Tuesday, October 25

Julie in for a Severe Paddling! (part 2)

Sorry for the click bait, but the event anticipated in Julie in for a Severe Paddling! (part 1) still has not happened. We're trying to arrange something for next week, likely Tuesday. So there will definitely be a part 3 coming soon! I am going through with it, knowing that is a very good chance I will wind up like the naked girl in the photo below, undergoing a severe paddle blistering from my girl friend Tracy.


While I have considerable experience dishing it out to my man, this will be my first real experience being on the receiving end. I simply do not know the experience level of my friend, and I enjoy the anticipation of not knowing. When I asked her over the phone if she was willing and able to dole out the required hard paddling, she responded (quite gleefully from her tone I might add!), "Don't you worry. I'll paddle your butt real good. You won't be sitting after I'm done."

Now, this may be a joking bluster on her part. If she lacks experience she won't know how hard is hard, and being a sane person might underestimate that, as has been my (personal) experience on my journey on the topside. On the other hand, my butt is pretty virginal (in the spanking sense - don't ask otherwise!), so it may not take a lot either...

Our plan, detailed below, is to give Tracy a letter from Sir with some additional requirements, tips and details that ought to make her more comfortable spanking harder (and still safely) if she wants to. More fun if it appears to come from him. For example, in the letter he requests that I be completely bare naked during my spanking. Given she has no problem spanking me bare butt, I doubt the additional nudity will be a problem? But at any rate, with this letter it gives us an easy out, as in "what a perv, ha ha, the spanks are going to be over your dress, of course! What does he take us for?!" Or she might just say (which I think is the path of least resistance): "It says strip. So strip."

I have been warned by some experienced and concerned readers not to overly build up my expectations. Not to let my fantasies run too wild on what might happen, and then be disappointed by what actually does. I know it's well meaning, but I 'kinda reject that thinking. I am having an incredible, humbling experience imagining the worst! This is the "fun part" (if you call that funny churning butterfly feeling in the pit of my tummy "fun", which I think I do). That, "Oh no, she might actually..."

I am bi-sexual, but do not have a tremendous amount of experience with women as compared to men. With women, it's like I'm a teenager again, experiencing sex for the first times. So I get these puppy love moments, as I am feeling now for Tracy. So my first "real" spanking and these puppy love sexual feelings are all churning together in my tummy.



That's surely what it's like for a man as well. This overlay of sexual excitement, dominance from their partner, submission from themselves, and spanking pain. What a confused jumble! I have never quite experienced this before now, which is why I am reveling in the anticipation.

My expectations for the actual event? Anything goes! It will be an experience regardless and I am going in with a fully open mind, body, and soul, and we'll just have to see, now won't we?

Picking up the narrative from where I left off in the previous installment, with my phone call with Tracy, I wrote Sir back, and recounted my conversation with her, ending with,
So OMG! A girl's 'gonna do it.
I get into such shenanigans. Thank you, sir!
Good girl.  Is there going to be anymore whining about this spanking young lady?
Oh no Sir!
I'm very happy that my pretty friend will spank me.
(Although I may be sorry, and sore, afterwards!)
I fully expect that u had better be sore and sorry young lady
Then he got another idea..
After you have been soundly paddled the next day will be spent in a pleated skirt no panties. Every time you sit it will be bare bottom to seat. And you are forbidden to play in any way touching yourself.
Oh dear... pleated skirt, no panties, after a blistering???

 Sitting on my bare blistered bottom???

What if someone finds out???

But I have to do as Sir instructs, or at least try...
That is very hot, Sir!
You bring out the subby in me...
The day after my upcoming paddling, which I fully expect will blister my butt, I will wear a skirt, no panties, and sit on my sore bare tail. And I'll try very very hard to not play with myself, though I don't know how successful I will be...
If you fail you will be punished again.  If you really want to understand submission you have to experience it. You Will NOT relieve your desire.
A few days later I wrote again. I'd been thinking about this paddling from Tracy, orchestrated by Sir, a lot,
I still haven't heard that the paddle has arrived. I'll reach out today to ask, though I made her promise to text me as soon as she got it.

Feeling very nervous about my paddling!!! Not least because it will be this friend of mine administering it that I've never acted out on anything sexual with before. It might wind up in bed! I hope so... You only said no touching myself or relief the NEXT day. Is getting my pussy licked by a girl the day of my paddling ok???
I think it would be less awkward if you wrote me an email saying something like, "In exchange for the paddle, I expect...". That way I can share that with her and it won't be me "begging for it", it will be you. I can tell her I gave my word of honour to carry it out in exchange for my paddle, and we can laugh about it and how "pervy" you are (in a good way! It's a compliment when it comes from me, sir!). And then she's 'gonna have to do it.
In the email you could be more prescriptive with her on my paddling. Like,warm up or not before? Positioning. How undressed? How hard (hard, I hope! I want to feel it, and she will probably need encouragement to go hard enough). Corner time before or after? Position for the photo. What my butt should look like in the photo to satisfy you that I was properly paddled (maybe just "Seriously marked up or you'll be doing it again" so she knows she won't be doing me any favors by going light). Whatever you want. I want to feel that submissiveness, sir. And I doubt she has much experience and I don't want to be the one telling her what to do!

Thank you!
Sir wrote the first draft quickly. And he specified a number of additional indignities. I "unfortunately" had to keep all of those in the note! We went back and forth on the right tone and wording in the note to Tracy, but we kept all the activities that Sir had required, of course. We settled on the following. I'll add my initial reactions as I read Sir's note for the first time inline in dark red.
From: Sir
To: Tracy
Re. The paddling of Julie
First of all, let me say thank you, Tracy, for agreeing to extract my payment from Julie's little butt. I do not know your experience level in administering a spanking to a young lady such as Julie. In case you are new to it, below are some suggestions. Of course, please feel free to do whatever and only as much as you are comfortable with. Julie has already agreed to the strength and number of strokes, and to whatever additional instructions I choose, which are as follows.

1) Tell her to remove her clothing. ALL OF IT. If she is shy about it or slow about it, a sharp hand smack to her upper thighs will suffice to motivate her.
Oh crap. I didn't know Sir would make me strip naked!!! I thought it would be just panties demurely lowered?? And then being hurried along by Tracy with slaps to my thighs if I don't go quick enough??? and Sir KNOWS how sensitive my thighs are... This is going to be absolutely humiliating...
2) Put her into the corner for 10 minutes, by the clock, to contemplate her fate. Take a pic of her in the corner as a "Before".
What....!!!???  Naked corner time? Like a little freakin' girl!!! Arghhhh! I'm Strict Julie. I don't DO corner time!!! I MAKE people do corner time! Boo hoo.
Imagine me standing like this, completely nude, nose in the corner, punished like a child with a timeout, for ten whole minutes. tick, tick, tick, as Tracy shakes her head at this silly little girl while contemplating what she will do to her silly little bottom after the timeout is up...
3) Then please open the package containing the paddle while she is still in the corner, and prepare the room for her spanking. I suggest a good straight back chair. I'm sure she will hate being spanked bare over the knee like a sassy 10 yr old.
How absolutely humiliating. I'm not a sassy 10 yr old and don't want to appear that way to my friend...

