned you.

The traditional spanking, what she did to your lower buttocks with the hairbrush and wooden spoon, by itself would have been a transforming level of punishment. The photo you posted was stunning. Despite the inadequate color and tonal contrast inherent in home photography, the image showed a well-executed spanking administered by your sister. I love how she targeted the bottom of your bottom. The message was clear that she will do what is necessary to control your behavior with her... that she "wears the pants" in your relationship. You learned the lesson, and your behavior with her will now truly be influenced under her authority because of that spanking. This isn't something to take for granted. Many adult spankings are playing or scening and life is not altered. What you have is genuine. Your sister apparently doesn't want your relationship changed on the surface, but under the surface, that spanking will define an authority dynamic between you two.


["transforming level of punishment" - ooh yes! Never felt ANYTHING like that before - hope to never again!!! brett is right on about the dynamic. In truth she has always been the one in charge, and I the one resisting her being in charge. Me taking the lead on our play scenes with david sort of turned that dynamic a bit upside down. Her doing this flipped it right side up again and reinforced it 100x! I feel like her little puppy dog, and want to do nothing less than run up to her and have her hug me and pet me!]

Of course, in owning you that day, she went much farther than a traditional discipline spanking. We found out she did have designs on your breasts, but I didn't foresee them being punished. I tend not to think outside my box, which is not that inclusive with regard to general BDSM. And I still don't get the t-shirt. Having you in the corner fully naked or in t-shirt and panties makes more sense to me than in just a t-shirt. A minor point, or something more significant?


[I give my thoughts on that below]

I was surprised to see that she intentionally participated in or made the spanking a sexual experience for you. Another way of owning you. Perhaps to maintain an appearance of necessary detachment, she didn't have to acknowledge your orgasms against the tweed of her pants, but of course she knew what she was doing and targeted your body to arouse you. She controlled everything with her expert hands and skillful application of the wooden spoon. Your poor helpless bare body! You were like a fish out of water, flopping across her lap in involuntary spasms, on the one hand begging to escape your burning punishment and on the other climaxing again and again where your bare wet pussy rubbed desperately against the leg of your own flesh and blood. She took you there, and that is not a place you can share and then leave as if nothing ever happened. On the surface, a relationship maintained, but it's a new bond between you and your big sister.


[Yes. Oh yes oh yes oh yes oh yes! As I look back on the experience from the perspective of one week out, as the pain of the hairbrush and the last 100 with the wooden spoon dims with memory, my disgrace across her knee burns more and more brightly in my memory. FOREVER I will be the little sister who ground her bare wet pussy against her tweed slack and got herself off while being hellishly spanked. Groan and blush!]

I found the ending especially touching. It had been a kind of loving battle between you and Sue, and in an amiable way, you had been utterly defeated. You were a painfully spanked and humiliated little girl. I could almost hear the defeat and resignation in your voice as you asked your husband to administer the final shameful dose of your punishment. The way you had to present your red behind to him and submit your little bottom hole to his erect penis. As you were obliged to explain to him, this wasn't what you wanted. You were being an obedient little sister. You were ass up bent over on your bed because you didn't want another spanking.


[yes.. I also delve into that in my response below]
 

I believe you when you say you never want a spanking like that ever again. You know what a punishment spanking is, as only one who has been punished can know. That doesn't mean you won't be obsessed by the idea that it could happen again. It doesn't mean you won't masturbate with visions of it happening again or that you'll forget what it felt like to cum with your bare pussy pressed against those elegant tweed slacks. I know when your sister is around, you are going to sincerely try to be a good girl. You ARE afraid of what she will do if you're not.

[Yes - my big sister now has the power to sentence me to another spanking anytime she pleases, every bit as hard or harder if she pleases, and I know that I WILL submit. Does she know she has that power over me now?]

I responded to that note from brett below.

Oh golly, Brett. You capture my feelings so well. May I quote large segments for a future post?

I do feel so completely owned by her. I was cheeky with her before. No more! I am genuinely afraid of another spanking. No joke. But why should I be afraid? I'm an adult. She is not allowed to assault me. The problem is that if she sentenced me to another spanking, I would submit to it. I have a deeply rooted submissive side to me. And I guess a masochistic side. My sister clearly triggers it in me in a way no others have. I know this now. I have been taught this by my recent experiences with her. I would do whatever she told me to, even if it meant a painful and humiliating repeat performance across her knee.

I understand the T-shirt. The feelings in my tummy as she rolled it up my body to bare my breasts. Utterly humiliating. Her message was that if I wasn't going to keep them covered around her, that she reserved the right to humiliatingly uncover them. For punishment. And keep them exposed, the refuge of their modest covering so close, banded above my chest, but so inaccessible to me due to her will. The covering or uncovering of my breasts was at her whim, not my choice. Can you imagine being a woman and having to walk around with your T-shirt pulled up to expose your tits? Being forced to do this? I've been topless on a beach many times without shame. This is shameful.

