Monday, April 24

The Trans Issue

I was asked by a reader to blog my thoughts about the trans issue. I think he just wants to get me in trouble! But here goes anyways.

First of all, I have great sympathy for those who feel they were born in the wrong body. I know a girl who's transitioned to a man, and I do not begrudge them at all. This was many years ago, before trans became a thing. From a very early age they had a complete and violent aversion to being put into a dress (as young as two). As a teenager they were admitted to the psychiatric ward in a near catatonic state dealing with the onset of puberty. Went through tons and tons of counselling. Eventually transitioned as a young adult with a breast removal, a complete hysterectomy, and male hormone therapy. As soon as they were on that path and accepted, they became better. He is now a very happy and successful person.  Married to a beautiful wife, and has a successful career. Still a short and slight guy, but somewhat passable. And definitely attractive. But that's not the point. The point is he is happy.

I don't view breast removal as much different than breast augmentation. It's how you would like to present. Many women undergo hysterectomies for a variety of reasons, and unless you're keen on procreating, good riddance to bad baggage, I say. Hormone replacement is often needed, of course.

I think the moulding of the skin from your arm into a fake penis is a step too far. I can't imagine all the health problems that come with trying to get rid of your vag, omg! And worst still for a guy to chop off his dick and get a phony vag excavated. No. Just, no.

I don't personally know any male to female trans with a similar story, but I don't doubt they exist. I do know a bunch of early-twenties males who are "trans". They were all mentally unstable before and had zero social life. Never displayed those same early symptoms as my friend. Did not go through the extensive counselling, did not ever find themselves catatonic at puberty. They declared themselves "trans" and suddenly felt celebrated and had friends, for a bit. They started their transition with hormones. Now they're just obviously male, ugly chicks. And every bit as unhappy as before. One even has crippling headaches for an "unknown reason" (give me a break! Do you imagine the high doses of female hormones has anything to do with it??? Won't even try going off them to see.)

I think step one is to treat it as a psychological/psychiatric condition, gender dysmorphia, and try very, very hard to address that without any surgeries or hormones. This is what my friend did for years, and did not transition until they had done this and became an adult. The counselling is for you to accept yourself in the body you were given (I apply the same rule to breast augmentation for women, btw!).

If you try to say that's not right and compare it to counselling to make you not gay, I reject that comparison. Gay people were born gay. That IS their natural state. They should be counselled to accept themselves as they are, just as we should counsel biological males and females to accept the body they were born in.

Transitioning non-adults is messed up, especially with trans being such a socially approved-of fad nowadays. Children and adolescents are messed up psychologically to begin with, and very susceptible to suggestion and peer/societal pressure. Extensive counselling to get them to accept their own bodies as they are is what kids and teens need.

Even with adults, doctors should not perform unnecessary surgeries. You should have years of counselling under your belt and despite that continue to show serious signs of untreatable psychological issues related to this before surgery and hormones. That should be the last resort for ethical doctors.

Folks who grew up as biological males should not compete in any women's sports where men regularly outdo women, period. It's too much of an advantage and destroys women's sports.

If trans people are in bathrooms or locker rooms, they should be extremely discrete. Stories of a trans woman with their full male junk out showering in the same common shower area as girls is not on. They should never be putting themselves in such a situation to begin with, and need to be roundly condemned for doing so.

There are many men who get a sexual charge from dressing up as women, OBVIOUSLY! There are also pervs and pedos who get off on being in women's locker rooms and bathrooms, OBVIOUSLY! I'm sorry if you're a legit trans woman, but that's life, and it's part of what you need to accept if you choose to transition. The legit ones know this and acknowledge this (eg, Blaire White and Caitlyn Jenner), and behave accordingly and with sensitivity.

As for you pervs out there who like to be forced into panties for punishment and humiliation, that's not the same at all, and I LOVE you guys!

We all have the Yin and the Yang inside of us, both female and male aspects. In some, one is way stronger than the other, and it doesn't always align with our biological sex. I also think a well-integrated person can choose to bring out those different parts of us at different times.

My inner man is out in force when I pick up the strap and put on my strap-on!

My husband's inner woman is out in force when he submits to my strap and my strap-on.

My inner woman is out in force when I get spanked and fucked.

My husbands inner man is out in force when he puts me across his knee and then fucks me in the ass.

