Oh Shit! How do I get myself into these situations??!!! I am going to have to go over a woman's knee, totally butt naked, and be paddled hard, likely to tears. I'll probably wind up looking like this...
And it will be SUPER embarrassing for me!
I know this is just the sort of blog post some of you just LOVE to see. Julie having to take what she oh so gleefully dishes out to her long suffering hubby. This NEVER happens. A spanking for me that I do not feel totally in control of. I've asked for spankings before, but I'm always 100% in charge, and they were never too hard. This time, I'm voluntarily giving up that control, and I'm due for a genuine blistering.
The reason I've never taken on the subby role is mainly because I usually get very panicked not being in control. There are some things from my past that are no longer relevant and should not still be impacting me, but they are. But I think I need to get over it. So I'm starting with a small but significant first step. I'm asking a woman to paddle me, very likely to tears.
Women in dommy roles don't elicit the same panicky response in me. I got spanked a couple of times before with some female Pro Dommes we played with, and that always was ok. And I have been spanked by david, but he knows all about me and my little panics, and is super sensitive and super delicate with me. Acting subby over email with a guy does not trigger any of the same sort of thing, fortunately. A real heavy duty Dom scene with a man I am not quite ready for yet!
This started on that
Daddy Spanks Daughter! post where I "pretended" to be subby with a 'fella I met online. We fell into Daddy and daughter roles (everyone here knows all about my daddy fantasies!). I did it ostensibly to get ideas for a roleplay scene with david. Well it was mission accomplished, and I certainly did get the material I wanted, and we did have a great roleplay as described, but I do have to admit that I fibbed a bit in implying that was the only reason I behaved subby for him. In fact, it was turning me on, and not only picturing myself in the Dommy role, but also >*blush*< in the subby role as well.
This 'fella is a wood-working guy. On his first email introducing himself he offered to make me a paddle.
I am an avid wood worker and have made a few
custom paddles as well. Would you like a
customized paddle m'lady?
I took him up on it, of course, thinking of using it on my husband.
What a lovely hobby! I would love for you to make me a paddle!!!! What size/shape/material/holes? david will be soooo sore!!!
I will build you one. Do you have a preference as to shape and size?
Would you like the "extended warranty"? If yes then I have to test it
out on your lovely bottom
I'm thinking more OTK-sized, so no more than a foot in total length? But
nice thick hardwood. Maybe a half inch thick? Would that work? Beyond
that... surprise me!
Yes that will work. Not going to get you to take the extended warranty huh. I have so much
trouble getting women to go with it. Sighs. Lololololol
Don't worry, I'll test it out very well on my husband's backside!
But but but ..... no fun for me! I will need a address to mail it to though.
Sure. I have a good anonymous one you can send it to.
I have a friend who has a service where you can ship to a US mailing address and it gets forwarded to her here in Canada. So nice and anonymous way to get it to me.I txt'd her trying to get the address. She txt'd back saying she would get it right away, and then she didn't for awhile. Grrrrr.
It's drying now. I will apply another coat of lemon oil today. The
center is maple, it has an exotic hardwood laminate on both sides.
Nothing major fancy in shape. Get me the mailing address and I will
mail it Monday.
He finished making my paddle for me and sent me a photo of it.
The color is the natural color of the wood . That is not dyed or tinted
It looks beautiful. And wicked!! Well he had held up his end, and I still didn't have that address, and Daddy was getting angry with me...
Ok young lady (in Dom Dad mode today). I need an address. Get it to me so I can mail this!
Yes Daddy. I'll bug my friend again right now!
If I have to drive up there you will be a sore sorry girl!
and then next day...
Ok young lady, that is a dozen on your bare bottom over my knee. I would
hurry up before the number doubles. Dad does not like being kept
waiting and you know better.
Well that sort of talk, actually, turned me on. I had, justly I thought, earned myself a dozen paddle strokes. Felling submissive, knowing I earned that paddling, I wrote back accordingly.
Oh pooh!
On my bare bottom? Daddy, I'm way too old for that!
And 12 is WAY too many. Not with that paddle! Please Daddy.
But just my skirt up, ok? Please can I keep my panties up? PLEASE!!!
Nope lil lady bare bottom and as of Wednesday it will be 24! And corner time. Get going girl or that bottom is going to glow in the dark. [Pulled over my knees, skirt lifted .. panties slowly peeled down and
the feel of that paddle rubbing your bottom.] Then ...... lesson learned
hard young lady!
I had decided I would take the paddling. And for real. But 12 seemed too few. I thought I would see if I could brat it up and earn a few more...
Yeah, well... what if I say no? huh? What if I put up a fight? I'm pretty strong you know... I'll bite you if you try!
Dad's been bit before, and I think you will submit because you know you've
been naughty and deserve it. Now stop being sassy and get me that
address young lady.
