Monday, September 19

Anticipating My Spanking

As I mentioned yesterday in I've Been Sentenced to a Spanking, I fell well short of my own commitment to cook more and order in less, and so David told me Saturday night that I would be "consequenced"(meaning spanked) tonight (Monday).

David has not mentioned a thing more about it in all the time since. I wonder if he'll forget? I doubt it. I can barely stop thinking about it. I know it will be painful and unpleasant. I know I have brought it upon myself. Yet, I am so sexually excited at the prospect, even knowing that it will be physically horrible. I have not been able to keep my hands off my pussy...

Last night we went to bed at the same time. We both sleep in the nude. He's on the right side of the bed. By mutual unspoken agreement, he puts his left arm out and I snuggle into him under the covers, his arm around me, my head cradled into his shoulder. Sometimes I roll away and become the little spoon, pushing my bare bum into him, as I did last night. When I do this, he "takes inventory". He puts his right hand down and touches both my knees. I scoot them up more so he can reach. He moves his hand up my thighs and then lingers on my pussy, feeling me. His hands then go up my tummy and he fondles then grabs one breast then the other. His hand travels down my back to my ass. He squeezes one cheek then the other. He slides his fingers across my pussy lips from behind, penetrating slightly. He then ends by grabbing an ass cheek and goosing his fingers into my bum hole. He then pats my ass, satisfied I'm still all there and all his possession. Him taking inventory always excites me. I never mind it. I'm his. He knows it. I know it.

After inventory I turned towards him to snuggle into his shoulder. I like that he's a man. His body is bulky and strong. Thick. His arm wrapped around me is large and heavy. His hand is huge. I think about that hand spanking my poor defenceless rear cheeks. I squirm in his arm.

"Shhhh," he says, settling me down. I turn away from him again.  I slip a hand down between my legs. I play with myself surreptitiously. I bring my fingers back up to my mouth. I taste myself. Tangy. I lick my fingers, moistening them. I put them back down there and rub some more. I can't help it. I squirm into him.

"Shhhh.  Settle down." He says.

"May I have sex, please?" I ask him.

"No. Settle down. Time for sleep."

Drat. Why can't I have sex? But I don't want to provoke him. I'm already due for a spanking.


Today I've been very distracted all day. I'm working from home. He's at the office. I've wandered off several times, daydreaming about my spanking. How would he do it? Would he use an implement? Would I be completely nude for it, or just panties pulled down? Will it be a short quick reminder, or will he want to make an example of me? Would he require sexual obedience afterwards and what form would it take? Will I be allowed to orgasm, or will he simply sperm me, taking his own pleasure, and leave me punished and frustrated. Will there be corner time, and for how long? Will there be a knock on the door, and an unexpected witness dropping in to witness my shame?

As I was having these thought, at my work desk no less, I unbuttoned and unzipped my jeans, pulled my shirt up above my bare boobs, and languidly stroked my pussy under my panties.

I was not intending to cum. I was edging as I did not want to ruin the excitement of my spanking. Though I made myself sufficiently wet that I thought it best to wash my pussy and change my panties.

Now I came here and wrote this, and will have to wash my pussy and change my panties again.

I better do some laundry. It's overdue anyways.

25 comments:

  1. I changed my mind. David should send you to your room without dinner, but then after your spanking, you can have a snack...David's cum. You can suck it out and swallow it, like a good little spanked wife should.

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  2. Such a naughty girl! You deserve a good caning after your spanking for this lewd behavior (the exact type of behavior which I engage in knowing I am due for a spanking!). Looking forward to reading about it. XOXO

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    1. Fortunately, he did not read my blog before my punishment!

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  3. Since you want to cum so bad, and David knows it, if I was him, I would have you cum while he watches you make yourself cum. Then I would spank your naughty bottom. Then he would make sure you cum again after the spanking.

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    1. As it turns out, he did make me get myself off with didldo and fingers as he watched, but mercifully after my punishment.

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  4. My wife is the Head of Household. I get a monthly maintenance spanking, after dinner on the first Friday of the month.

    The anticipation!