The panty training helps him to bring out the inner woman that he is craving to explore. The ultimate would be a temporary magical bodily transformation so he can truly experience his femininity that's bottled up inside. By getting absolutely railed by me who underwent the opposite!

Perhaps trans is an extension of this, but I don't think so. It feels radically different. What I described is healthy human sexuality. Trans feels like a mental disease.

Tuesday, April 18

Embarrassing Spankings for Boys

My biggest fetish is for sure the embarrassment fetish as it relates to childish punishments applied to men and women. That's where my spanking fetish comes from, as well as things like a cornertime, diapering (see Julie's Diaper Change photoshoot!), forced bi or panty training for guys, and so on. I do find myself equally turned on imagining or having it done to me; imagining or seeing it being done to others;  or by being the instigator.

The thought of it being done to a truly unwilling person does not turn me on. I do get turned on imagining they are highly reluctant, even resisting, but coming out of the experience as a better, more healthy person.

I've gathered together a collection of inspiring images that fit my kink with my take on them. Thanks to https://julianspankings.bdsmlr.com/ who gathered many of them and the artists themselves.

-- 1 --

I like reading a lot into an image, like this one.

I imagine a teenage boy is about to receive a very painful and highly embarrassing strapping from his mom.

The implications of Mom getting out the strap are unspoken and based on previous experience.

You know you will be required to remove your clothing. All your clothing. You will stand there with your hands at your sides as Mom gives you a scathing lecture regarding the misbehaviour that earned you your strapping. Your cheeks will burn with shame as you stand there, squirming, your bare limp penis and shrivelled up testicles fully on display. And if your sister happens to be present? Your aunt? Your girl cousins? Well, had you not misbehaved, you wouldn't have found yourself in this embarrassing situation. You should be ashamed of yourself, young man!

Then you will be bent over the back of the sofa, your bare behind uppermost. The strapping that follows will be epic. You will be screaming, apologizing, begging for forgiveness, crying before the end. All in all a shameful display more befitting a toddler than a teen. Your legs will kick and spread and bicycle in the air despite Mom's admonitions to hold them still. You will receive heavy strokes to your upper and even inner thighs to encourage you to control yourself. As you kick, your penis, testicles, and bumhole will be fully on display.  Mom and any female witnesses that happen to be present will see things only your doctor has any right to see.

Afterwards you will be marched to the corner and have to stand there in disgrace for a full hour (or more) as life in the house continues along unaffected by your embarrassing display.

That's what I see in that photo.

-- 2 --

How about his one?

It leaves a lot less to the imagination! Yes, it could be three identical boys. But I like to think it's just one boy shown in the three stages of his punishment.

It's clearly a routine gathering of the neighborhood ladies to discuss the local charitable activities. During the gathering, one of the ladies takes the hostess aside and discretely lets her know that she observed her son hiding in the bushes attempting to peep through her daughter's bedroom window.

That is so unacceptable! He likes trying to sneak a peek at naked young females, does he? She angrily calls her son down to join them. As he stands there in front of all the women, she has her neighbour repeat what she observed. She lays into him until he is practically in tears. He admits his wrongdoing, apologizes, and promises to never do it again. It's a spanking household. The boy knows his mom will spank him for it.

But his mom takes it a step further. She announces, in front of all the ladies, that he will be receiving a spanking for it, on his bare bottom.

Oh no! Now everybody knows that he's still spanked bare bum at his age! How embarrassing. They know that as soon as they leave, he will be taken up to his bedroom by his mom, he will have his pants and underpants lowered and go across Mom's knee. She will spank him to tears. They all know that now!

But in light of the nature and seriousness of his crime, his mom has decided she will step it up even farther.

She announces that he will be spanked here and now, with all the ladies present. And since he seems to want to see naked girls so much, it's only fitting that he be in his birthday suit for his spanking. All the ladies titter and can't but help to agree on the appropriateness of his punishment.

The boy goes red in the face. His knees tremble... "mom... please... no..."

"Go over there to the corner. Take your clothes off. Every last stitch. Then stand there with your hands behind your head... FACING US."

One of the ladies helpfully assists him to the corner and takes his clothes from him, one by one, as he strips them off.

"Let's convene our meeting, ladies. This young man will stand there, just like that, until break time, at which point I'll give him his spanking during our tea break.

It's nothing the ladies, all mothers, haven't seen before.