4) Call her out of her corner and put her across your knee. A good hand spanking as a warm up is necessary to get her attention.
Totally bare naked across her knee. Oh no!
I guess a hand spanking warm-up is good and bad. I was hoping for a hand spanking to warm me up before the paddle. But it's kind of open ended. What if Tracy goes nuts???
Then I'll be a sorry red-bottomed girl even before the paddle comes out!!!!
5) Once you have her full attention, then start in with the paddle. I expect the end result to be a very very red butt. A good sign of a job well done is tears. I suggest 24 sound strokes. HOWEVER that is MY due. You may feel free to add up to double if you feel necessary to take your "pound of flesh" as well.
What??? "Add up to double???" Does that mean she can ADD another 48??? On top of my 24? That's... that's... 72 paddle spanks!!!! Where did that come from. Oh Shit! If she takes Sir up on it, I WILL be in tears, and my butt WILL be blistered! What did I get myself into??? But I agreed to take what Sir and Tracy choose to dish out...

6) After you are sufficiently satisfied that the paddle has been paid for IN FULL, and that you too have been compensated for your time, please then take a picture of her over your knee still with the paddle laying in the small of her back.
Expected that. How embarrassing to have to ask her to take that photo.

7) She should then be put back in the corner bare bottom for 15 min or so. This will help her compose herself.
I wonder if 5 minutes still qualifies as "or so?" I wonder what my butt will look like?
The next day she will be required to wear a dress and no underwear and to sit on only hard wooden chairs on her blistered bare bottom.
Did Sir have to tell her that?
Please understand that she has agreed to pay for her new paddle in this manner, and has agreed that if the pictures do not show a sufficiently well-blistered bottom that I will be requiring her to do it again. So you WILL NOT be doing her a favor by going light. I expect her to know and feel this for several days.
Yes. I asked for that sentiment. But that was when I thought I was only getting 24 max! I am so done for... she will BLISTER me.

I'm sure Julie does not want you to know this, but she wants me to "insist on" you making sure it it is a "for real" intense and severe paddling, where you ignore any crying, pleas for mercy, kicking, yelling, and so on during this punishment. She is too embarrassed to ask you this herself directly. Assuming you are comfortable with it, please ensure at the time that this is indeed what she still wants, and then I suggest you give her exactly what she's asking for.
I actually wrote that part of this note. What a dope I am! I better play safe, though, and make her more comfortable...

If you confine the intense paddling to her lower butt cheeks, the plump undersides of her ass, there will be no chance of injuring her. The photo below shows the safe area (and the correct results).
If you spank where indicated, you may feel confident in paddling hard but safely. And she will need it. If you are new to this, then harder than you imagine. For further safety's sake, though, I must insist that Julie have a "safeword", which is "Red". If she uses her safeword you must stop, of course, and check-in with her.
There. Safe, Sane, and Consensual. Well consensual and safe anyways. Two out of three ain't bad!

Thank you so very much for your assistance, Tracy. As you can well imagine, I am very much looking forward to receiving those photos from Julie to pin up above my woodworking bench.
I'm sure you are, Sir! (actually, the pinning up of the photos was my added touch).

And, if it's not too much trouble, I would be delighted to hear from you, Tracy, by means of an email note to me via Julie (she ought not share your email address), and let me know your impressions and how Julie behaved during her spanking.
This was on the suggestion of a blog commenter that Sir approved of.

Sir

PS: Knowing how horny this girl becomes at the thought of spankings, part of her payment is that she is not allowed to "relieve any desires" the next day as she thinks back on her spanking. However, how YOU wish to deal with this horny young lady, or use her for your own pleasure after her spanking, I will leave entirely up to you. She may well blush at this revelation, but she has let me know that she would welcome any such advances from you. How you choose to act on this information, which might be either to take her up on it, to paddle her behind again for her wanton naughtiness, or both, or neither, is entirely up to you, Tracy. Have fun with her. She is your red bottomed submissive toy for the evening.
Oh gosh! Sir had a tamer version in there and I spiced it up. What if she doesn't swing that way at all? I can't get a good read - and I can usually tell. Hope she's not offended... Or she could pretend to be offended, and spank me. Oh crap... just realizing now this could mean EVEN MORE paddling!!! Would she do that? My butt would already be a flaming mess. Maybe she'll have mercy on my ass. Or, maybe, she'll paddle my super sensitive unmarked lily white thighs??? NO!!! Or... would she make an example of me and make me masturbate in front of her??? Oh Gosh.. with her dildo in my cunt??? Or my ass??? Or BOTH!!!! Fucking myself as I finger my clit?? Stupid horny slut, Julie! What are you setting yourself up for? The note says I must be her submissive toy for the evening. She could do any of that and I would HAVE TO obey. At least I know she wouldn't bring her husband in to have his way with me. We agreed on that at least. But in the state I'm in while writing this... that might not be so... b a d...
So when Sir reviewed this blog prior to my posting it, he told me there was too much sex in there, that I had a filthy mouth and used too many swear words, and he wanted me to tone it down and not swear like a sailor. But I can't have my self-expression curtailed like that... I guess I will just have to suffer Daddy's consequences...
[marches you into the bathroom ] The language is going to be cleaned up young lady!   [picks up the soap and lathers it up]  OPEN NOW! [pushes soap in, leans you forward and jerks panties down] SMACK SMACK SMACK SMACK SMACK SMACK. Stand there with that soap on your mouth until I come back!
[walks back in takes soap out] I warned you young lady. Watch your language.  [Hugs you smacks your bottom] Bed, young lady!
A few days later he asked,
Have you forwarded the instructions to Tracy yet young lady?

No. Thinking I will surprise her with it day of. Watch her read it from a printout. She can't cancel if I'm right there. Just having her read it will be so freakin' embarrassing!!!! Especially the last part!
Yup! Worried that if I send that ahead, something would "come up" to cancel it from her end!

Then next day, Sir felt the need to taunt me...
Soo much closer to having that bottom torn up young lady.  Reach back and feel that bottom. It wont feel that way soon ! 😈😈😈😈
Oh fuck yes, Sir.
If she goes hard like we asked, and doubles it up to 48 or even 72?????!!!??? I haven't felt the paddle yet. Will 48 hard ones blister my bum, Sir?
Yes, if she applies it properly. And next time you use the f word with dad you will get your mouth soaped young lady! Is Daddy clear!
Oops, yes sir, sorry sir, I do have a bit of a potty mouth on email.
I am afraid of my paddling, sir! For real. But I promise I will take every stroke given and not ask for it to stop no matter what. And that's what scares me. And I know Tracy, and how she said it when she said she'd do it. I am in for it. Especially once she reads that note! OMG, I've given david paddlings like that, and it messes up HIS ass, and mine is like a total virgin ass! I wonder if I'll cry. I probably will. And Tracy won't stop if I do, I know it, she has a determined streak. She'll just be all "you asked for it. Suck it up, princess". I'm such an idiot! Plus I will be TOTALLY BARE draped over Tracy's knee. OMG. I mean breasts, pussy, bottom hole, everything. I think I'll wax before. Should I wax? Is that too much? I want to be pretty for her, but I don't want to be a total slut. I guess if I wax I'll look a lot more like Daddy's little girl!
This whole thing is doing a number on me!


I think Strict Julie has met Strict Daddy and it flusters her a bit because she likes it and isn't sure why. The internal struggle goes on! 😁 
He's right. Darn him!

For comparison purposes, here is my ass as of right now...
Isn't it all smooth and white?

Ohhhh... that won't last. Not when Tracy gets the paddle out...


Is this what I'm headed for???
Spanked bare naked across Tracy's knee? She'll be fully clothed. And me completely naked. My tits will hang down just like that.


I'm going to be one sorry red bottomed girl!


