Friday, September 15

Letter to my Husband

After thinking about it for a bit, and considering all my readers' comments on my last blog entry, I am now absolutely positive that I want my husband to dominate me the way I fantasize about.


Thinking about it makes my heart beat hard, my mouth dry, my skin sweat, my belly do flip flops. My pussy and breasts ache for a touch. I want it badly. I want it badly from him!

I decided I will broach the subject with him by means of a letter. I have not sent it yet. I humbly request thoughts and comments from my readers before I do. I absolutely recognize the absurd irony of having such an intimate and private love letter seen and commented on by hundreds, and embrace it.

Here is my draft letter.



Dear David,

I am writing you a letter today, because if I talked to you about this in person I would surely blush and stammer and say things I do not intend. So I have taken my time composing this letter and thinking through everything I say in it carefully. After you have read it, then we can discuss at length if that is your desire.

I want to start off by saying what a wonderful husband you are and what a happy wife I am! Saying "yes" to you those many years ago was both the easiest and the best decision I have ever made in my entire life. I love so many things about you. I love your mind, I love your looks, I love your personality, I love the way you diet so assiduously and then eat a candy bar! I love that you are such a great provider and such a strong and competent man, and I love that you can be such a cute little girl laying across my knee!

When you first broached the subject of spanking, you asked if I thought spanking was at all sexy. I had heard cheeky references and jokes, of course, about adult spanking, but always sort of laughed them off. Spanking was mainly something you used to do to naughty kids. You asked if I wanted to be spanked. No! My only experience with spanking as a child was slightly traumatic, and the thought of being held down and struck by any man was not something I was at all comfortable with. You asked if I thought it would be sexy if I were to spank you. I was not so sure for my part, but if you found it sexy, then why would I not entertain your cute bare bum across my knee getting whacked?

And so it started. And to my surprise I found that I LOVED it! Once I got over the awkwardness and started doing it right, I found it sexy and empowering. I never dreamt I could have that kind of power over a man, over you. From the start it made my pussy wet and tingly, as you quickly found out afterwards when I put your head between my legs! Once I got to know your limits, the more red your ass and the more you wiggled and begged, the more it turned me on. As we went, we grew into more and more crazy stuff, and I loved it all! Implements, panties and bras for you, dildos, vibrators, strap-ons, my sister (!), public play, diapers, enemas, three-ways, trainers, pro dommes, friends, waitresses, you name it, I went for it, and I loved it! I know you did also. As long as you still want it, I intend to never stop doing it! God willing, I'll be spanking your bare ass in front of your cute little geriatric nurse when we're both in our 90's!

But, I'm now ready to revisit the question of whether I want to be spanked by you. Yes I do! Very much so! Not as a full-time thing, not as the main thing, not even as a regular thing. But as a once in a while thing? Yes. Absolutely. It excites me thinking of it. I have an itch, and it needs to be scratched, and only you can scratch it!

Don't misunderstand, most of the time when we play I'm still going to be your Dommy Wife and you better believe it, buster! I've got a drawer full of lingerie for you, a hairbrush, a strap, a cane, and a big strap-on dildo to teach you otherwise if you doubt me. And a sister and several female acquaintances I can invite over to watch me instruct you on that point!

Notwithstanding, you know, of course, that I've been toying with the subby side for a while now. A few little spankings from you, from some pros, from Tracy. A few more forceful sex acts from you. With all of those, I've felt very much in control of the situation. I treated the spankings more like a massage. And I was excited and not at all panicky when I mock-submitted to these women.

Then came John. Tracy was so keen to involve John as much as possible, and you know I'm a pleaser. So I considered it. I rolled it around in my mind. And I was surprised that thinking about it did not panic me. It even excited me. I was still not sure that if I actually let him dominate me a bit, that I would not panic, so I set it up as a sort of experiment. You were so understanding. You could tell it excited me, and you were nothing but encouraging! You are a very secure man, which I love about you. You let me explore my wild child and share the excitement with you, before and after.

I wanted it to be John, not you, for a reason I have not shared with you. A reason that was not even clear to me until recently. If I did react badly, I was worried I would wind up being mixed up about the guy doing it. Don't care if I get mixed up about Tracy's husband. Absolutely did not want to get mixed up about you!!! So he was my dry run. He was my dry run for you. I really only want to be spanked and dominated by one man in this world, and it's you! Oh, I suppose I can enjoy others as a lark, as you do enjoy being dominated by other women on occasion, but none of it makes any sense if you're not involved!