How frustrating for a subby! He did not "take the bait."
Yes sir... but it's my friend who needs the spanking!
That can be arranged, However you are my main concern. And your cute
little bottom is already in trouble. Now get me an address. Friday will
be 36 and grounded, no date Friday or Saturday night!
Woah! Not sure about 36!!! Not with that beast of a paddle. Fortunately, my friend came through and saved my ass (literally!)
Got it! Here's the address: [...]
I will ask husband to try the paddle out on me... skirt up, panties down... 12 times...
I will send it tomorrow. And I would like to see your pretty red bottom with the paddle beside you if that is acceptable.
Yes Sir! You do deserve a photo of my spanked cheeks with your
paddle resting atop them for your patience, and as payment. In fact, I
might post a blog article about the whole episode and include the photo
there! Thank you for the paddle gift, Daddy! Excited for it to come in the mail!
He then mailed it, and I teased him for including his return address on there, which I immediately Google Earthed like a nosy parker. Nice spread! But apparently you can't ship parcels without a return address, so I was, according to him, just being sassy,
As for return address, you cannot mail these days without a return
address. So no you're not too smart young lady, You're too sassy now. That
will cost you 15 min in the corner bare bottom young lady.
No please Daddy! Not bare bottom in the corner! Please! Someone might seeeee!
You better move young lady, or you're liable to end up with you over pillows completely bare ass up high and a
thick leather belt being applied. That lesson would stick with you for
days young lady...
I'll move, Sir. No need to get your belt out!
But I don't think you
fully realize, Daddy, how humiliating it would be for a grown up girl
like me to have to strip to bare in front of her Daddy, and then to have
to bend over pillows like that. You would see EVERYTHING there was to
see of me! I've looked at myself like that in the mirror. You would see
my pussy and my bottom hole! And then with the belt licking I'm sure my
legs would kick and spread and then I would be gaping wide open for you
to see.
That's.. sniffle... just not... sniffle... right!
Yes, I was getting into it. These exchanges excited me. And of course he knew that from the tone of my replies, so he would randomly throw in stuff out of the blue into my email, like at night,
Bed time young lady! Now! March! [Smacks your bottom]
And then in the morning,
[Walks in your room carrying the paddle. Flips the covers back and your nighty up.]
Young lady I have had enough of your sass and attitude!
SMACK SMACK SMACK SMACK SMACK SMACK SMACK SMACK SMACK SMACK SMACK SMACK
Now you get out of bed and get ready for your classes like I
told you to.
You have 15 minutes before I come back up here and we
start over!
Actually, reading stuff like this made me blush, and flush, and get a little wet, truth be told. It was warm and comfy having a Daddy again, and one who spanks to boot!
Then a few days later from him:
Have you checked with your friend today on the paddle?
She'll tell me soon as she gets it, Sir. When she gets it I'll go over to visit
her and ask her for twelve good and hard paddle swats to my bare butt
while across her knee. And a photo of my bare red ass with the paddle on
the small of my back. Your payment, Sir. Is 12 adequate, Sir, or do I need more for being slow and sassy?
So, at the time I wrote that, getting a spanking from my friend was still wishful thinking. I still had not talked with her, only txt'd. She's a work
colleague of mine from a previous job. Her name is Tracy. We became
friends and we stay in touch. She's married. She's also very attractive.
And I sensed quite "in charge". I have a bit of a thing for women as some of you blog readers know,
and I for sure would not have minded getting it on with Tracy. She did
not know at all about my spanking life, and I never made a pass at her
or anything, but I was even then wondering if a spanking from her could be arranged, or maybe even more...
12 is appropriate for now, however if I do not see your bare bottom in
the corner for being sassy immediately the number will be doubled!!!
I wanted more. 12 was for wimps. So I decided again to play the brat and see what happened.
Well I'm not standin' in no stinkin' corner!
Excuse me young lady! Fine! 12 on your bare bottom and 12 on your upper thighs at the sit spot!! You're little ass is going to be so blistered... you are in so much trouble!
Ooops!!!! I didn't think I could take 12 on the thighs!!! The perils of being a subby! Little bratty julie had some quick tap dancing she needed doing!
Daddy, sir, I wanted to first say, I am really really sorry
for being sassy with you and for being so mouthy and disrespectful. I am
also very sorry about taking so long to get you that address, sir. It's
not my friend's fault. It's my fault.
Just, please sir,
not another 12 on my bare thighs sir. Please! that's a really, really
sensitive area on me, and I just know I could not take it, sir. I'll go
over the knee sir, even in my birthday suit, sir, if that is what you
require. And I'll take 12 paddle strokes to my bare bottom. Or even
more, sir, if that's what you require. I'm just... It's just... not on
my upper thighs, please! PLEASE! I'm really, really sorry, sir... I beg
of you, sir. Please! Anything else. Please!
respectfully, and penitently,
your julie
Fortunately, the brat got her way. We pretty little girls know how to wrap our Daddies around our little fingers!