Upended and spanked bare over her knee like a sassy10 yr old.


What will she see of me as I'm jackknifed over her knee?

Will this be the end result?
Will she make me pose like this for my pic????? Everything on display?

I will not get away without a good blistering, I'm convinced of it. It will serve me right. How many times have I subjected my sweet david to this treatment, leaving his buns a total mess.

How can I both dread what's coming up, and yet be so excited at the same time??? I absolutely, positively, don't want it to happen. What sane woman would want her ass blistered like this??? Be humiliated like this??? And my poor butt has never even been spanked hard before, not even by hand. And I'm diving straight into the deep end of an intense paddling???? Am I nuts????

But I soooo want it to happen....

So waiting in anticipation. So confused...



(Continued in Slight Delay in my Paddling plus an Ass Fucking)

185 comments:

  1. First time commenter here. Great post, as usual! I do have a question though...

    You seem to be quite worked up about this whole thing (understandably so). I'm sure that it has you on pins and needles...and also masturbating/having sex more than usual. I'm assuming that david doesn't know about your incipient paddling, so I'm wondering if he's noticed any behavioral changes on your part, and has asked you about them?

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    1. No, he does know about it and is very encouraging.I would say sex has gotten more vanilla, with him taking on more of the man role (I mean, blowjobs, deep throating, doggy style, tit grabbing, the occasional ass swat, hair pulling even!). He's getting off on me choosing to feel submissive for the time being. Tables will be turned after my paddling - we both want that - but for now the variety is fun.

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    2. What, me having to be "the girl" for once?

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    3. Will David be allowed to watch? On the (very few!) occasions when L. was allowed to spank me, we had no witnesses - even if I mentioned it later to a couple of my (female) friends...

      J(2)

      J(2)

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    4. He will not be. I am hoping for a sexual experience with Tracy after and boys would just cramp our style!

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  2. Mario from Italy25 October 2016 at 08:42

    Dear Julie,
    When you will be over Tracy's knees, imagine all of us, your loyal followers, being there and enjoying the show! And when your spanking will reach its most intense moment, with a merciless volley of paddle smacks delivered to your blazing bum, imagine all the public standing up, clapping our hands, whistling and cheering. I hope this image will emerge in your mind, when the moment will come. And the moment is coming little Julie! Tick Tack! Tick Tack! 😊

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    1. Yes Sir. I'm sure I will be imagining that now!

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  3. Very well done lil julie. You have conveyed our conversation extremely well. I did say it was to be cleaned up a bit and you were warned if you didn't and posted it as is there would be a mouth soaping. Apparently you have willfully chosen the soap. Go to the bathroom and get out a new bar of soap and wait for my young lady !

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    1. I also wonder if after Instruction # 1 Tracy should place you in the corner Bare and THEN continue reading the rest of the Instruction sheet while you are in the corner . Asking you questions about it and getting submissive answers ? Possibly occasional Hand smack on your bare cornered bottom if you donnt answer as she wants . hmmmmmmmmm must think about this

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    2. Or she could make me strip and stand facing her during the reading so she could see my blush!

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    3. That would be acceptable. However if you don't answer her appropriately that bottom is open for hand smacks

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  4. Oh and before i forget, tell Tracy the corner pics both before and after are to be full length pics. I want to see all of you in that corner lil missy

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    1. Too revealing for the blog sir...

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    2. I was referring just from behind. However i understand youf concern.

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  5. Oh, Mistress Julie, you are doing this EXACTLY right! Diving deep into your personal feelings of dread, excitement, and horny anticipation! Thank you for sharing this. It strikes a chord of familiarity with me. Of course what you are experiencing now is a prelude to your eventual experience with Tracy, but also be sure to put it in its own place as a unique experience, not tied to anything else. In my years of submissive experiences, some have been awesome or good, but many have also been bad or dos-so. But the final outcome should not detract from the deep and personal experience you are feeling in the core of your being right now. Drink it in! Sip it slow! Savor it. Let it take you where it wants to lead. Thank you again for sharing this most personal and intimate part of you! And I'm not talking about the picture of your perfect unmarked bottom. I'll be thinking and talking about that later!

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    1. Yes, the anticipation is a thing all its own. That's a big lesson for me coming out of this. I will definitely be having david feel more anticipation in future!

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  6. Hey, there. Look, I REALLY want this to be fantastic for you! I smile every time I read your embarrassed admissions.....my advice was strictly to protect you from disappointment, but you seem to realize that things could go differently than planned, scripted, or hoped-for and that's all I guess I was suggesting you keep in the back of your mind.

    Although we've never met, I consider you an online friend and as such would never want to rain....or worse, piss, on your parade. I hope you have a great time and I do agree with what you said about even a watered-down version of your anticipations STILL being fun and better than nothing. So go for it!

    As for me? I'm an old curmudgeon and if I don't act all curmudgeony, I'll lose that reputation I've spent years cultivating. ;-)

    (cute buns too, btw)-------------KDP

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    1. Thank you kd, I consider you to be a friend as well! And I am glad you think my buns are cute. I think your advice will actually be very helpful going into the experience with an open mind.

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  7. Most descriptions of punishment spankings which I have seen (and the one I just got) involved no warm up (point 4, above). Usually, the goal is to overwhelm you immediately and prevent the flow of endorphins which makes the beating more tolerable.

    Good to see you will be naked. Being stripped of your human dignity is an important part of the process. It let's you know you are "less than" right away.

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    1. I'm not after agony... just a paddling... so Sir's warm up definitely stays!

      I somehow don't feel I'll be stripped of my human dignity at all. Just very embarrassed to be all naked in front of Tracy!

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  8. Daddy: I think Julie is subtely telling you that she wants MORE corner time. Perhaps 15 mins isn't long enough? Maybe an hour or two...? I would also suggest a thick punishment diaper post spanking so there are no excuses to leave the corner.

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    1. That amount of corner time is Tracys Decision . I sad 15 min or so. Tracy will decide how long the "or so" is after 15 Min. As for the Diaper, I say No. However That she can decide on her own, if and when she decides to.

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    2. Don't want o go overboard on a first date! (I mean, more overboard).

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    3. Julie might be wanting the diaper to pad her bottom the next day... Oh right... You're not allowed any underclothes, lol! I bet the first contact on a rough surface the next morning will have you thinking diapers are not such a bad idea, humiliating or not. Do you still have some left over from when you made David wear them?

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    4. Ha ha...
      I guess I'll be working from home. Will have to move a dining room chair in front of my desk...

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  9. Well. well. well. The countdown has begun. Tick-tock, tick-tock... Are you as anxious as Captain Hook? Is time moving slow or fast? Are you torn between 'I just want to get this over with' or hoping for a postponement? How is your concentration? Isn't it ironic that this is not the impact you had in mind when you were offered the paddle?

    Will you be able to look Tracy in the eyes as she reads your daddy's note? How about when your post spanking time out is finished? When you go to a mirror to look (and you will) will you cry anew at the extent of the damage? Will you thank Tracy for her time?

    Perhaps the next day when you are dressed and in your pleated skirt (without panties) you can start your day with five minutes of sitting on a wooden stool or chair in a corner and reflect on 'was your brattiness worth it.'


    tick-tock, tick-tock - "... for whom the bell tolls? It tolls thee." Tick-tock....

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    1. ((Perhaps the next day when you are dressed and in your pleated skirt (without panties) you can start your day with five minutes of sitting on a wooden stool or chair in a corner and reflect on 'was your brattiness worth it.' ))

      Hmmmmmmmm Interesting !! lol

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    2. Oh shit, richard! As I read your comment there was a definite dampening of the panties! Bad!