So I surprised myself by not panicking at all with John. In fact, I enjoyed being over his hard-muscled lap and feeling that heavy hand on my butt. I enjoyed sticking my ass up in the air like a total slut practically begging him to touch my pussy! It went so well that I decided to see what effect his cock had on me. Down my throat and in my cunt, good and hard. Even lapping his cum out of his wife's pussy after I made her lick his dribbling cum out of mine. Oh my gosh! Does that turn you on, David? I know it does! But I made sure to arrange to pay my debt, even though you thought none was owing. I made sure you got to bend over big-tittied Tracy and fuck her needy holes also, and even make a sperm deposit in her hot little cunt. Proving two can play at that game.

So whatever was holding me back from being dominated by a man, it's safe to say it isn't there anymore. It's less than the shadow of a ghost now. It's time you and I played for real! I'm ready for it. Are you?

With all those encounters, even with John, I was in control. I needed to be, rank newbies that they were. With none of them did I trust them enough to really let got. I want to let go with you.

You don't know this, but I let go with Violet. That spanking I got from her was not planned out in any detail at all. Everything else was planned to a tee. For my spanking, I just told her to do it properly, and boy did she ever! It was scary, but it was so sexy also! I want that with you now. I don't want to be in control at all. I want you to take that control.

Another thing you don't know, my fantasies around you dominating me have gotten dark. Real dark! I want to be spanked to tears. I want to be marked. I want you to use any vicious implement we own on my flesh. I want my ass spanked. But I want my pussy spanked also, and my tits and belly whipped. I want you to call me every dirty word you know: I want to be your bitch, your slut, your dirty little cunt, everything! I want you to punish me for being a whore. And I want you to make me beg for your cock. Beg for it in every hole I have.

Yes, I want to submit to you totally. Submit to having my face fucked. Grab my hair, push my mouth onto you until I gag. Submit to having my cunt slammed. Even submit to having my ass cheeks prised apart and my backdoor stretched and violated by your cock. Use the dildo. Stick two of them in my holes and use your cock in whatever's left over. Whichever way you please, darling, I want to be yours totally!

I know... I can get overly enthusiastic sometimes. You tell me this enough! So take it at your own pace. The first time we do it will not be our last. But know that I am ready for whatever you dish out, and that I crave everything I wrote above. I trust you absolutely. I have never trusted anybody else like this.

I will have the "red" safeword. And for your sake I will have the "yellow" one as well. Fell free to extract a yellow from me if you dare! I will not resent it, and don't you back off too much when you hear it either. I know what I'm asking for. I know how deliciously sore I'll be the next morning, inside and out.

And please don't worry about cumming too soon. I adore your creamy cum on me and in me, whenever it happens. It would be my honour to swallow your ejaculate, my husband, if it comes to that. Afterwards, you can just whip me until your erection comes back. I'll wriggle my ass and pussy nicely for you under your whip to encourage it! I'll take your soft member in my mouth and suck on it like a baby for as long as you want. I want you, hard or soft!

I Love You So Much!!!

Always Your Slutty and Over-Excitable Wife,

Julie



86 comments:

  1. Ms Julie you are turning a new corner. You have played with others and now you are ready to be dominated by David. This is also taking David down a new road. Are you really ready to let go? Or will you top from the bottom? How will David feel after will his mind be mixed up? Will he be able to submit again? There are many questions to be answered. I wish you both luck.
    archedone

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    1. I will definitely let go! And no, I'm quite sure David will not be mixed up at all. But time will tell!

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  2. WOW, I'm speechless...

    I recently shared a little fantasy with you via email...David is very lucky indeed - actually both of you :)

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    1. Fortunately you only need to type, not speak!
      And oh yes... a very nice fantasy it was!

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  3. OMG. We've seen this side of you coming out over the past year more and more. It's so intense, such a persistent ache for you, there's no way you can't go through with this. In the beginning, there was a side of me that didn't want you to turn "subbie" at all, but now I can see how it really feeds who you are and what you want.

    The letter's perfect! Wouldn't suggest changing a thing.

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  4. Julie, It's an erotic and beautiful letter. The mix of emotions I have is not something I expected. I'm proud of you, happy for you both, jealous of David and have an erection!
    Tom

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    1. Ohhh! That's sweet. Thank you!