The sexual aspects are INCREDIBLY humiliating. As I look back on my behaviour, my cheeks flush with shame and my tummy churns. Even now, days later, as I write this. When I think of her, or oh my gosh next time I see her socially, with the family, my cheeks will BURN with shame. Not because of the spanking, but because of how I behaved while across her knee, rubbing myself on her pant, unable to control myself. I'll look down at her leg and will BURN with shame. I imagine her knowingly smiling at my blushing cheeks!

And then, yes, having to "present my red behind and submit my little bottom hole to his erect penis." I'm embarrassed that YOU, Brett, know of this aspect of my punishment. That you correctly assessed the depth of my humiliation and submission while his penis split my bottom hole and thrust deeply into my burning bottom. Knowing that it was part of my punishment. In fact, every remotely interested man on the Internet knows!

[I know, I am such a shame slut when submissive!]


And yes, you are absolutely right that it was not something I chose to do. I had had a very different plan. I did it because I knew with ABSOLUTE certainty that if I did not, my bottom and thighs would get one week to heal, and then I would have to undergo that same hellish spanking all over again, knowing this time what I was in for, and then I would again be required to "present my red behind and submit my little bottom hole to his erect penis," possibly under HER supervision (which simultaneously horrifies me, humiliates me, and arouses me). So I did it not because it was my choice, but because I feared another spanking.

I'm a strong and stubborn woman. If someone tells me to do something, I bristle and my first extinct is to not do it out of pride and spite. EVERYBODY now knows that I submitted to what is quite possibly the most humiliating sex act a woman can endure, because I would do anything to avoid another spanking of that caliber from her, and was 100% certain that it would be administered if I failed to have this sex act performed on me with the required outcome.

I really, really, really NEVER want another spanking like that. But I think about it. I imagine it. I HAVE already masturbated to it. Does that mean that it's inevitable I will have to go through it again? Ohhhh!

Even knowing how bad it would be, it feels oddly comforting knowing there is somebody who loves me and has the absolute power, knowledge, experience, and iron will necessary to discipline me properly for my own good.


And then brett's response.

Julie, Sure, you can quote what you like.

I think we share some core kink in common, so I have similar feelings about what you went through and how you must process it. I'm also not a submissive person outside this kinky dynamic. I actually haven't truly experienced it as an adult, but I understand that when we get dominated or so completely owned by someone, we're bound to feel the submission and humiliation far stronger than a person who is naturally submissive or comfortably obedient under authority. What your sister did to you, and more importantly how you responded, is a high degree of psychological friction that does indeed make you BURN with shame.


[It's so strange. I actually LOVE and HATE this feeling of shame I have. It is real, honest to goodness shame, and it turns me on to be feeling it so deeply. What with that?]

My kink centers more on the humility of punishment, but I also understand the shame of being helpless under a spanking's sexual power. That power must be wielded by someone with a special quality. Your sister has it for you. I think we are both similarly attracted to females who possess that quality, and no matter how independent we might be, or how strong our natural inclination is to oppose authority or others telling us what to do, a dominant female disciplinarian we respect is too attractive to resist. Sure, we're adults. She is not allowed to assault us, but she owns us, and we have a need to be owned by her. When she spanks, we become helpless and obedient children. Our behavior is truly influenced by our desire to avoid her spankings, because if we get in trouble, we won't dare dismiss her authority. She makes us burn both physically and emotionally, but her love and care is the sweetest elixir.


[I have fun being submissive under a male, but I really truly feel totally owned only by a strong female, and most of all by, what the fuck, my sister...]

I think I do now understand the t-shirt, and it should have been more obvious to me. How one is exposed, the language, the symbolism... every nuance of meaning. Ritual is the lifeblood of the experience.

"And then, yes, having to "present my red behind and submit my little bottom hole to his erect penis." I'm embarrassed that YOU, Brett, know of this aspect of my punishment. That you correctly assessed the depth of my humiliation and submission while his penis split my bottom hole and thrust deeply into my burning bottom. Knowing that it was part of my punishment. In fact, every remotely interested man on the Internet knows!"

The power of that scene was awesome. What makes it so moving is knowing you and your relationship with your husband. Only with that knowledge can we begin to fully appreciate, in that moment of time, the depth of your sexual submission and how it is exposed as it has never been exposed before. Sexual submission, in and of itself, is not so intriguing to me, but this was about spanking and its power over you, Strict Julie. After shameful orgasms while turned over your sisters knee, it was profound that you, the head of your household, had to present your punished rear end to your husband for the ultimate sexual humiliation. Some women want it, but not you. It was ONLY to avoid a spanking from Sue. How many Internet readers now know what happened to your poor little tender bum?


Answer: ALL OF YOU!


But just look at that photo. I mean, her pussy is right there!!! Warm and wet and inviting. Can give her sexual pleasure. Easily penetrated without undue pain. Clean. But no, not for THIS wife. THIS wife must endure his penis splitting her asshole and the painful fucking that ensues. The enduring feeling of cum seeping out of her asshole afterwards reminding her of where she has been so thoroughly violated. The main and intended "sexual" feeling is that of her shame at being utterly and completely debased by her man, on her knees, bottom up, head down.