I will grant you your request this time young lady. However it had
better stop or I will use the strap on those thighs. 24 on your bare
bottom over the knees. If it is not a sufficient spanking when I check
it will be repeated. Am I CLEAR!
Thank you, Daddy
I appreciate your remorseful attitude, I hope you mean it and have
learned your lesson. In doing so you admitted telling me a lie. You
blamed your friend. Now faced with punishment you admit the truth. Yes
you will get the full 24 on your bare bottom. If I hear any more whining
you will be sending me an audio of your spanking as well as the picture. Understood?
Yes, Sir. Understood.
24... Gulp! That's a lot more than 12! Not sure I had thought that fully through. Ok, 24 it was. Now how to get Tracy to do it? I was wondering how I was going to approach the spanking thing with her, when what did you know but she called me. We caught up a bit and then she said she needed to ask about the package. Her husband was on her about it. What was in it? I told her it was a tad embarrassing. She asked me if it was legal, which is what was on her husband's mind. I assured her it was perfectly legal.
"Well what is it?" she asked.
"Do I
have to say?' I asked with what I thought was a cute little pout and a whine. I wanted her to press me on it.
"What? Is it a dildo?" she asked. Whoa! good guess!
"No!" I said.
"You better just tell me. If you don't, I'll open it up anyways and John and I can see for ourselves when it gets here."
"Noooo! Don't let
him see it!" I whined.
"Then you better tell me," she said. I think she's pretty naturally dommy!
I sighed and said, "fine, it's a paddle if you must know."
"What? Like a canoe paddle?" she asked, sounding mystified.
"No, silly. It's a spanking paddle." (blush, blush, blush!)
Then she laughed. She actually laughed out loud. "Who's gettin' spanked, little girl?"
I guess based on how reluctant I was to tell her, she figured it was me on the receiving end. But her "Who's gettin' spanked, little girl?" made me kind of flushed and excited.
"Well, it's usually my husband, but this time I have to 'pay for' the paddle by getting 24 swats myself first, on the bare butt, and a photo!"
"Interesting paddle shop you're dealing with," she said, "they don't take Visa?" ha ha
I explained to her how it was an online thing where I was exchanging emails with this guy I met on some forum and he offered to make me a paddle in exchange for the swats and the photo and I accepted.
She was surprised, and kind of scolded me, "You're telling me you're going to send some guy you don't even know, a picture of your bare butt in exchange for this paddle? And he's not going to come find you and rape you?"
"yes..." I said, sheepishly, "a picture of my paddled bare butt to be exact," I added, "and he's nice..."
"So who's doing the honours?" she asked coquettishly, "your husband?"
"well yes... unless you want to..." OMG!!!! So bad!
"Hmmmm..." I hear her pondering over the phone.
"Just you, not John," I added hastily. I was not quite ready for her husband to see my bare butt getting the paddling of a lifetime!
"Well I'd be happy to do the honours," she concluded. "But I do tell John everything."
"Fine, you can tell him," I said, "but he can't be there."
"Agreed. So I guess this will be
my payment for you using my forwarding service, eh?"
"yes ma'am," I said. See? I know how to address a Dominant Woman!
"It'll be fun, paddling your little butt," she said.
Yummm! She said she'd enjoy it. And referred to my "little butt". That's kind of sexual, isn't it? I felt I needed to warn her one more time about what she was getting herself in for.
"It has to be 24 hard ones. Bare butt and across your knee according to him. And they need to be hard ones for the photo. Is that ok?"
"Don't you worry. I'll paddle your butt real good.
You won't be sitting after I'm done."
HOLY SHIT! What have I gotten myself into????
After that exchange, that was so exciting, I started sort of obsessing about it. At the very same time I wanted it to happen and didn't want it to happen!
Would this be her?
Will she take it seriously and really blister me? Do I want her to?
Will she insist I keep my panties up, regardless?
But no, Sir said bare bottom and I even told her that and she agreed.
But there's more than one way to bare a bottom...
Imagine if she did that? If she pulled my panty into my crack, splitting my pussy lips and my ass crack, wedging the material to rub hard against my clit and a-hole... OMG she would see and smell how wet my pussy was! It was humiliating to think about cumming while across her knee!!!
But no. Way more likely she'll lower them. Oh no... she's going to lower them!!!!
So embarrassing... When I think about this moment butterflies flutter in my tummy. Across her knee like a 6 yr old getting my panties lowered! She was a Woman. And I was going to be reduced to the status of bare bottomed little girl!
And then I'm 'gonna get paddled...
Is this going to be me??? Is that what a girl shows off when she gets a spanking??? Oh gosh.
Will we have some fun afterwards???
Or is
this all the "fun" I'm going to be having?
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