A half-hour later, at the break, he gets his spanking. She starts with her hand and proceeds to the hairbrush that she earlier laid out on the coffee table.

Afterwards, he's stood in the corner, his bare spanked bum on display, for the remainder of the meeting.

-- 3 --

I think he flipped his schoolmate's skirt up and embarrassed her, making her cry. Her mom and she drop by for a visit. Mom decides some discipline is in order. His tiny thing is all erect in front of the girl he secretly crushes on.

-- 4 --

A boy and his babysitter. She seems amused that he came all over her lap during his spanking. How embarrassed must he be!

-- 5 --

A day at the beach. He was caught by Mom taking illicit photos of topless young ladies. She put him over her knee, removed his swim trunks, and gave him what's for. Here we see him after his spanking, desperately trying to get his swim trunks back on while one of his "victims" snaps a few pics of her own for her Insta.

-- 6 --

Seems to be a young lady this time (or, perhaps, a panty trained young man?).

Is this not everybody's worst "nightmare". A pants down spanking in front of the whole (mixed) class?

-- 7 --

Dreaming of the lady next door giving him a well-deserved spanking. Do you see how excited he is, tenting his underpants like that? Be careful what you wish for. The reality may not be quite what you imagine...

-- 8 --


A very, very, embarrassed young man. His older sister had a couple of her friends there for a sleepover. He was caught peeking through the keyhole as they were changing. He's earned himself the bathbrush, in the bare, from Mom as the girls all watch.

-- 9 --

Jim took the car out out for a joyride with his friends on graduation day from high school. He insisted that he was too old to be spanked. That little backtalk earned him a birthday suit spanking with is little sister watching.

-- 10 --


Poor boy is leaking from both ends as his attractive young teacher gives him a lesson in obeying her.

-- 11 --

This young man carelessly trampled his neighbour's prize rosebushes. His mom has already given him birthday suit discipline. Now he's being marched over to the neighbour's house to show her the damage and apologize. Too bad for him she happens to have a couple of guests over. His mom will invite the neighbour lady to dole out some additional justice of her own. She will have him over the arm of the sofa and fetch the strap. It will be a very blistered and crimson-bottomed boy making his way back to his house, his mom dragging him home by his ear as she swats his hands away from covering his little penis.

-- 12 --

Another naughty boy caught trying to "upskirt" his sister's best friend. Mom will upskirt him!

-- 13 --

He was caught red-handed masturbating to a photo of his two step-sisters in their bikinis. His step-mom makes him stand there and apologize to them for his outrageously inappropriate behaviour. Ironically, his penis remains completely erect during his apology. His step-mom will soon have that spanked away!

-- 14 --

A boy makes the mistake of being rude to his mom while her no-nonsense sister is in town. She teaches her sister how to deal with a disobedient, disrespectful, and rude boy.

-- 15 --

A boy sneaks home from the school dance after curfew, thinking he'll get away with it. His mom was not so easily fooled.

She allows her naughty boy to get ready for bed thinking he was Scot free.

The threat of the girls being called calms him fast, but does he really think those pajamas will be staying up for his spanking?

Down they come!

And the spanking commences.

Mom left the door open, and the girls, hearing a spanking in progress, cannot resist!

I imagine the state of his penis is a common reaction from writhing around naked across a woman's bare thighs as the blood is brought down there by the spanking. His penis does not know it's his Mom.

Cornertime with little sisters is the worst!


-- 16 --

In a VERY different vein...

A cuckold is being instructed on who's the Alpha in the house. His legs are being pinned apart as he endures his fucking. The Alpha's large penis is incredibly painful going up his tight little hole. At the end, when the Alpha has finally decided the cuck has learned his lesson, he will fill his back passage with  sperm. Far worse is the fact that long before then the cuck will have spurted on the sheets from anal alone, like a bitch.

-- 17 --

And, a special gift from my friend russ. It's a video on spanking tube called SFspank cries during OTK spanking while locked in chastity

Description: I'm the boy getting spanked in this video! I hope people enjoy watching it and that lots of people JO to nice big orgasms while watching me cry. :-) Yes, it hurt like crazy and I cried real tears. Also, because my penis was locked in a little chastity device the entire time it was a completely non-sexual spanking experience for me. I don't usually get spanked that hard but I often cry during spankings - I'm never stoic - I’m a real crybaby when I’m over a man’s lap getting spanked. ;-)

And oh, yes, it's that good!