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    3. Glad I can 'help you?' Tick-tock, tick-tock......

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    4. Countdown to a paddling...

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  10. Que tesão!!
    Parabéns pelo blog!!!
    Virei fã!!

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    1. It's Portuguese. Courtesy of Google translate:
      What horniness!!
      Congratulations on the blog!!!
      I turned fan!!

      Obrigado senhor!!

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  11. Julie, your cute, pretty bottom does look very smooth and pale. Tracy is in for a treat. As you wait on pins and needles, I bet you've been thinking about your bare bottom, how sensitive your skin is. I think blistered red is pretty too.

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    1. I'm thinking what a dumb bunny I am for getting myself into this!

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    2. Not at all . Not at all . I am actually in Awe of your commitment to this

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  12. Ms. Julie,
    It's been quite awhile since I've commented on here but I do still read and catch up on your blog. But my comments had a tendency to get me into the same situation your about to face so I decided it's better just to read your blog and keep my opinions to myself.
    Anyway I just wanted to say I can relate to everything your feeling right now. The fear and the excitement all mixed together not knowing what to expect. Those are the same feelings I had when I screwed up and contacted Dee and set up my demise. And oh how that fateful encounter changed my life. I'm not feeling remorse as I feel I've more than paid for my mistake.
    But this isn't about me I just wanted to say if Tracy really means business and gives you a real disciplinary paddling. Then like I was and still am you'll be very sorry you got yourself into this. At least during the actual punishment portion of it. But if you have anything you feel guilty about think of that while your being paddled. It's alright to cry and you'll find a good hard paddling can be a very cleansing experience for you emotionally. Just my thoughts for what they're worth.

    Bob S.

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    1. I'm already sorry I got myself into this! The sane part of me, anyways. But my pussy is being such a little SLUT there's just no controlling her!

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    2. I completely understand what you mean and me being a subbie it took a few spankings for me to start thinking with the right head. Not a problem anymore but in the beginning it was a big problem. But you being the dominate you are I'm sure you'll be a quick study and probably just this one time.

      Bob S.

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    3. Are you going to be able to resist peeping on my paddled bottom when that post comes out? And will there be a price to pay if you do?

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    4. Hey Julie I'll be glad to answer that for him. Don't know if he'll be able to resist but if not there definitely will be a price to pay. I've got eyes on him at work now as well. But that's another story all together and one I'm considering blogging about. But if I don't then I will tell you all about it via email some day.

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    5. What a tease you are Dianne! The whole blogosphere is interested in your goings on. Please do blog!

      I personally think it will be next to impossible for bob to resist. You should pre-negotiate his punishment so that he knows for sure, as soon as he clicks through to lay his greedy eyes on my paddled butt, what's in store for him. Perhaps double whatever I get?

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    6. I will be Glad to make Dianne a Paddle as well, HOWEVER the 12 Swat Payment and pic is still in effect. :-) hehehehehehehehe

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    7. Julie I'm not trying to be a tease it's just that a post over what I mentioned involves a third party. And it's a third party with knowledge of my blog. So they have to be on board before I could post anything publicly.
      As far as Bob goes I'm afraid you may be absolutely right and perhaps a pre-negotiation would be best. I like the way you think doubling whatever you get. That may be the best option for both of us. Rather than me finding out later he looked without my consent. Striking a deal with him would save me getting upset with him and saving him from an even worse fate. At any rate it's something for me to think about.
      As far as my blog goes I'm still very busy at this point in my life and don't have the time I used too. That and bob only gets disciplinary spankings about 3-4 times a year these days. So not much content there.
      Now as far as your offer daddy I think I'll have to pass on that right now. Lol
      This lady has no desire for the terms of your contracts.

      Dianne

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    8. Exactly. We KNOW ahead of time he won't be able to resist peeping. I mean, boys will be boys. He's already probably peeped on me in the shower, after all. But if boys are boys, then wives need to be wives, and ensure there are consequences so the boy does not get carried away and think he can get away with more than what he is allowed.

      Well I hope you get that consent and can post, but if not, I would love to hear about it privately!

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    9. " Heavy Sigh " Awwwwwwwwe Darn it !!! ;-P

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    10. Yeah, c'mon Dianne. It can be a contest. We each take as many whacks as we can to our bare heinies, post the pictures, and let the blogosphere decide who "won". Loser lets her husband take her up the bottom... ;-)

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    11. I'll still pass I know what a hard paddling is like. So I'll just concede now Julie and wish you luck. Lol

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    12. Well... if you concede... then maybe bob get his once in a lifetime treat... ;-)

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  13. Have you thought about how you will be able face Tracy after she give you a good spanking? bet every time see her you be remebering she spank you hard? bet u be embrassed
    Miss Julie i also want add your butt will be ok dont worry

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    1. It will be so humiliating to face her!

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    2. Or maybe this will go well and the next time you see her will be for another paddling. Although I guess that could be humiliating in itself, especially if you have to walk up to her front door in broad daylight, paddle in hand, and politely ask her to spank you...

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    3. well i understand be embrassing to face her but you be ok maybe joke about spanking u again too

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    4. Nope. I'll forever be the silly little girl who asked her to blister her butt!

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    5. sent you an email about your spanking with tracy gave u few idea so hope get read it

      yep you ask her blister your butt your cute when silly i am not going add more swats to your booty

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    6. I received it, thank you, mike. You are mean for teasing me :-)

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    7. ya welcome i know iam mean for teasing you you can take me over your lap for a good spanking miss julie i desver it another reason you can spank me hard

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  14. So many good ideas from your many fans and interchanges with Daddy. There was an suggestion of thanking Tracy. I think that might be a good idea - both standing naked in front of her after your post-spanking corner time and in a written note (also posted to the blog) describing exactly how you felt at each moment during the punishment. TL

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    1. "nods" Good idea. A follow up post would be a good way to tell Daddy and "Aunt Tracy" about the lesson you have learned. ( Modify comment if you wish )

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    2. Yay! Pictures AND a blog post. Win-win for all submissives everywhere -- including the (temporarily) submissive, miss julie. TL

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    3. SO glad my butt can be of such service.

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    4. It's just too delicious - seeing your lovely bottom now and contemplating the vision of it all red and bruised. All the while fantasizing about being there with you. Next in line to be paddled over Tracy's lap, while you listen (smiling) from the corner. Now I'm wet! TL

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    5. I'm excited to post that picture...

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  15. Julie,

    It has been some time since I wrote but this new direction intrigues me. It is about time you experienced some of what you have put David through. Speaking of that, I seem to recall that you insisted on "milking" david before his punishment so he would not be able to experience any relief form sexual excitement caused by his discipline. I see that you will be subject to Tracy's whims but doesn't it make sense that you should be required to bring yourself off in front of her before your spanking, just as you required of david?

    How embarrassing it was for him, especially when your sister "assisted?" And how embarrassing will it be for you??

    Ken2

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    1. Obviously the Final Decision on this would be out of my hands . However in my opinion as Daddy I would say no. This is already going to be quite the Punishment spanking . That would , I suggest, be something for a later date . So Daddy says No this time

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  16. the climax :) for me in a limerick.

    julie strikes a submissive pose
    in the corner she buries her nose
    showing off her cute hiney
    so red and so shiny
    without the benefit of clothes

    corny but to the point. men will be using this image of you 20 years from now ... if you know what i mean. does that make you wet? i know it makes me hard.