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    2. Just a thought Julie if you haven't already gotten the beating you so much desire. While it's happening leave us out of your head. You've commented before about blog writing in your head while in scenes. "Stop it this time young lady!". You give yourself completely to David. Also a description of subspace by you would be most interesting.
      Tom

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    3. Well yes, I agree. When I'm in control I need to think of what to do next, and do also consider the blog. in this case, I'll do what he darned well tells me to! (got a pink bottom and sore sore nipples to prove it right after he read my letter!)

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  5. God that was perfect. Don't change a word. I use to think David had the perfect life and it could not be improved, I was wrong. It just got even better.

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    1. Ha ha! "Improved" by being allowed to beat me and have his way with me! Sexist! ;-)

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  6. That'll do it ! ;-)
    GG

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    1. Enough to get me a good beating?

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    2. Without doubt... and probably a good rogering too! xx
      GG

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    3. I don't so much mind my rogerings, if only he would let me cum!

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  7. Brilliant. Hold on tightly to each other and enjoy the journey.

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  8. Julie, I'm not sure....I thought you would be more specific on what you want, more like the previous post. That way, there wouldn't be any disappointment on your end.....-k

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    1. I thought of being more specific, but no, I want to take what he wants to give... That is the only thing that will satisfy me!

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  9. When people ask me what I think true strength is I always point to those who can openly and willingly announce their desire to be taken control of. Bravo to you! This is an amazing step and one that decidedly demonstrates the trust of your marriage.

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    1. Thank you! You certainly need a lot of trust. He has certainly gone over-the-top in giving it to me!

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  10. Very nice letter!

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  11. Beautifully written Ms. Julie! Your heart and your love for david shine through. Thank you for sharing with us.
    vic

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    1. And thank you for the feedback! Makes me more confident that I struck that right note.

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  12. First thanks for sharing this Lovely letter. I found myself hard, with my member poking up through the waistband of my pink cotton panties for two reasons.

    You have the most brilliant, dirty, and kinky mind of any spanko writer I've ever read. But your actions (scenes) always always come from the heart. The love that comes through in this letter is amazing and sooo sweet!

    Second, the strong trust you put in David and the relationship you two share allows him to take you in multiple ways, spanking and whipping you with multiple implements, for as long as he'd like. And the sex you describe you want is so palpably submissive, but so full of love, its intamacy is a total turn on.

    I can't wait for the download blog, should you wish to share.

    💖TL

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    1. Of course! Sharing exhibitionistically is half the fun!

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    2. Yay! Love your exhibitionism.TL

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  13. Nice letter of love for your husband.
    What an horizon !
    Just hope he will not find the last paragraph too much ironical.
    He could have the idea to give you a licking like the one he once got with the strap that « looks like it will really hurt ».
    To your « Punish me. Not to make me wet, but to truly make me sorry! » He could add « very few things make quite an impact as a spanking admistered over an already bruised and sore bottom »
    But is not it what you crave ?

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  14. This is a lovely letter, Julie. Quite heartfelt and truly rings as coming from a woman who loves her man deeply. And I think David will be up to the task. He has ten years of payback to visit on you, haha! He may need a little guidance at first, but if your dry runs are any indication, he'll pick it up quickly. I think once he truly realizes he actually has permission to spank you to tears he'll get into a groove.

    Are there going to be any hard limits for you, like David's hard limit of men touching him? Are you prepared to possibly lick his bottom? Are you prepared to write lines while plugged crying and sore from a hairbrushing? Are you prepared to know what it's like to have Adam shoved up your bottom? Are you prepared to have your pussy used multiple times in a day solely for his pleasure? I think you are.

    I think you'll get a good response from your hubby. He's hinted that he's wanted to top you for some time, and I believe he'll leap at the chance.

    Be well, both in spankings and in life,
    Edwin

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    1. I want the beatings and the fuckings. Writing lines is for kids!

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  15. This is the contributor who brought up Rogering and kinky billionaires last week.I also expressed the opinion that David might not go for a new role as "Master". Well, just say two things for now.
    Firstly, hope my latter prediction is wrong.Secondly, fully concur with the contributor who said you had the most "Brilliant,kinky,dirty mind" and as a final somewhat bittersweet rejoinder,would consider myself one of the luckiest man in the world, if i could find someone half as fantastic as you.

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    1. Thank you!
      I'm sure he'll enjoy his role! We'll see if he's man enough to whip me the way I need it!