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  5. Maybe it is okay for a female to do this, but my first adult spanking was getting caught masturbating and be naked, made it worse. I was loud, squirming, pleading, begging for her to stop. The wall facing time, and then being told this would not be the first or last spanking I would get. Jack

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  6. Many women are spanked at home, but you, you have fun letting it know. Perhaps an opportunity to show us once again your beautiful white buttcheeks.
    A dog training whip would have marked them for a few days but did your husband think about it?

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    1. A "dog whip"? Really? I would not like to see a dog whipped, but approved for use on little bitches!

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  7. I hear that a spanking immediately after an orgasm is that much more intense, As part of the punishment maybe 3 hard cane strokes first before using the hand and implements would increase the intensity too.

    Afterwards a serious amount of corner time followed by supervised edging and then not being allowed to come that night.

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    1. I don't think a post-orgasmic spanking would make any difference with me, I'm so multi-orgasmic.

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    2. Julie, I think that I've heard you (and some other women) conclude this before? As your contribution to advancing humanity's understanding of the female sexual response, I think that you should ask David to repeat your punishment exactly next Monday, but have him make you play with your naughty clitoris and cum strongly immediately prior to the punishment. Then let us know how you got on please.

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    3. No thank you!
      (Not this soon... )

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  8. You remind me of those misers who never have the money to pay, but who, the few times they do, expect to be seen as benefactors.
    I hope the punishment your husband inflicted on you was commensurate with the futility of your behavior.
    I firmly believe in the need for the punished to apologize but I also think that the time of rehabilitation must always follow the time of the sanction.
    You must be able to come back into the public space, even with your buttocks burning under your skirt.
    Anders

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    1. I was well punished, Anders, and WILL do better.

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  9. You offered your husband peanut butter sandwiches for friday night dinner!? Can we just let that sink in for a minute? I'm sure it will be sinking in later! How hard is it to have some things in the freezer, and keep some kind of starches around? Cook some things in batches, keep some pasta on hand, something? This is deep self sabotage to orchestrate the desires of the subconscious. I don't think one keeps xenon gas on hand but not a box of pasta, or a bag of rice with a few things in the fridge? A bit of a sticky situation, sticky like........peanut butter.

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  10. Would you consider yourself hypersexual?

    By definition it is “An obsession with sexual thoughts, urges, or behaviors that may cause distress or that negatively affects health, job, or relationships.”

    I’m just curious because you are clearly excitable and seem to have a needy pussy. Wondering how much it impacts you life as a whole

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    1. Definitely become obsessed for sometimes days in a row, but I never let it negatively impact anything. I feel it's a net positive in my life.

      I do sometimes get distracted during work-at-home, but I'm successful at work (feel good about my output and not letting anybody down, and doing ok in my career). But I'm not actually that ambitious that way. My husband's career sort of sky-rocketed so I actually don't care that much about my own (he now makes so much more than me that I doubt we'd even notice if I quit completely).

      I would say the only tension it brings is that I want it ("it" being spanking, domination, rough sex from him) more often than my husband is willingly able to give it to me at this point in our lives, and I do feel that playing outside of our relationship would be a negative, so I do get a bit frustrated and channel that into daydreaming, spanking porn and masturbation, and my blogs and book.

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    2. I appreciate your honesty. That’s so wonderful that your husband is performing so well at work. I have an uncle who also sky rocketed and it’s such a blessing to you and everyone in your lives.

      It’s funny how our brains long for what we can’t have. Now that he fits your ideal of a man, possibly more then ever before, and at the same time that means he’s busier and less able to give all his attention as often as before. All that together makes you even hornier! As frustrating as that can be it’s kind of in a kink persons nature to get frustrated no matter how much we get it (our kinks met). A part of us needs that frustration. It’s like a worthy punishment for our misbehaved minds. Thats such a fortunate problem to have!

      If I’m assuming too much or way off on my observation please correct me. As a side note I personally appreciate your discernment in regards to “outside of our relationship”. That can be very dangerous even when it’s worked out in the past. You two are special people and we as followers are lucky to have your story to relate to and learn from.

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    3. Thank you Anthony. Your comment got me thinking about it. I'll feature my thoughts in the next blog, reproducing your comment.

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