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  17. Why shouldn't you let your expectations run wild? If Tracy doesn't live up to it then you can always hire a pro domme to fulfil your fantasies :D

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    1. True. But I want an amateur this time!

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  18. Hi longtime reader first time commenting, love the blog!
    The first few pictures in this post are wonderful as a close approximation, but they not entirely accurate are they? I mean to say that the gift you ordered is a bit larger than the ones shown here isn't it? And it's also quite a bit thicker as well, and the material you ordered special will make it quite a bit heavier wont it?, which should alter the sound quite a bit, the sound of the implement I mean, not yourself of course. The other noticeable difference is that these pictures are posed to benefit the viewer to both parties so that the positions are a bit staged for the angles of the camera, the result of which is that, you will be more firmly in place and the target positioned quite a bit higher up in the air wont it?
    I was thinking that some of the things you wrote about inexperience might not be so at all, or if they are, perhaps there has been some on-line research between then and now? Plenty of information available and maybe she actually stumbled across some of your own advice on the subject in your own words!or maybe this weeks additions! that would be quite ironic.
    I wonder if the technique of waiting 30 seconds or more between individual applications will be used? because if that is the case then something as simple as 24 could easily turn into a half an hour or more, not including the prelude and afterword of course.
    Why not try it on for size right now? imagine a very loud sound and everything that goes along with it and then lets just count to 30 slowly shall we? Such a long time from 0 to 30, plenty of time for things to ebb ,and for other things to flow, and for things to be said,sensations to fade, awareness to heighten, more anticipation; still another good 15 seconds to go, and then we could count to 10 and the next one would be in 9, 8 ,7, 6, 5 ,4, 3, 2 ,breathe.
    Well as you can see, 24 is a long way off, and I really can"t imagine any way that it could possibly be as low as 24 by now can you? And Imagining is the preoccupation , isn't it? Have fun :)

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    1. This sort of thing is not helping at all. It just makes me more anxious, makes the butterflies in my tummy fly around that much more, and results in yet another pair of dampened panties! Bad! (stomps foot for emphasis)

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    2. Hey no Tantrum's young lady ! College girl or not you are already getting one spanking. Lets not make it two ! ;-)

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    3. If you are getting dampened Panties now, how wet are you going to be when it actually happens? That is something you will not be able to hide.

      Ted the Switch

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    4. No, you're right. What if she comments on the aroma of my excitement??? How mortifying.

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  19. Won't it be easier and more guaranteed results to have Mags spank you?

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    1. Oh no! I don't feel at all submissive towards her. She's "the help"

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    3. What's the fun in that? I want the mystery of a true Top putting me in my place!

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  20. Hi Ms Julie,

    Looking at that pic of your beautifully sculptured butt I can only “imagine" using my lips and tongue over those curves after of course an “imagined” beating you just administered on my ass. This of course is the mind of a submissive. I am awed by the courage you have putting yourself in the position to take this spanking. Especially since you don’t seem to have a tendency as a switch. I wish I could take this beating for you but it appears that you are locked in with no escape:-) Even david is encouraging you to go thorough with it. I just hope that this session won’t dull your dominant edge. I hope that this experience doesn’t mellow the strict sadistic Julie that we all love.

    Bob Bell

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    1. I'm actually starting to look forward to getting back to being on top. This is just a little vacation to reset. When I come back, I can assure you it will be with a vengeance!

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    2. Presumably David is going to be on the receiving end of the new paddle before too long, just to remind him where he sits in the pecking order. Now I'm guessing you're not going to want to sit down for a while, so that rules out OTK. I guess he'll just have to bend over the back of the sofa for his paddling "for every stroke I got, you're getting two, oh and one with the strap. Did I forget to mention that?"


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  21. « Oh ! Comme j'ai honte ! Vous ne savez pas ce qui va m'arriver ! Je vais recevoir une bonne fessée sur mon petit derrière ! Si ! La vilaine julie va recevoir la fessée devant tout le monde ! Quelle honte ! Hein, les garçons ! Vous vous rendez-compte ? Vous allez tous voir mon derrière, mon derrière tout nu, puis tout rouge ! Vous en avez envie hein de le voir, mon derrière. Comme c'est humiliant pour moi, vilaine petite fille, et comme je mouille ma culotte en vous le disant ! Vous ne trouvez pas que c'est affreux ce qui va m'arriver, les garçons ? Vous devez être très excités! Oh comme je vais être humiliée ! Oh comme ça m'excite ! Oh comme je trempe ma petite culotte ! Et vous, vous êtes excités ? La petite julie va être punie par son papa ! Enfin... par une copine... et qui sait tout ce qui pourrait arriver à la petite julie ! Et gni gni gni, et gna gna gna...»
    Une bonne paire de gifles, une douche glacée et au lit sans manger : voilà ce qui ferait du bien à la petite julie.

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    1. "Two good smacks, a freezing cold shower, then sent to bed without supper: that's what will do our little julie some good."

      I get so turned on reading this stuff in French!!

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    2. Come here so Daddy can apply those smacks.... ;-p

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    3. YOU SHOULD HAVE DONE THIS BEFORE! (Your mother)
      PS : I decided to be present with your father at this punishment meeting.
      I suggested to David and his brother Dan to come with us. Dan seemed to be particularly interested in seeing the spanking of that minx of sister in law.
      A nice family meeting for my kinky grand daughter !

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    4. Now I think Dan is David’brother !.... your old mother has lost her mind! (But it's still family. And Dan will come anyway!)

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    5. Oh, I'm sure Dan would VERY MUCH enjoy seeing my butt paddled. Then I won't be the only one smirking at the family gatherings!

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  22. "gulps" Dad may go into witness protection!

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  23. I think Daddy should represent all your blog readers. You should have to confess everything you force David to do. A complete dirty laundry list young lady! Tracy should interrogate you up close by pulling and hissing in your ear. Might give her some ideas. If she does one tenth of what you do to poor David then look out. When you are posed red tail in the corner you should be required to rake your finger nails across your blistered cheeks and then pull them apart to expose your naughty holes. FLASH Spread your legs and stand on tip toe. FLASH Put one leg up on a chair. FLASH FULL exposure missy!

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  24. Daddy is strongly included to say this is too much for her first spanking. I doubt seriously that david was subjected to that in his first spanking. As for what transpires in the future,we shall see. Lil julie may approach Daddy with a confession of being a naughty girl needing to be sent to Aunt Tracy again. But as for now No!

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    2. Hey now , dont be picking on the old crossed eyed blind guy! I will Find you and smack your fanny . You are in this house somewhere ! :-D

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  25. It'll hurt much more than you expect. Two pops, then 'Red'!

    Katja

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    1. No way! Red is only if she's going way off target. If she sticks to the safe, fleshy parts of my bum, I am committed to this spanking no matter what!

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    2. Well no seriously, it's a very good thing you're doing Miss Julie. I've had reservations in the past about your 'never a subbie me, that's for others approach' simply because it's very easy (too easy) to prescribe extreme punishments for others without appreciating how much it truly hurts! IMHO no domme should be using an implement on others without appreciating how it actually feels across their own bottom, and not just a couple of sharp self administered taps ('that stings!'), no I mean a real punishment from another domme. Only by appreciating fully how an implement feels when used seriously can you safely administer it to others! And so I salute you Miss Julie!