Last thing I wanted at that moment was any form of penetrative sex from my husband, much less THAT kind. There was exactly one thought that motivated me to fluff him with my mouth and then bend over for him. One thought. Avoiding another such spanking today from my domineering sister. How humiliating is the truth of that?

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  1. What can be added to what brett said. He read it so beautifully. You now know how it feels to be owned and used and your sister did both to you. Do you wonder who else she has done that too? punishing your breasts making them sting and your nipples erect. Pain but no injury she knew just what she was doing. You hated it but loved it. Will it happen again? If your sister wants it to then it will and again you will climax just like she wants you to.
    I don't recall but did you thank her for what happened? You should.
    archedone

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    1. I know she has a lot more experience spanking girls than I, and I did know one or two.

      I did say "thank you for the spanking" afterwards and she just sort of brushed it off, saying, "yeah, it was fun", AS IF NOTHING MORE HAPPENED!

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  2. Julie, Absolutely Perfect!
    I haven’t been able to reply for a while but have been following with much interest. Your analysis of events seems to be spot on. For Sue boundaries are very important. Especially the boundaries that allow her to keep sharing playtime with you and David. You Young Lady are a boundary pusher!
    Sue, like her sister, is smart, loving and kinky. All of which came through to me in the previous post. Punishment to fit the crime. Punishment for overruling her with David during your beating. Also punishment for the bratty little sister (well I have to say it) you are. She was out to reset the dynamic between herself and her younger sister.
    JOB WELL DONE!
    She knows you as well as anyone in your life. You are an extremely sexual person and she gave you a little gift during your punishment, ON HER TERMS! I’m sure she reveled in it, rightly so.
    Just a reminder Young Lady. You set the boundary for discussion about the spanking between the two of you. As I recall in your texts when asking for the spanking you said no discussion. Sue seems to be honoring that request. Unless black and blue is your chosen winter color scheme I would recommend you not push this boundary either.
    Absolutely Perfect!
    Tom

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    1. Wow Tom, never thought if it quite that way, but you are absolutely right...

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  3. A very deep and psychological exchange between you two. It helps when you can have someone to speak to about sessions like this on such a primal level.

    Let me ask you something Julie. Yesterday at 3:00pm, as though it was part of a maintenance ritual you are now sentenced to...every Sunday at 3. If you had a button you could press that would instantly find yourself bare-bottomed and in the corner with Sue's heels clicking around behind you. Would you have pressed it ?

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    1. NO! I mean yes.. NO! maybe... I don't know!

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  4. Your world seems to be a different place now and there is a completely understandable disorientation. I may be overstating it but it is possible that, on some level, this was a life altering experience. You surrendered the person you were into your sister’s hands and she gave back the person you are discovering now. What a truly exciting time for you.

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    1. I guess every minute of existence alters your life, but it is true that it seemed very accelerated during those particular 120 minutes!

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  5. I being a single male, enjoyed this so much, I found myself masturbating at the kitchen table. I was so hard that I soon was naked, stroking, and it was the best, Thank You. Cleaning up afterwards was not fun, but been awhile since I did such a thing. Thank You.

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    1. Yes, Sister play seems to have that effect on my male readers especially! Ha ha!

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    2. More sister play or female play, please.

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  6. Sue also owns your husband's dick. It is she who says in which hole his cock must go.

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    1. Well, I own his dick, and I guess she owns me, so by that virtue she owns it I suppose.

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  7. I have a thought......but it might not be for you. There is something about having a person you KNOW will punish and punish hard.....even when it's not what you 'want' (but do want on some level).

    If I found myself in such a situation I would be consumed with the following thought: 'How interesting would it be to go back to Sue and make her a trial period offering of total authority?

    The idea would be that unlike this event that you instigated, she could impose any punishment she wishes strictly on her own whim. For you it would be an experiment in seeing if the idea of not being the one to initiate things is exciting. There is a certain delightful scariness to genuinely being subject to the whim of another, particularly when you have the elements in play that you have here. Sue is trustworthy, discreet, and essentially loving, yet she is also mischievous, strict, and unapologetic in her domination. It would also be unlikely that such an offer would be refused.

    For me such a suggestion would be irresistible.

    Something to think about.

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    1. Not that enticing for me, to go out of my way like that, and I'm not THAT submissive besides. And would really change the dynamic to almost "submissive lover" status which I don't want to go there with her. Keeping it at "occasional playmate" is childlike in its innocence and perfect for us.

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  8. A very interesting thought indeed, just mentioned above. Somewhat in line with my question about having a magic button to press...would you ? Knowing that although there could be some sexual aspect to what may occur, you also know you're going to be punished for real !

    Quite the predicament. I think this last poster was on to something. Giving her full authority to PUNISH you, not play with you, but a real disciplinarian in your life.