It starts with a cuck going over an Alpha's lap for his spanking. The cuck is in chastity, fyi. Look at how submissively the cuck is draped. His ass up as if begging for it. He knows his spanking will be long and hard already. He had better submit completely. If he doesn't, it's just going to make it that much longer and that much harder. Complete and utter submission to his Alpha is his best strategy.

I am excited already. This is my fantasy come true, with my husband as the one being spanked. The guy spanker is great. Definitely my type. Look at those hands. I'll bet he can spank!

Why is this spanking being given? It's really for the cuck's own good.  The Alpha is about to take me.  Take me with his big cock. Make love to me in every way a man can make love to a woman. Cucky will have to watch the whole thing. Cucky might get resentful standing there in his tight aching cage as the Alpha fucks the living daylights out of me. He might even get angry. So, before my fucking, he needs to be reminded who's in charge, and he needs to be reminded of the consequences of showing any resentfulness or anger. This will be done across the Alpha's lap.

The Alpha is eager to get me into bed, so he wants to be quick about dealing with cucky. He gets out the fierce Lexan paddle.

This will be a paddling of a lifetime for poor, poor cucky.

Cucky writhes this way and that way as the paddle connects unrelentingly with his ever-reddening backside.


There, there, cucky.


Back to the paddle now.




 In the video you hear the increasingly acute high-pitched cries of distress and the tears beginning to flow. The Alpha is not even breaking a sweat.

The Alpha goes to stand, lifting cucky up as he does so.

I'm pretty sure cucky will stand there very docilely and watch me being fucked by another man now. That spanking was only 4 minutes long after all. Imagine what 10 minutes with the belt will feel like!

Time for my fucking! Goody!

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There we go! Did you like the video? Which of the above is your favourite and what does it make you think of?

Sunday, April 16

The Power

We've been watching a new show on Amazon Prime called "The Power".

"The world of The Power is our world, but for one twist of nature. Suddenly, and without warning, all teenage girls in the world develop the power to electrocute people at will. It's hereditary, it's inbuilt, and it can't be taken away from them. Coming alive to the thrill of pure power: the ability to hurt or even kill by releasing electrical jolts from their fingertips, they rapidly learn they can awaken the Power in older women. Soon enough nearly every woman in the world can do it. And then everything is different."

The show is pretty good, but ultimately does not live up to its potential. What's great about it, though, is the concept.

From a woman's point of view, it's the ultimate empowerment fantasy. An attractive teenage girl describes how she now goes on jogs late at night with her earbuds in. No fear of men. One woman is stopped at the door of a club by a muscular male bouncer. She snaps her fingers and shows him a little spark. "I don't want any trouble," he says. She says "smile for me". He reluctantly smiles a little. With a condescending tone she says, "you look nice when you smile." A group of trafficked women who just got the power (a new girl had it, unnoticed, and passed it on), zap the genitals of their captor until they are fried crispy and then they escape. And so on.

David is watching it with me. He reports that he had a serious awakening of how women must feel all the time. Duh! He says he always knew it intellectually, but that imagining himself in this world hit him emotionally. Awesome!

When I spank him, it's hard for him to imagine having it done to him non-consensually. He knows that he's strong enough to over-power me at any time. Even if he's completely bound, he knows he's allowed himself to be put into that situation, and if I overdo it, there'll be hell to pay.

It's a different experience for me. When I'm across his knee, receiving a punishment spanking, the feeling is that there is NOTHING I can do about it. I know it's all ultimately consensual and I have a safeword, but it's the feeling I'm talking about, that he never truly experiences. Maybe it's why I'd be turned on having a powerful man spank him, and then anally rape him. I want him to experience that abject helplessness I experience every single time.

Ah, if only.

Friday, April 14

Julie's Hyper-Embarrassing Diaper Change!!!

Oh geeze... With David's permission and evil assistance, I'm going to do it again: completely embarrass myself with an on-camera diaper change (baby wipes, baby powder, the works); and my most-revealing, most embarrassing spanking ever. My tummy's doing butterflies as I write this...

My wet diaper coming off...

As you know, I'm working on a book of short stories inspired by AI. For volume 1 it's going to be all F/M material. One of my stories has an embarrassing diapering for a guy. But despite having written about it, done it to him, and talked about it a lot, I've never truly experienced it myself. So, I asked David to diaper me. I suggested we do it on camera as a gift for my blog readers given my posts have been so long and far between.