      Kajja x

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    3. I agree it makes for a better Domme for sure. But it's more the emotional aspects leading up to it (so far) that have been eye opening, and I'm sure the emotions I will be feeling as I go through with it and after.

      I'm not so concerned on the physical side. There has been a gradual build up and A LOT of feedback between my husband and I and so I know his body very well and what strength/implements evoke what kind of response from him, and how to proceed safely, all without having to experience it myself. He experiences it for me and I get him to communicate the experience completely and clearly.

      However, if I were to spank a new person out of the blue, and would want to go hard at all, I think it would be really beneficial for me to experience it firsthand, as a "second data point" outside my husband (who may be, and I am suspecting is, a little extreme)

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    4. A Domme who doesn't enjoy the pain of a spanking will never understand how it feels to someone who craves it. You've apparently been very successful with your husband, and it's possible not knowing the pain yourself made it easier to trust that it was right for him. If you were a pro working with all types, it could help to at least appreciate the basic sensations involved, but no need to suffer through a judicial level punishment. It wouldn't be close to how an experienced masochist perceives it. What I like about what you're doing is that you're doing it for you, because it excites you. If you carry that excitement into it, and then a spanking ultimately results in pleasure, the pain can be a positive feeling. If you just don't like it at all, I would hope it doesn't impede your ability to dish it out to those who do.

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    5. I'm absolutely certain it won't impede me at all. I already imagine the absolute worst and am still fine dishing it out. I have a definite sadistic streak in me (under the right circumstances - where the sub wants it) and in fact it would disappoint me if he wasn't feeling real pain.

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  26. Dear Little Miss Julie,
    Wow another wonder pretty picture or your buns to add to our collection of pictures or Julie. Thank you. I have been meaning to ask and it looks like no one has. Does Tracy know of this blog? Or you do not wish to be open so not to scare her off.

    What brand of soap do you use or is it only in the virtual world that you get your mouth scrubbed out with soap?

    I like that Safe, Sane, and Consensual, is in the letter from Daddy in the sense of a safe word.

    Since you are in the subbie state, do you fallow your own rule, and if you play do you consume? Yeh I know it not the same for ladies as it is for guys. Just doing some teasing.

    How every this plays out I hope you have fun and share what you can for us followers. You know you can show us you pretty little titties and not your face. We only got a nipple shot in the shower.

    Better quit now before Daddy offers to send the CD a paddle.

    pie pie 4 now
    Jennifer duh Pieclown

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    1. I've never understood the "Sane" part. Surely "Safe" and "Consensual" are enough. There's absolutely nothing sane about what I'm doing!!!!

      I do not "consume". I have never even really tasted myself, except indirectly off my husband's cock, and that's rare 'cause he usually blows his load pretty soon after that cock gets in there. Ha ha! Next time I cum, I will dip my fingers in and lick...

      No! To the best of my knowledge NOBODY who knows me in r/l knows about this blog. Mind you, I'm geting distressingly close to the top of Google on certain searches, e.g. "paddling spanking husband" gets me 5th. I'm sure it's only a matter of time...

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  27. Still waiting for the photo of your feet Julie, or you must be beaten on them to be able to take photos of them, ask Tracy to give you bastinado with acane or broom stick or even a wooden spoon.

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    1. You wouldn't want to see that. All those foot warts? Yuck!

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    2. Ugly feet must be punished, David has to give you bastinado for that.

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    3. Too late. After this spanking, I'm definitely retiring from the subby side (for at least a while!)

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    4. Challenge accepted! Bwahahaha!!! Lololololol;-p

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  28. Do you feel lucky yet?

    are you nervous about TRacy spanking you would you
    let her put her name on your butt

    do you feel Tracy need spanked and you should give her
    a spanking?

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    1. I don't think she wants a spanking, but it would be rude not to ask after I've been dealt with...

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    2. well you know her better then us but if she willing spank you mean she has no problem with it at all or spanking you.

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  29. This has to be one of the most erotic spanking writing I have read in a long long time. julie, if you want to write me privately, I am going to be in the northeast (Buffalo next week), so a short hop across the border, and I can photo and watch your entire spanking.
    Send me a note privately for an adventure of a lifetime, probably with being being spanked by cindy harder than I have ever experienced.
    bottoms up
    Red

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    1. Hi red! Have not heard from you for a while. Thank you for the nice comment! I'm so honoured, you of the >10M page views! Spanko blog royalty! I am about to breach 5M pageviews and will have a little celebration of some sort when I do!

      I don't think my girl friend Tracy would welcome the extra company. Let me get through this thing next week, and next time you and cindy are up our way we can perhaps hook up with david as well. I'll make some excuse up!

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    2. Hi Julie: That would be great, to meet up sometime in the future. Have a great adventure, and see if Sir would approve. Archedone had a wonderful (???) idea of a photo with our spanked bottoms side by side. I posted a link to your site, which needs no introduction, but just in case friends have not been aware of your naughty shenanigans.
      bottoms up sounds appropriate
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    3. Than you Red! Hoping my butt won't break the Internet like Kim Kardashian's! How embarrassing would that be? ;-)

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  30. I honestly want to wish you all the best Julie. A dominatrix I see somewhat regularly, applies crushed ice to my butt afterwards which really helps. Don't feel badly if you cry. I've done the same during a spanking, and I find it helps me get through the trauma.

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    1. The ice helps a lot when someone really tears up your ass. The cold isn't an issue because you're overwhelmed by the pain and keeping your breath.

      -- James

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  31. I know you have been reading all these comments and getting wet panties, but hope you have not been playing with your pussy, because that would mean more spanks for Daddy's little girl. You need to stop having sex and playing with Daddy's pussy, so you will be in the right frame of mind and body for the spanking. Little girls who play with themselves get taken over the knee and made to cry.

    John

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    1. But I HAVE been playing with my pussy, Sir. Like, CONSTANTLY! It's ridiculous actually. I know I should stop, so I can be extra excited for my paddling from Tracy. I do need a strong man to put me across his knee and give me a spanking for playing with myself...

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    2. Well little girl, you should confess to Tracy what a slutty little girl you are, and show her how you have been playing with your pussy, and ask her for the belt after your corner time. As far as needing a strong man to pull you over his knee and spank you until you cry, I think you will have no shortage of volunteers including David, as payback is a bitch.

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    3. Yes, I live in fear (and excitement) at the thought of Tracy seeing how turned on I am and making me finger myself and rub my clit until I cum while she watches with a knowing smirk on her face...

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  32. Well young lady... approximately 65 hrs and counting. Post a count down clock! There will be no other post from you until the much deserved and overdue spanking is accomplished.

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  33. Tell Tracy you have been playing with yourself. You should be cumming in her presence. How many extra for this infraction? Have her print "I BELONG TO TRACY" with lipstick on your lower back.

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    1. I just hope I don't cum spontaneously while across her knee!

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  34. Great post and interesting developments. :)

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    1. Taking a tour of the bottom side. Curious, has the mighty Vanessa ever?

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    2. The paddle offer is open !

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  35. While you are waiting for your “très sévère fessée”, here it is to help you waiting, what a friend of mine told me (she is a french teacher), as we where talking about humiliation.(I translated)

    “Coming home from school with Justine, a colleague I had invited to a tea,
    I entered the living room and I saw my husband (he is unemployed).

    He was ironing.

    It was a surprise !