    Some adults would be begging to have this in their day-to-day lives. Accountable, held to a higher standard, consequences for their actions or lack of actions.

    Read any peofesssinal disciplinarians page and they always revert back to this. What some adults truly need and can benefit from on a personal and real level.

    Your disciplinarian is right infront of you Julie, a real one not a "scene" one. You should take the plunge and give it a try.

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    1. I really don't need a "disciplinarian". I am very self-disciplined myself. david on the other hand...

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  9. He definitely hit the nail on the head with it. I see some things myself as well as you and I have emailed for about a year now

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    1. Here please. More humbling if I have to read it in front of others.

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    2. You've often told me that the way I speak with you has turned you on. You've at the same time told me you would not be a sub but here you are finally admitting that you have a very submissive side.
      My read on all of this,
      There are things that you struggle with that you feel guilt for but you still like to keep some sort of control
      Someone has finally taken you in hand and stripped you of control. It excites you yet terrifies you at the same moment. Terrifies you because there are some deep rooted things that do need to be addressed and you've always controlled that but now some of those things are/Will be coming to the surface.
      Excites you because you've always had to be in control but now for once you can relax and let loose.
      Until you truly acknowledge and admit this you will be conflicted. It's ok to let the walls down but of course it has to be someone you truly trust.
      I care about Julie and wanted to share this with you. Hope it makes sense to you.
      Also hope when that bottom needs to be bared that you will submit and let go of the control.
      You long for this but don't know where to go from here.
      J

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    3. I think I let go of control real good.
      No conflict here. I am a switch!

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    4. Oh has the conflict ended?
      And you let go of control real good........that's the funniest thing I've heard! Every situation you've shared with us you have had some control in it. I believe you've even stated that you needed to feel some control.
      I will no longer publicly display my insights and views as you've completely written off what I've shared almost as if its way off and a joke.
      Thank you for embarrassing me publicly especially since it's not easy for me to share things that I see.

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    5. Don't be like that. We are just having a conversation. You are entitled to your views and me to mine. I was not rude or dismissive to you. I enjoy reading your take

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    6. That's how it came across

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    7. Excuse me.. .there are many ways to understand your conversation and since it is public, maybe one can ask a question.
      Bubbaj, would you agree with this?
      The humiliation you feel is real, you have not asked for it, it is imposed on you by Julie.
      One of the interpretations that I find very exciting is this turnaround: you intended to take power over Julie and to be at the origin of her public submission and you end up with your naked soul receiving, so to speak, a public spanking.
      (in the same way as in "a story switched" Jimmie found himself in the reverse situation.)
      Here your humiliation is unexpected and this reversal is even the basis of your humiliation. You see the near victory, Julie attracts you with her "more humbling in public" and you find yourself in the situation of the little boy about to cry in front of everyone because not only he did not get what he wanted but in addition, he has just been severely humiliated.
      Julie: Is the Bubbaj's reaction to being publicly humiliated by you, a turn on for you?
      If you find these questions too intrusive, forget this post.

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    8. Ha ha! I published it because I am a naughty little boundary pusher (didn't I just get spanked for that?!?)

      I feel as if I am just a mirror in this. Mirrors are not turned on or turned off, they just reflect. My readers such as bubbaj choose to feel what they feel, my words were not insulting or dismissive, they are right there for everybody to see.

      I am a bit turned on by your take on it, though. I do think bubbaj is as you describe and needs a spanking from Mommy for pouting.

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    9. I suspect most people here, myself included, on some level want to nudge (push) Julie in the directions that please us. Projecting our kinks on her. Sometimes we're right in tune with her reality, sometimes not. I do believe she's candid and honest about her feelings, and that she welcomes our viewpoints. And, yes, she's a very naughty little boundary pusher.

      However awful it would be, she may have to administer some spankings for our presumptions and manipulations. What could we do but accept our humiliating punishments?

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    10. You are truly the discipline queen, Miss Julie.

      Would gladly drop my panties for you...

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    11. I'm a very real, honest and open person as I believe Julie would agree.
      This was not about power over Julie at all. I'm not a power trip guy. I'm a spanker but also up until recently I got spanked.
      This is what I believe I was seeing and I just felt she was dismissive of it right away

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    12. If I may add a comment, you said "hope ... that you will submit and let go of the control". The funniest line was "Email or here dear". But how were you spanked?

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  11. Ms Julie, if memory serves me correctly you did a scene with david involving mma / wrestling.
    Maybe a future spanking scene with Ms Sue might consist of you resisting another spanking, talking back to her.
    She then will wrestle take you down, strip you and force you to accept the punishment that will follow as a result of you not willingly not submitting to you

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    1. I've been watching some of the UFC women fighters (david's a total UFC fanboy). Would love for some of them to decide they needed to spank me. I'd be helpless!

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    2. Sounds like you would be perfect for a scene similar to the ultimate surrender videos

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    3. Except I'd want to kick their ass!