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  16. Dear Julie, Beautiful letter, but still seems topping from the bottom. I still take credit for recognizing you were a switch before you did. Have fun and try to let go of your need to control, which probably goes back to your bad experience.

    John

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    1. Nah, just making my desires clear. Topping from the bottom only happens during a scene IMO. Outside of that it's called communication!

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  17. Ms Julie you have opened your mind and you heart in this letter. I’m sure your trust is not misplaced with David. As much as he loves you and cares for you I doubt he would go to the extremes you depicted in your last post but I have a feeling he will certainly “scratch your itch”!

    Cheers, Bob Bell

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    1. I'll communicate until I get what I need! Patience...

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  18. Julie,

    I think it is time for a weekend of diaper training for you. Have David find a cute young girl to baby sit you, change your diapers, feed you baby food from your high chair and put you to bed in your crib after you sexually service both of them....

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    1. I prefer being "forced" to dress in sexy lingerie!

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  19. Long time reader, first time poster.

    Julie, that is such a beautiful, warm, heartfelt expression of love. Incredibly erotic too, I wouldn't be surprised if David both cried and came reading it. I love how you make it so clear that his dealing with your expanded needs won't stop you dealing with his.

    There's not a word out of place or a thought unexpressed.

    Lindsay

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    1. Hi Lindsay! Welcome!
      Thank you for your thoughts. Makes it easier to send it!
      Are you a boy Lindsay or a girl Lindsay?

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  20. Wow really well written letter Julie! Just surprised you didn't go into detail a Lil more

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    1. I don't want to tell him what to do, just what I'm willing to take!

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  21. Great letter. I quite often write suggestive emails to my wife, to talk about things that may be initially awkward face to face. I don't think that the letter should be changed based on readers feedback. Best that it comes straight from your heart!

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  22. Well that's about the most awesome love letter I've ever read.

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  23. Well you did right thing writing letter that good idea to do when want tell somebody something too nervous shy ask them I always remember story you said how you and David got into spanking he ask if he could spank you and your feeling on spanking you respond to only spanking him which was good to start with at time

    IN way he did it the right away people suppose to do when have interested in spanking either giving or getting spanked/spankings when first brought up to you the idea you responded the way somebody would first time ask about Spanking s adult too old for the suppose be kids for punishment get spankings

    here to many many many more spanked red butt and spanking to yours and David Future maybe to celebrate you get spanking of your life from him posted pics I know u don't wanted be spanked all time which is ok as well

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  24. I imagine the first thing husband will do, after receiving this letter, will be to deeply and lovingly take your warm mouth.
    Then, considering your over-excited state, he will not find it reasonable to listen to you before you calm down a bit.
    Once this will have been set, your conversation about yours and his desires will certainly be delightfull and informative. A non-negligible part of your attention being nevertheless reserved to the stinging and searing sensation in your derrière.

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  25. Wow! You are certainly not sick in the mind. On the contrary you the boldest, and if I may say so truest person I have come across. You have allowed so many of us the pleasure of sharing your life with David. All the while allowing many of us an insight into your world , entertaining and even titillating us with your blog.
    I think you have taken a step forward by baring your desires to be spanked and taken by David. Perhaps after allowing David to exercise his choice, you should write second letter to him. This time you may like to tell him all the things you have wished (in your various blog posts). These include David's ass being taken by a man, David getting breastfed by a young lady and others.
    Your admirer

    Paul

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    1. Somehow I doubt he would object to a breast feeding. That would be hot!
      I enjoy titilating... sometimes I even titilated with my tits!
      I appreciate the nice feedback, thank you!

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  26. Do you think david is about to experience a rude awakening when he will read your letter ?
    DD

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  27. Remember an Hattrick's fantasie (a little adapted)
    Sue come over for say some wine and cheese. During the normal period of conversation you accidentally spills some wine on something (blouse, table cloth, furniture). David admonishes you for being so careless. He could say something like “I guess you didn’t learn anything from the last time”, as he pulls you over his lap and flips up your dress over your bottom. Just as he is sliding his fingers into the waistband of your panties you plead “No please not bare bum, not in front of my sister”. “Silly girl..” David says “you know I always spank you bare bottom. Just be thankful I’m not making you strip in front of Sue!!”. He pulls your panties down to just below your knees and proceeds to give you a good hard hand spanking. After the spanking is over you have to do corner with your spanked butt on display and panties around your knees.
    After David releases you from corner time you both can answer the multitude of 'WTF' questions that I’m sure Sue would have. Then, it's the fucking part....