    So I said to my colleague “I present you our cleaning lady”. For fun.
    My husband's cheeks went red as if he was doing something wrong.
    So trying to pull him of embarrassment I funnily said “she is very shy, you know” but looking at him, I understood it was worse.
    He really seemed to be humiliated being seen doing that in front of a stranger, further more, a woman.
    I tried the rational side:

    “Why are you ironing if you are ashamed of doing it ?” I told him.
    “....” He continued his work silently, he did not know what to answer

    “I have never obliged him to iron the linen” I told my colleague, to lighten the mood

    Then I put forward an argument :

    “Do you think it's a household chore reserved for the women ? And if so, why are you doing it ? There is something amiss”!”

    He tried to get back on his feet and said :

    “No, not at all, I like doing that”

    He just couldn't resist from showing off and added :

    “You know, I think there is something sexy in it”

    “Oh, sure, I said with a dismissive smile, your are a kind of a feminist ! And what is so sexy ?”

    “I love, for instance, to see that the buttonholes are on the right on your blouse, you know, things like that”

    In saying this, I found he turned a little too much to my pretty and young colleague.

    “Really, I said, it's an interesting conversation ! I'm sure Justine is impressed! Stop your baby talk, pull all this stuff back and let us have a tea! We are working girls and we need a rest”

    “Sometimes, I feel like I could pantsed him and give him a beating so much he behaves as a child.” I said to Justine and I said it rather hardly so that he can hear it

    But the most funny in this story is that, going upstairs to put the ironing board away ,he slipped and fell backwards, right on his little bum in an absolutely ridiculous position in front of us.
    We could not help laughing
    - You got punished yourself, I told him.

    Funny hubby, I said

    What about you doing some ironing in the nude for your daddy, after your public spanking ?

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    1. Oh my goodness. All the poor man needed was an apron and a good spanking in front of the young friend! But I agree if the Woman is the bread winner, she must be head of the household. And that does mean the "man" will get made fun of and must be submissive and respectful at all times or else face the consequences, even if his Wife has a visitor.

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  36. Well, well. How the mighty have fallen! The redoubtable Strict Julie in for a strict paddling of her own. And all bare naked? What a show you will put on as your little feet kick and flutter in the air while that paddle has its way with you. I hope Tracy has a nice thick strap-on dildo of her own to stretch your tight little asshole after your spanking. Just like you do for David.

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    1. I hope Traci's husband is there to witness your humiliation, young lady. A good hard bare naked paddling in front of a man is just what the doctor ordered. All your feminine charms on full display as you ball your eyes out like the little brat you are. Restore the natural order of things and learn how vulnerable a little girl like you can be. And how about that timeout afterwards? Nude with your throbbing spanked ass hanging out. Traci and John laughing at you. "She asked for it". "She sure did, but just look at the state of her paddled ass. Looks to me she got more than she bargained for!"

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    2. Traci: But did you notice how wet she got during her paddling?
      John: Hard to miss! I could smell her from across the room.
      Traci: She soaked my leg
      John: I don't doubt it. I could see her horny twat and inner thighs glistening with her juices.
      Traci: What a total slut. An embarrassment to women. Do you believe her when she says she spanks her husband?
      John: No way! A horny little slut like that is only good for three things,,,
      Traci: ... spanking, sucking, and fucking!
      They high five...

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    3. Oh fuck is correct: right in your paddled keister young lady. A good ass pounding. Is that not exactly what you have done to your long suffering husband?

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    4. This is exactly the sort of humiliation I am obsessing over. You capture it better than anybody.

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    5. That's because I am you. How obsessive is that?

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    6. Incredibly obsessive. We are such sluts...

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  37. Looks at you hard !!!!! Bathroom, soao in mouth young lady !!! ;-p

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    1. So Little Ms Julie, What flavor does Daddy demand for the soap.

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    2. Irish Spring ! LOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOL JK

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    3. If I had to soap my mouth every time I fucking swore on my blog, well, I'd have the cleanest damned mouth in the world!

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    4. Could be worse, it could be Lifebuoy!!!

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  38. "That's surely what it's like for a man as well. This overlay of sexual excitement, dominance from their partner, submission from themselves, and spanking pain. What a confused jumble! I have never quite experienced this before now, which is why I am reveling in the anticipation."

    What a great way to put it, and your references to butterflies in the tummy really strikes home. It's been over 10 years since I got my first disciplinary spanking and, as with you, there was a multi-day process between when I knew it was probably coming, or at least between when I knew for sure I was going to ask for one, and when it actually happened. Ten years later I still remember that "confused jumble" of fear and excitement. It was like nothing I had experienced before. I'd tell you to "enjoy it," but that's not really the goal, is it? Maybe, "Experience it!" I just hope she really delivers, so the experience is something close to what you think it will be. Good luck. Can't wait to hear the details.

    Dan

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    1. It's really a unique experience that I never got as a top. More like the anticipation of a first kss, or of losing your virginity...

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    2. Understood. I think it must be very different from a Top's experience. The emotional vulnerability from not only the nakedness and exposure but also the possibility of tears. And leaving yourself totally subject to a painful process that someone else controls. I'm sure Topping has its challenges, but the vulnerability of a real punishment spanking is its own challenge. Again, looking forward to all the details.

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    3. Yes, I'm excited (and nervous) to experience it...

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  39. How can I both dread what's coming up, and yet be so excited at the same time???

    The dread is the lack of control in the relative sense, and the excitement is the being in control of a designed experiment in discomfort and humiliation in the absolute sense -in that you orchestrated it, and it bears some resemblance or parallel to a past event where you were not in control, hence the thrill,

    I absolutely, positively, don't want it to happen. What sane woman would want her ass blistered like this??? Be humiliated like this???
    It is actually quite sane, it is you being in charge of a controlled consensual environment, a controlled explosion of sorts, a sort of out of body experience where you will be able to study the sensations of a lack of control and intense physical stimulation and humiliation ( not mortification) that you yourself have instigated for the purpose of digesting a past experience or experiences.


    And my poor butt has never even been spanked hard before, not even by hand. And I'm diving straight into the deep end of an intense paddling???? Am I nuts????

    It may be more of a case that your psyche was spanked -so to speak, before, and harder than you were ready for at the time; now your upper and lower cheeks will serve as a safe way to experience these sensations in a way that you can digest in a smaller dose as an adult,roll play aside, you will be able to consider the experience before during and after and the eroticization is a way for you to come to terms with the different elements over which you previously were without the wherewithal to control,anbd to a certain extent extirpate them or turn them into something enjoyable. working out the kinks so to speak

    But I soooo want it to happen....

    So waiting in anticipation. So confused...

    Something in what you have orchestrated represents balance, stasis, security, resolution, closure, or just plain fun, probably a bit of each. After the main event is over and you are back in your usual routine you will have a chance to fantasize and remember the elements at your leisure,
    Try not to think about any of this stuff when driving a car, pay attention to what your doing,there will e time for the meta fantasy later, Have fun

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    1. Yes, you've captured it. It's like going to the end of a tall diving board and then jumping off.

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    2. I have to say, Anonymous has a pretty insightful description of the psychology.

      -- James

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    3. The comments on this photo st are over the top great. There's enough fodder here and the last couple of posts for an academic paper on the psychology of the submissive mind!