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  12. Ms Julie, if memory serves me correctly you did a scene with david involving mma / wrestling.
    Maybe a future spanking scene with Ms Sue might consist of you resisting another spanking, talking back to her.
    She then will wrestle take you down, strip you and force you to accept the punishment that will follow as a result of you not willingly not submitting to you

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  13. An interesting train of thought that your very own sister might be in the process of being handed the reins to becoming a more commanding participant of Ms. Julie's sexual escapades?

    She who rules Julie does also rules David. Has Sue has begun her upgraded role of deciding who gets what and where and how? The possibilities are both intriguing and also a bit disturbing...Enjoy :)

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    1. I really don't know. One way of looking at it is that I asked her to spank me and she did. Another is that she took that opportunity to teach me a little lesson (lesson learned!) about boundary busting. Not sure she wants "control". Not sure I would cede it.

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  14. Rogering here.Brett an excellent confidante and insightful. You are torn between your dominant role over David and now confirmed submission to your sister.I can foresee a scenario in the future, where its possible your sister may involve you in a threesome with one of her girlfriends and the dynamic that could engender would be interesting to see.



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    1. Wow! That thought just BLEW MY MIND! I would, in a second.

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  15. Subbie Julie is always adorable : )

    Thanks for posting.

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  16. Julie, I'm really happy you wanted to share our correspondence. This experience with your sister was a truly important one for you, and many of us who follow you here wanted to be a part of it. Through your blog, it's a shared experience... an intimate one you enjoy sharing. Humiliation requires an audience, and after years of putting on display for us your husband's ordeals under the hand of the "monster he created," it is now you who is stripped and exposed in the public square of shame for all to see.

    Of course, we use the term "monster" affectionately. You bring david great joy, with much love, and many here dream of having a partner like you. At the same time, I'm sure I'm not the only one here who appreciates the magnitude of contrast that is created when you are transformed by your big sister. There's an element of comeuppance in the punishment you received from Sue, and also the greater distance you fall when you find yourself in such disgrace.

    One other point I want to make is about the relationship you have and will continue to have with your sister. I think I understand your desire to remain sisters and not become intimately involved romantically or as a submissive under her authority. On the one hand, I believe there is something quite authentic in her being your big sister. It's not just a "scene." You know that she has an authority over you, and as real life, she will express that authority as life dictates, not as part of a scheduled excuse for you to be punished. If you do find yourself in the position of having to receive an embarrassing and truly punishing spanking you fear over your big sister's knee, whether it's next week or years from now, it will be spontaneous and agonizingly real. On the other hand, you are not in need of discipline. You're a strong, independent person, and your nature is still as a dominant woman. I enjoy this contrast and want to see you at both ends of the wide spectrum that is your sexuality.

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    1. Thank you so much for your help and contributions! You hit the nail on the head again here. I will submit to her punishment again if she calls for it, and will fear it! I will be letting her know that she has that power over me if she chooses to use it.

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    2. Did you tell her that she has power over you and she tell you if and how she plans to exercise it?

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    3. We DID have a conversation! Will tell you guys all about it.

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    4. Ms. Julie - congratulations on a successful conversation your sister, and looking forward to reading about it soon!

      - t.

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    5. Yes... it was... enlightening!

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  17. I am humbled by your blog. No one loves me as you do your precious david. The passion displayed between you and david and your sister is intoxicaing, to say the least. I look forward to your posts and find myself both envious and grateful for what you have. Not everyone is so blessed as you are. I don't believe for a second that I will ever be so fortunate as you, david and your sister but your blog is so powerful to me because I see what others have that I cannot. I am grateful to have discovered your blog. Thank you Julie and count your blessings every day. You are truly blessed! Lc

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    1. Thanks Lc, I know that I am a very, very fortunate gal.

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  18. Now, Sue can spank the whole family both husband and wife.

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    1. Oh my goodness...the two of you, bent over the back of the couch, bare bottoms at the ready, implements on a little table, laid out. You and david hip to hip. Waiting for your sister....
      peter peter

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    2. Can I be pussy to face as she spanks me?

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    3. Hmmm....sounds absolutely delightful though I cannot picture what you mean :) peter peter

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  19. I wonder what your younger sister would think if she read this? Horrified but a little bit curious/excited?

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    1. She's a TOTAL little prude. Must have been adopted...

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  20. "Apologies for me recapping the session, I am sort of obsessed with it."

    I laughed out loud when I read that. Did I call it or what?

    Well done!