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    1. Nice fantasy, but think I'll keep my sis out of it!

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  28. "Kinks must have been EVEN MORE FUN when they were so taboo."

    Something you wrote as a comment in the previous thread, and it crossed my mind as I read your letter to your husband. There was a time when this letter would certainly have been seen by general society as "sick" and shocking. It would have been a real risk to present this to a spouse unless much kinky groundwork had already been laid with that partner, preparing them for this level of proposed debauchery. Much of society these days, even if they don't fully understand or approve, know that kink is common. Your relationship with David has already established a high degree of sexual freedom and large range of expression. So while we lose some of the thrill and piquancy that infused kinkiness in the past, today we have the advantage of ease with which to push boundaries.

    One of the strongest aspects of my kink has always been the feeling that spanking as punishment is a special kind of abomination. If it was just a matter of routine, a bit of news that could be shared amongst friends, then I doubt I'd be a spanko. I'm attracted to the perversity. Considering your husband is a similar kind of spanko, I expect he will be pleased---I would love receiving a letter like this from my wife. Overcoming your fears to reveal your innermost desires is an expression of love and trust. It's a gift and, for a husband, a wonderful opportunity for deeper marital intimacy. I don't know how far he can take you and be comfortable, but the fact that he understands so well the feelings you want to experience should be an advantage.

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  29. Good for you!

    I will sometimes have (my very submissive husband) Shilo spank me to tears and even treat me a little rough. It really doesn't make me feel any less Dominant, and I feel renewed afterwards. It's good to explore and let out that inner naughty girl on occasion. It keeps things fresh, and we LOVE it! Enjoy!

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    1. Ahhh Yay! That's how I feel as well. I'm now on my second day of submission out of a week. I get my real beating at the end of the week. Feeling very turned on by it all, but also feel my Dommy battery being re-charged as well!

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  30. Dear Julie:
    This might be one of the most beautiful and sexiest letters I have ever read. Thanks for your sharing with us. You and your hubby are the model couple for us to learn. Mutual trust, happy wife, husband will to provide and wild fantasy to spicy up your life. I have followed your blog for a long period. Every time I read your sexy writing, I can’t help to cum, ‘cause your word is more magic than porn. Keep on updating, and we’ll be the loyal supporters for you. One day when you travel to Shanghai or on business, do remember to have coffee together, lol.

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    1. Shanghai sounds wonderful. I'll need a tour guide! I fully intend to keep it up, I love it!
      Thank you for the nice sentiments!

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  31. As with most of your posts, I found this to be very egocentric. You really do have an inflated opinion of yourself.

    Wayne.

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    1. I don't see any evidence to support your premise, Wayne. Only one post ago, Julie was very introspective and self-questioning. As for egocentric, what do expect her blog posts to be about? You? So what, exactly was the intent of your post, Wayne? It seems to be much more a personal attack than legitimate criticism. So what is your point, Wayne? Why are you here? Aren't you the one feeding your ego?

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    2. Thank you, david, but you know you mustn't be rude to my commenters, even if they deserve it. Please give yourself a spanking. I'm serious.

      And hello wayne - yes, this episode is quite egocentric. I am trying to express what I want. Though I had a very strong suspicion, since proven out, that David would take great enjoyment in my submission as well! But most of the rest of my blog is about me bending over backwards to cater to my husband's kink (turns out I liked it too). But my motivation was not selfish in doing that. This one is selfish!

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    3. david, my comment was not to you. This is none of your business. Take your pathetic need to be the "White knight" and shove it.

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    4. Wayne... behave! You wouldn't want a spanking as well, would you? Let's all be polite little girls and boys here. david has already been punished. Any more rude comments will be deleted. Polite, apologetic ones will be published.

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    5. Dear Mistress Julie,

      I am sorry for my rudeness. I gave myself a thorough spanking today with evidence sent to your email. I promise not to behave that way again on your blog.

      Submissively,
      david

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    6. Une fessée chacun ! Comme ça il n'y aura pas de jaloux !

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    7. I received the photographic evidence. Job well done, david. I also like the transformations I'm seeing in your body. Keep it up!