David agreed that my post frequency as of late has sucked, and that my readers deserve a "treat" that would at the same time act as a punishment for me.  He told me I'd be getting more than I bargained for.  Oh oh. He carefully reviewed all the screenshots and my blurring of anything identifiable, and even insisted I post a few extra zoom-ins. I'm so humiliated (and turned on!).

I went out to the drugstore to get the necessaries. Diapers, baby wipes, and talcum powder.

Had to get the Pampers brand, 'natch

I went to not my usual drugstore, and made it a point of going to the human checkout and really tried to act embarrassed. As luck would have it, there was an older gentleman at the cash. He was bantering with the lady before me, complaining about "cash soon to be illegal" (he's one of me!). I handed him the stuff. I looks down and blushed. I even squeaked out, "I wet a little". He smirked! Oh fuck!

I got home with my heart pounding. I had to wait until next day for my diapering.

When it was time, David put me into an initial diaper off camera and waited until I had wet it before we got things rolling.

It was his idea to literally change me. I mean, put me in a diaper, wait until I wet it, and then clean me up and change me into a fresh diaper. It seemed like a reasonable idea in advance until I realized I would have to have a pee-soaked diaper removed from me on camera!!!

He set up my iPad on a stairway looking down on the action and started the video rolling. Maybe one day I'll do all the necessary cropping and blurring to be able to publish excerpts from that. But for now, all you get is screenshots. They're bad enough!

Here is me looking very embarrassed having to tell him that I had wet my diaper and that it was time for my on-camera diaper change.

Yes, damn you, it is a bit saggy!

Still, David did not believe me that I had wet my diaper enough, and he had to check for himself.

"Oh yes, that's certainly wet enough, naughty girl," he declared as he felt the back of them. Oh Blush!!!

Already I was genuinely embarrassed!

He lay me down on my "changing table". Oh blush!


 and began unfastening my wet diaper.

Oh no...


 It's coming off. And then,  right off... Ohhhhhhhhh! I knew exactly the view everybody would be getting. If you could see my face, you would see such a blush! David commented on it and teased me as he uncovered me for the Internet to see.

He made me hold my legs up as he slipped the wet diaper out from under me. Now I really know where "diaper position" comes from.

He made me hold there, got the new diaper, and pushed me up higher as he slipped the fresh one under my bum. (you can see the soggy wet one right next to me!). [Also, I didn't realize I was showing any "underboob" until I edited this photo!]

Once the fresh diaper was in place, he began cleaning my (previously!) private parts with the Pampers-brand Baby Wipes.

Yes, he got right in there.


He even raised my legs and spread them to make sure he wiped all the pee from my precious spots. So humiliating!!!!!

"Please, David! No! Not like this! Not in front of everybody!!!!"

"Oh yes. Right in front of everybody, and you'll post a closeup too."

Even my bottom hole...

Well, that's it I guess. My dignity has reached Absolute Zero.

Next came the baby powdering.

And on it goes.

Thoroughly applied. Now the diaper is going on.

And there we go. All changed into a nice fresh diaper!

Well, that was all very embarrassing, and I thought my embarrassment was done for the day. David had other ideas. He thought bad girls who wet themselves need spankings! So he took me over his knee and unfastened one side of my diaper.

Baring my bottom and my still-powdered pussy from behind.

And then the spankings started. It was a pretty mild spanking. Firstly because I'm just a 'lil baby. But secondly because the camera angle was such he had to go left-handed. Ha ha!

But if it wasn't going to be a hard spanking, he would nonetheless make it an embarrassing one by spreading my cheeks and targeting the insides of my crease!

You can see the baby powder better now! David would like to show you all my well-powdered bottom hole.

He even started playing with it!

"No no no no, not this!"

Yes this. He spreads my hole further open and pushes his finger in. I squirm in embarrassment knowing this is going on my blog!

 

After more spanking, he helps me to my feet, my bum is quite rosy red.

Up I go.


There you are.

How's that for a parting shot?!?

Now nobody can say I didn't get the full diapering experience!

Sorry for my lack of posts, and we hope this makes up for it a bit...

Oh blush!

Comments, as always, are welcome. The more teasing there is, the better. I know some of you dislike my politics, so feel free to tell me I got what I deserve (David agrees, somewhat).