    Yorkie

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  21. Christmas Eve.
    Gifts are exchanged in the living room around the tree after dinner.
    Sue gives you something like a CD, she adds a smirk.
    You open your gift, a little worry.
    It's a CD. It is called BOUNDARIES, written in blue on red background
    You : Oh nooo ! You can't have done that Sue !!Tell me you didn't do that !!
    Sue : Happy Christmas, little sister !
    Your mother : what is this ?
    You : some music that Sue offer me, it's not to listen now I think
    The nephews : Music ! What kind ?
    The nephews : Aunty you are so red !! Your cheeks are burning !!
    Sue : it's a weird group : lots of vocalizes, shrieks, screams...
    You : well, we will listen that later...
    The nephews reading the list of songs on the booklet

    I
    Waiting
    Warming
    Action (first part) – Wood
    Time out
    II
    Action (second part) – Spoon
    Bucking (1, 2, 3)
    Final ( one hundred)
    A sobbing mess

    The nephews : it seems very conceptual ! Can't we listen now, aunty ?
    Sue : sure ! Give me the CD Julie, I will put it
    You : Nooo, your can't Sue, it is not fair !
    Sue takes the CD and puts it.
    You think that you are going to die.
    ....
    The younger nephew : Ohhhh, it's "Them or us" ! I love that this old Zappa!
    Sue : Ah ! They must have put the wrong disk in the CD. I will bring it back.
    I hope they have the right one.
    You : Oh Gosh !! You bitch !!! Does it exists or not ??!!

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      With smartphones everywhere, not out of the question that my hollering was recorded!

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  22. It might have been intriguing to see the aftermath of Sue's handiwork on your breasts as well. We, your devoted readers have taken many steps with you on this journey.

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    1. Well I'm NOT doing it again for you!

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  23. How long until you break david's ass after this outrage? I mean, he really needs to know what you've passed in your sister's hands!

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    1. David's regularly scheduled spankings have already returned!

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    2. That is wonderful news, plus i hope adam has made an appearance

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    3. Not Adam quite yet, but his little brother.

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  24. "Come into my parlour said the spider to the fly." I believe Sue has been planning this for some time. Evidence is, one, she referenced history where you "jumped into Dads lap in your panties when you were 16" and said she wanted to spank you "since you were 2". This demonstrates a long term motive on her part.

    Two, she prefers girls and yet has initiated joint sessions with David. Odd? As pleasant as the sessions with David were, I expect it was your presence she enjoyed the most and the opportunity those sessions might create for direct interaction with you alone. That opportunity finally arose from the baby breast scene with David.

    Three, in the baby breast scene with David she "jokingly" said she'd put you across her knee. That was no joke. She was laying the bait for you and later you took it.

    Four, when you texted her she had the whole scene laid out in her mind all the way down to the no bra/t-shirt detail. There was no hesitation. Your request was expected. You were hooked and she was reeling you in.

    Five, how do you explain her outfit? Every woman gives this some thought in situations such as these. I suspect that she chose the tweed pants deliberately knowing they would appeal to you. Her plan was always to have you hump her covered thigh and control your orgasms to emphasise your submission. Weren't the tweed pants more likely to assist with this than bare skin or a skirt? In your description you particularly admired them. She knows you well.

    Six, you are a gorgeous, intelligent switch with a recently discovered subby side. What dom wouldn't want a piece of that action? Simply put, Sue fancies you and when you exposed your breasts to her and had her smear David's cum on them, you sent the clearest possible signal that her time with you alone was imminent.

    But most importantly, families are a wolf pack and Sue's place above you in the pack has now been restored in her eyes. I mean no criticism of the lovely Sue. She is elder and to her this is the natural order of things. Her plan might have been partly sub concious but this was planned well in advance Ms Julie. Her masterstroke though was to control your orgasms. Now she owns you, and through you, David. Will it happen again? Well you are already masturbating about it. I'd say it's pretty likely and half your luck to be dominated by cool hand Sue.

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    1. Good analysis!
      One of my pen pals who has a lot of experience spanking women across his knee says these sorts of grinding orgasms while experiencing fanny pain are not uncommon for girls, and that Sue as a lesbian top would be well aware of this and well practiced at achieving this result. 'Kinda even more humiliating knowing that!

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  25. Hello Julie!

    “Apologies for me recapping the session, I am sort of obsessed with it.”: let me tell you that you are not the only one; at least i am obsessed too. You have become in a sort of close friend, and your worries, joys, and of course your sexual pleasures, are always present.

    How confused I feel you. If “my English” don't betray me, I perceive you in a mess of feelings. There are only few firm statement, the rest are a lot of doubts and even contradictions. We will wait to the development of things and the clarify of the feelings.

    Meanwhile, I think that if you can answer what were you looking for, doing Sue to spread david’s cum on your breasts, you will see the way you want to continue with this.
    Did you do as a simple mischief?
    Did you do just to embarrass Sue?
    Or you wanted Sue touching you as a way for teasing her?
    Were you looking for anything else that now is lost in your mind?
    Perhaps there were (is) something more, and now, with all that adrenaline and unleashed feelings you lost the focus.
    This remember me how much confused were you before allow the spanking and the erotical interaction with John, and suddenly, when you joined the confusion with your bad experiences everything became clear.
    The Christmas holiday will catalyze the outcome.