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  32. Dear Mistress Julie,
    What a beautiful letter and what an honor and pleasure it has been to share this journey with you through your blog. While learning about you, I also have gotten to know myself better. Through your implicit and explicit instruction, I have become more self aware, more disciplined, and a better husband and person.

    Your letter is exciting in so many ways. Even though I'm 99% sub, I get very excited by images of breast beating and pussy whipping. Thinking about all your holes being stretched and abused gets me hard and hot. Imagining your perfect bottom being spanked until you are a drooling, dripping, sobbing mess takes takes my breath away and gets my heart pounding. Thank you for using the platform of your blog to reassure me it's OK to have these totally non-PC fantasies.

    Congratulations to you for having the courage to open yourself up like this, not only semi-anonymously to your readers, but also to the person you will spend the rest of your life with. Even with all you and David have done together, exposing dark secret desires to your spouse always comes with the risk of unforeseen and unknowable risk of what his response and reaction will be. Still, if you don't buy a ticket, you'll never win the lottery and if you don't ask for what you want, you won't get it.

    Finally, your beautiful letter reminded me of a time when I was dating my future wife. In those early years of courtship and marriage, quite a lot of my communication with her was through letter. I never described my secret desires quite as explicitly as you have here, but I'm now recalling that our exchanges were quite revealing and intimate. I'm now recalling that I did push her boundaries until she pushed back quite firmly. As tempting as it might be to write a similarly themed letter to my spouse now, I realize that she has always given me the best sex life she could and that she really does do and allow me to do things that she considers very "kinky" in her mind, even though most of us here might consider it VERY vanilla. Even as I am inspired by your blog to find a way to ask for more, I need to continue to appreciate what I have.

    And when desires bubble up that my real life will not quench, I am SOOO thankful that my Mistress Julie will take me by the (hand) and lead me into those deep, warm, very fulfilling waters of fantasy.

    Submissively,
    david

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    1. Thank you, david! What a beautiful sentiment. I LOVED this comment. Now I almost regret sentencing you to that spanking above! (almost ;-)

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  33. Glad to see you doing this and hope you have given him the letter by now.
    If I were him I wouldn't say a word about the letter, I'd just surprise you.

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    1. I have, and he's taken a different approach. Will blog soonest!

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  34. Early in our relationship my wife and I were equals sexually and experimented with B&D with both of us being in control at different times. Over time my desire to be dominated became more pronounced and she discovered how much being in charge turned her on. Eventually our sex life was 100% her dominating me, and I loved turning over my body completely to her.

    In this roll she completely controlled "her" cock and never allowed it to cum inside her or swallow. I had to clean up my own cum always. I was spanked and paddled regularly, and we experimented with cuckold and she sometimes had me service her friends.

    About a year ago when I was eating out my Mistress and biting her (as she often instructed me to do) she yelled out for me to take her anally and spank her. I was shocked but quickly switched roles.
    She later decided that she wanted to be dominated once in a while.

    My "slave name" has always been Apollo and my sissy name Sophia. The instant I hear Mistress say or text those names I instantly become submissive wherever we might be.

    Mistresss and I came up with Amber as her pet name for when she wants to be dominated (and she calls me Sir). Using these names helps us know what role we are in.
    I will admit that I do go easy on her sometimes not wanting her to retaliate when she's in charge. I'm also still hesitant to ask to be in charge since Mistress is still ultimately in control.

    Perhaps you can discuss with David if he can truly abuse you sexually and give you the paddlings and domination you desire when he's in charge, or if he might hold back. Ultimately I hope you can both explore your dominant and submissive desires and achieve an even higher sexual bond.

    My Mistress and I are still about 98% with her in charge and the other 2% when we switch roles is always a super turn on for both of us. Occasionally we will even roll dice or pick cards to see whose in control just for fun.

    I wish you and David luck in your submissive role with him and hope it fulfills you Julie and also brings out his dominant side (once in a while).

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    1. Wow. Nice to meet another couple who go the same way. And nice to read about it working out. No, it wouldn't occur to me to retaliate. He takes what he can take, and likewise for me. But he's now in top mode (for a week), and I cannot make any reference to him as a sub at all, so I can't even tell him that!

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  35. I am so fucking hard right now. You are a kinky guy's dream.

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  36. Did you cum writing this letter? I did reading it
    Always
    Ron

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  37. Nicely written letter. Guess you got what you were asking for. And that was more than three years ago. Thanks for linking to this. -- Frank

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    1. Thanks. It was an intense week following!

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