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  40. Oh I'm so happy that your getting to experience all those feelings you talk about. You know the ones I'm talking about the butterflies the anticipation and fear. All those mixed in with the sexual excitement of thinking about it mixed in. You've dealt those feelings out so many times to david as well as several of your blog followers including me.
    But my hope is that Tracy really knows how to give a good paddling and your begging her to please stop just 3 or4 swats in. But to your dismay it won't stop and the pain just keeps getting worse. Yes at some point and if it's a proper paddling all those sexually exciting feelings you had about this will flee from your mind. All you'll be able to think of is whether or not there's an end to this. Tears may or may not flow but I'll just bet your eyes get at least watery.
    Once that huge dominate attitude is finally broken and your just feeling like a sorry little girl at the hands of your friend Tracy it will finally end.
    But only as far as the paddling goes. Remember there's still corner time to do so you can think about what just happened. And of course hands on top of your head your well blistered butt stuck out for Tracy to see and take pictures. So you'll stand there embarrassed and humiliated with your butt on fire and no way to relieve it because your not allowed to rub it. In fact if you try or even squirm around in the corner that means another dose of the paddle.
    This is how a proper paddling should be. I've been through it more than once and am looking forward to you getting a dose of what you so readily hand out.

    Bob S.

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    1. Oh Gosh, Bob. I'm realizing that having consented to this, it's now in very large measure out of my control. I have constructed my own comeuppance and I am frightened and excited in equal measures. The paddling will blister my tail and humiliate me no end, but by now it must be endured.

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  41. Has the paddle arrived yet? Why don't you visit Tracy to get daily warm up spankings till the paddle arrives.

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    1. T told me she would be picking it up today, for my spankimg tomorrow. I will check in with her later to make sure.

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    2. What was her tone of voice when she told you she told she'd be picking it up today? Was she looking forward to it? More than a hint of devilment from her?

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    3. I spoke with her recently re the Tuesday/Thursday mixup. She seems very eager to paddle my ass!!!!

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  42. Awaiting to see photos of Julie's roasted bottom.

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  43. Will you use this paddle to spank David afterwards or it will be reserved to Julie bottom only?

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    1. Definitely it will be used on david's rump primarily. I am likely retiring from the subby side after this experience!

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    2. Likely not, the payoff is much to great, so far the before side of the payoff has reaped massive rewards and a quality to the pleasure that's, shall we say, directly connected to the wellspring? You haven;t even gotten to the during or the after and not unlike a chess game with 3 parts that turn into 5, opening, transition, middle game transition endgame; this scene will also have its transitions the last transition from during to after, with aftershocks for some time. I believe the resulting orgasms during that time will be even more intense than the ones you have been having for the last week -all 2 dozen or more of them? is it up to 30? Like the number seconds we hope are between applications?
      So as I was saying after that last transition to the aftermath one can expect an increase in libido as the actual marks are fading with a period of overlap as the proportions become inverse -that is to say one becomes one becomes red as the other and vice versa so there is a nice pink zone, and as that fades -you may well wish to.. Climb up the diving board again, as you so aptly stated to my previous last comment.
      There are also many surprise factors, minutiae that one can not anticipate or other factors that become major elements of excitement, combinations of these things may cause an endorphin cocktail that you are most anxious to repeat.
      Much like a film with 24 frames per second, there are many frames in a scene and some will be the exact flavor that you crave -others not as much. If you play the scene slowly in your mind -that's funny, if- Sorry, As you, repeatedly, each and every hour, play the scene slowly in your mind, if you slowly imagine the details...the sound of a shoe turning over on the floor, the rustle of clothing, the feel of a wooden floor on fingertips as you balance yourself, the flush in your cheeks, the click of a camera, 24 frames per second and some of these frames are pictures in your favorite Gallery they were painted long ago, retirement doesn't seem imminent or needn't be permanent.

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    3. We shall see. I have an open mind and am enjoying these delicious feelings. But I LOVE being a Top even more, and they're not 100% compatible (hard to switch mindsets, as I am an "all in" kind of gal)

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  44. You said you enjoy the anticipation of not knowing and you are having and humbling experience imagining the worst.
    Could you tell us more about these past events where you were not in control, these past experiences you want to digest in a smaller dose through the sensations of a lack of control and intense physical stimulation and humiliation. Your idea of a "spanked psyche", before and harder than you were ready for at the time is very appealing.

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    1. I'm not sure I am using this to "process". It's more that it's a part of me I want to be rid of. Ok, so I guess it is processing! It was when I was much younger and there was an unpleasant experience with a man who got obsessed with me. It was not sexy at all to me. And while I think it no longer impacts me, I still get these panicky feelings when I am being restrained by a man and I do not feel in control of the situation. It's not like I flash back or anything. These feelings are completely disassociated with the incident. But I know intellectually that there is a connection and it PISSES ME OFF that this incident still has an impact on me (I cannot be comfortable even when the man I love and trust COMPLETELY play acts like this),

      On the other hand, to psycho analyze myself, I do get this tremendous feeling of freedom and confidence when I am in Domme mode. The first time I experienced it it was like a door opening, or a shedding of a weighted jacket I did not realize I was wearing.

      I guess we are the sum of our experiences.

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    2. Merci pour ces très aimables précisions mais en quoi cette branlée (paddling) donnée par une amie va-t-elle vous débarrasser des liens de cette expérience déplaisante, due à un homme, même si vous en espérez – ce qui semble improbable – une jouissance plutôt délicieuse ? Pensez-vous que le plaisir issu d'une position masochiste puisse dissoudre les liens qui vous empêchent de vous abandonner à un homme ?

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    3. I don't honestly know. I'm not sure i WANT to open up to a man... I think men are for beating, no?

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  45. It could be that being a top with your partner, and the resulting feeling of control, may serve to aid in extirpating some of the residual feelings of that particular past experience.
    The urge to experience the opposite may be something else entirely? Or,perhaps the anger you expressed, at not being able to let go completely, from that previous experience is being dealt with this way, because it's a small dose of being out of control and you may be angry at yourself for being angry? either way it's a controlled environment so you can see for yourself later.
    It is well documented that oftentimes many Female Dominants sub to another female upon occasion or more regularly ,for many reasons. It might simply turn out to be enjoyable experience, another kind of weighted jacket to remove?

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    1. The thought of for-real subbing to a man (as opposed to email exchanges where I find it fun) is still unsettling, whereas doing it for real with a woman is a big turn on. And while I don't mind domming a woman, I don't get the same thrill as domming a man. So I like the idea of keeping the two segregated sex, at least for now.

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  46. We are now UNDER 24 hrs and counting young lady. you may wish to rub your bare bottom a while to remember how it feels prior to getting soundly blistered. Email me as soon as you know Aunt Tracy has the paddle.

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  47. I'm SO excited for you Miss Julie! You are divine! I love that you're going to experience all that you typically dish out, and your enthusiasm and honest about it!

    And OMG, thank you for the picture of your beautifully sexy bottom!!

    I became so excited that I spilled everywhere and was only able to consume a small portion of my mess because the rest sit on the floor :(

    Thank you Miss Julie!

    Respectfully,
    doc

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    1. More spillage imminent now, methinks...

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  48. YOUNG LADY YOU'VE NEEDED THIS SPANKING FOR A LONG LONG TIME NOW BE A BIG GIRL AND TAKE YOUR MEDICINE AND I HOPE THIS PADDLING TEACHES YOU A LESSON THAT YOU WONT SOON FORGET.... THE NEXT TIME YOU HAVE A NAUGHTY BOY OVER YOUR KNEE YOU'LL KNOW HOW HE FEELS ....WITH ALL MY RESPECT MH27271 BAD GIRLS AND BAD BOYS SPANKED

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  49. You are so fucking hot.

    Yes to panties and yes to hard hand spankings warm up.

    Always
    Ron

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    1. Did not get to keep my panties... Boo hoo!

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