    I liked a lot that you said you feel like a pet that want she tosses your hair (there are two times that, in different ways, you have said that). That is just what I think you should do if you want to continue the relationship in that way. Behave you like a kitten. That is my fantasy now (although the important thing is not my fantasy but your reality): if you two are alone, or only with david, receive her with a hug, if before was with a simple kiss; with a long and tight hug, if before was with a simple hug. Sitting you beside her, reclining on her, yours legs folded on the couch; your head on her shoulder, perhaps in her breast, your hand in her lap, drawing imaginary things. She speaking with David. From time to time a caress for you. In other moment, you sitting in the floor, at her feet; your head on her lap, her hand among your hairs... and all the things that can happen in the meantime. I do not continue.

    Waiting anxious,

    El que escribe en español.

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    1. What you describe, being her pet, turns me on!
      Why did I do it? I knew what I was doing. I thought we were in a rut, I wanted to shake things up, I wanted to see what would happen. Making her smear cum on my breast was extremely naughty given her sexual orientation. Either I would own her, or she me. I wanted to see which, and would have had fun with either. I like the way it turned out.

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    2. Then you wanted to broke the rut and sure you did it!!!

      I think it was impossible you could own her. You two are dominant, but we don't know Sue as a switch, while our favorite dom yes is. So you got what you wanted from the beginning, you owned by Sue.
      Sorry, but that is what I believe, and I suppose that you knew it will be that way.

      The description that turns you on: there are many who will be running in my head until you tell us what happened next time.

      Bye,

      El que escribe en español

      PS: sorry my errors

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    3. Yes, it worked out how it should have.

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  26. It is clear you are avoiding the truth hinted at/stated in some of the comments: sue now owns both you and david. You are obviously consumed with wanting her to take more control of you. And she has no problem wanting to see david disciplined in feminine mode or using him to finish your punishment. The result, eventually, will be her dominance of a married slave couple. Imagine you and your girl having to clean her house/apartment every month, both dressed as frilly French maids, as Sue inspects your work with a hair brush. Or you cleaning naked while david hobbles around in her five-inch heels. Of course, having one or the both of you serving a gathering of her lesbian friends, serving HOW she wants, would definitely be a possibility. Finally, she would reinforce her domination of you both with her wooden spoon and strapons, just as she would with any of her other lesbian pets. Your life has already begun to change; now come the next chapters.

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  27. I love this scenario

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  28. maybe for christmas buy Big Sis Sue some new wooden spoon or maybe think paddle say for little sis Julie naughty cute bear butt dont you think be nice appreicate present from well spanked little sis Julie i think sue thanks you with smirk tell u want try out later

    we need sue email so can congrat her on your spankin maybe u can send some of us naughty boys to Sue since be able give us spankin of our life like you got

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    1. I will choose her gift with care.

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    2. iam sure you and i both know why choose gift with care be something really want and could use

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  29. (Read using your best loving but concerned Dad voice.)
    Sue,
    I know you were genuinely angry with your sister when you punished her. Angry because Julie’s impulsive behavior jeopardized your playtime relationship. Not just with Julie but also with David. I know both of them are very dear to you.
    I have mentioned this to Julie and by her response I think she understands. But we both know that her mind is racing with thoughts of “what if’s” and differing possibilities about your future relationship. When she starts obsessing she can be a real handful!
    Sue I’m certain that you accomplished getting your relationship back on track with boundaries intact. But if you do need any help reining your bratty sister back in please ask. I also have a large wooden spoon that I would be delighted to apply to her backside with equal vigor.
    Tom

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    1. I think all Daddy needs is his hand to teach a little girl her lesson...

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    2. Well Young Lady it seems you were eavesdropping on a private conversation with your sister! I don’t think bratty little girls get to choose the implement of their punishment.
      15 min bare bottom with your nose against the wall then we will see what I decide to use!
      Tom

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    3. ...hope it's your hand, sir...

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  30. Sue seems to be an excellent discipline rian, she gave you a beating not just a spanking, she hit your bottom, legs and even feet (some sort of bastinado) not to mention breasts. Wow she is a dream lady.

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    1. Did you get bastinado Julie?

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    2. A little bit. As I was across her lap my feet were kicking up at the knees a bit. She reached with the spoon and struck the souls of my feet a few times each. She made me hold them there for her. Was not very hard as she was a bit stretched out and she seemed a bit tentative, but I received it!

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    3. Did you like bastinado

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  31. Dear Sue . I would like to Convey how much I enjoyed seeing young ms julie in the corner well blistered . I applaud your ability to communicate your direction to her with out reserve for her backside. She is obviously way overdue. I would be glad to supply you with a custom paddle to assist in that endeavor for the future. Since I have already done so before and she expressed her approval of the paddle in writing , it would be hard for her to express disagreement at this point. I look forward to hearing and seeing more of your handywork in the future.

    Yours Truly
    Paddle Daddy

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    1. That's ok, Sir, I already have a big beautiful one I bust out regularly!

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  32. To continue my explanation of how your new life will eventually be as part of an owned married couple . . . It's not going to be all happy spankings and rubbing yourself against your dominant sister's elegant legs. No, she's going to want more than that for herself. She's going to want to be pleased and by both you and your feminized husband. And at times it's going to be frustrating for you, just as Sue intends. Such as when she orders you both to her bedroom in the middle of one of your maid days, tells you to strip naked and face the wall, and forces maid david to pleasure her with her sissy mouth. Between multiple orgasms, she'll enjoy the sight of a nude female with a shapely ass and long legs, while taunting you for training such an excellent pussy licker whom she now is taking advantage of. You will be tempted to turn around and watch because you will become so wet and jealous, not of Sue for having your husband, but of david for being where you want to be. If you do try to steal a look, she will dismiss you from her room, order you to stand next to the closed door and listen to her moans. You will not be allowed to touch yourself. Sissy will sniff your fingers later and report whether you have disobeyedq since she knows your scent so intimately. If you have cheated, maybe Sue will give you that spanking that you crave so much. But maybe she won't, which will be so much worse than if she actually had blistered your ass. David, meanwhile, will be just as frustrated, leaking into the sissy panties that go with the maid's dress, after spending an hour pleasing your older, superior sister. No, he didn't get relief either, as he did last Christmas with a wank and a spank. Christmas is still a long eleven days away, after all.

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    1. I don;t know... I'm getting back into a toppy mood. Caught me at the wrong time!

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    2. Don't think you'll suddenly become un-obsessed. (smiles knowingly)

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    3. Maybe, but needs time to come back around!

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  33. Victoria Secret is having a sale right now. Has David done anything to warrant a return trip back for a couple new bras and panties to add to his collection as an early xmas gift. Maybe you two can get a matching pair that you both wear when opening gifts ;-)

    Sarah

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  34. All of this is incredibly erotic. What is extra hot is that that from time to time, maybe years in the future, when you are rubbing yourself it will randomly pop into your head and there is nothing to do about it. Happy Holidays!

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  35. My best friend and I would do all sorts of foolish things, Jane would actually start it, I would join in. One particular time opened up a new world, I went on vacation with her, it was just her mother and the two of us. We continued with our behavior until her mother had enough, it was not funny anymore. One afternoon we were both standing before her, trying to explain, when she said we were both getting a spanking, we responded, at our age. We were glad that the spanking would be across our panties and I watched in shock as my friend squirmed, kicked, while her mother spanked her. It was when the panties came down I could not move. When it was my turn, I dreaded the moment the panties were pulled down. When it did happen I could care less my bottom was stinging, very warm. We both improved our behavior. We are now married, she being in charge. She did not like at all the spanking, I admitted to her I enjoyed it. Yes, she does spank me, yes her Mother, now my Mother, told in-law will not be used, knows, wedding present was a nice large hairbrush. Never been spanked by a male, don’t wish to, my better half is really good, and the added benefit is my new Mother has taken me over her lap a few times.

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    1. If this offends you, did not mean to. My wife and I were browsing, interesting what turns males on. I just thought I would share are story and hoped it was okay.

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    2. Not at all. 'Kinda go both ways myself! All letters of alphabet welcomed. It's just that around this neck of the woods, "panties" could be worn equally by man or woman!

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    3. And that is a great story! I find it very sexy that you are spanked by your wife and her mother, right on your bare wiggling bottom!

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    4. There two different spankings, my mother-in-law, I must call her Mommy, her spankings leave me feeling like a little girl who has been very naughty and so Mommy needs to spank. My “husband” can go either way, his spankings are not as hard as Mommy.

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  36. Dear julie, You have come along reluctantly on your journey, but you have now admitted you are a sub and a switch, and you will accept additional punishment from Sue. As others have pointed out you are conflicted with this desire, but these desires will guide you and David into a new chapter of your life. I can definitely see you and David serving some of Sue's girl friends in the future. You won't like being treated as a servant and being humiliated in front of strangers, but Sue will take you to your sub place and you will do it for her. Can't wait to hear about it.

    John

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    1. No... I like being a top too much to let that happen!

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  37. Is there not an unacknowledged dilemma for you at the heart of this? You acknowledged earlier that you owed Mistress Violet penance for blogging without permission about a session. To your credit you paid the penance, though only because you were caught out! By your own logic the same penance must be due to your sister because you have done the same thing. The only difference is you have not been caught out this time. If you admit this to your sister she will learn about the blog. She may also punish you again, perhaps even more severely, though you cannot be certain. Both outcomes are ones you may not wish. But penance is due by your own standards. Maybe you will find a workaround similar to the previous one whereby David was given a substitute reason for your punishment. Maybe you could give a substitute reason to your sister to punish you so she does not find out about the blog. Maybe silence is the best policy and leave the penance unpaid if you're happy with that. I'm not sure if I would be or not.

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    1. OH, I am VERY happy continuing to conceal!!! I am a BAD girl!

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  38. Ha ha! Love it. You are a BAD girl. Without doubt, I couldn't disagree with you. If caught you should probably be caned for this (wouldn't you agree?). But you won't be caught will you?

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    1. Oh hell yes! A week of canings at least! DO NOT plan on being caught!!!!

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