Sunday, May 2

What David Knows About My Blog

I've been playing coy, and outright lying, for a decade now regarding what my husband knows and doesn't know regarding this blog. It was not totally my idea to lie about it, but I was complicit. But I now have permission from David to tell the truth.

David had been a spanko from birth, and he introduced his previously hidden kink to me several years into our marriage. I was disappointed that he hid it from me, but came to understand why over time. His initial expressed desire was to spank me, but when I shut him down cold on that (oh how the times have changed!), he asked if I was at all turned on by the thought of me spanking him? I was not turned on by the thought, but I could see how important it was to him, and so was determined to give it a try. After a bit of frustrations getting started, I found I actually did enjoy it, and it did in fact turn me on having him across my knee, suffering under the big wooden hairbrush he had given me to spank him with. Most importantly, I found it empowering and cathartic, and that in turn made it sexy once I knew he was getting off on it also and I was not injuring him.

When I do something, I do it right, so I went online and started consuming all manner of spanking porn: text, images, videos. I quickly skipped over all the femsub stuff and focused on the lady on top, man on bottom, variety. I had not been hiding any of my online activity from David. He was very much on the Internet himself and suggested resources for me. When I found certain things I thought he might like, I showed them to him and asked him if that was a turn on. He also sent me links to things that turned him on.

After a bit of lurking, I wanted to interact, so created a fake identity for myself and began posting on a Spanked Husbands forum on a site called Topix. I did not tell David about that because I was seeking ideas to surprise him with. I think I was a novelty for the folks there and I received a lot of praise, attention, encouragement, great suggestions, and advice.

From the start, it was clear that I was much more adventurous than the typical wife to a spanko hubs, which in itself was already a rarity. Most wives were quite grudging and prudish, I thought, and a bit ashamed of spanking their husband. I, on the other hand, eagerly consumed any new activity dreamt or suggested. I got an adrenalin kick out of doing some more outlandish "out there" things. Putting him into panties. Taking him on public outings. Involving whatever other women I could. I loved it all! In fact, I took him panty shopping less than a month from spanking him for the first time; and involved his trainer and my sister both within the first three months. Doing that came naturally to me. Doing anything else seemed unnatural.

I had also started perusing other people's blogs, and realized that my very adventurous more public approach seemed to be unique even in the spanko world, but a fantasy for many; and my enthousiasm in embracing my husband's kink was something I thought as a natural reaction, but in fact appeared to be rare. So I thought that I could have a unique voice, and decided I wanted to start my own blog. I did not see it as a big departure from posting on Topix, just a more efficient way to generate ideas and share experiences. So I did not initially tell David about the blog either.

You can directly see when my pangs of guilt began. I posted about it in Feeling Guilty. Then the very same day I wrote that blog post, he gave me (or maybe more apt to say "I took") the best orgasm of my life. So I wrote about that as well, and that was really, really personal, so I thought that I cannot go on hiding my blog from him. So I told him about it the next day. He didn't mind at all. He read the post about our lovemaking I was most concerned about and thought it was very hot. He encouraged me to keep going, and to blog about anything. Carte blanche. Neither he nor I ever dreamed how popular the blog would become. I thought it would stay a niche thing with limited interest to just a few freaks like us. Turns out there are many more freaks like us than I counted on ;-)

I wrote my next post, A Real Man, specifically for him. It was a twisted little love note to him. It contained elements of how much I admire him, and how much I enjoyed the new empowerment of wielding the hairbrush and being dominant in bed. It was designed to turn him on, and after reading it he came to me, knelt and kissed my feet, and declared me his Goddess. I spanked him and made dominant love to him.

Lying in bed afterwards I asked him if I should tell everybody on my blog that he now knows. He said no, the blog is my thing. He thought part of the appeal was guys reading it could imagine themselves in his place, and his presence on the blog would only interfere with that. He said that since I told everybody already that he does not know, just keep it that way.

David followed along for a bit, but after a time said it felt like snooping on my diary and told me he wasn't going to routinely follow, as he wanted to be surprised by what I came up with. Sometimes I sent him to read particular posts, and I knew there was always the possibility of him reading anything, so I always wrote accordingly (not that I changed anything up as a result). Whenever anybody re-asked over the years if David knows, I just repeated the same message.

As soon as David was in the know we established some ground rules to protect ourselves. My only communications channels would be text on the blog and by the associated email account. There would be no photos of us on the blog, and certainly no videos. Definitely no online impromptu chats or in-person meetings where the risk of accidental exposure was greater. We wanted to closely control all communications.

In fact, I had already broken the "photo" rule a bit with my blog avatar, which is a photo of me closely cropped and cartooned using a photoshop art filter. We didn't bother changing that up, but when blown up it is unmistakably me.

Early on I posted a blog of me purchasing a strap from a leather/sex shop, and then using it on David quite severely. A commenter requested a "real but non-revealing photo" of me holding the strap. I had already received some comments and emails from people questioning if I was who I claimed to be, and I thought it would add too much fuel to the fire if I rejected a reasonable photo request like that. David thought it was a bad idea, and he was not pleased with me asking to break our safety agreement 2 weeks in  (!), but acquiesced, even took the photo, and approved the final cut for publication.

Don't I look fierce and no-nonsense? And I thought that posting the precise requested image within a few hours of the request would settle the question of my being who I said I was once and for all. Naive! Over the years I posted a few more "dare type" photos. Once of me in a bra holding up three fingers and a sign in exactly the manner requested. And another of my lilly-white backside holding up a "Strict Julie Spanks!" sign. David had to sign off on those, which he grudgingly did. Over the years I posted more photosets, little "Easter Eggs" for my blog readers. Each one was a bit of a battle with David. He just shook his head at the shower and Tracy photosets but allowed them. I actually enjoy the exhibitionism of it. It's still a source of tension with us. Maybe he'll lighten up after he reads this?

Over the years there were certain photos of David that I just had to publish as well. I begged and pleaded so prettily that he had to relent. I remember the very first time he relented and said, "well there goes my plausible deniability." Ha ha! I mean, the Internet would have lost out forever on one of its most iconic switching aftermath images had he not relented:


I think one of the earliest bare bottom / subby pictures of me was when taken by Mistress Violet the first time we went to see her, before she knew about my blog. I asked her for photos. This is the one that David allowed me to post:

I was clearly exhibiting some rather extreme subby tendencies, especially the way I encouraged the commenters to take me to task in Playtime Happened: My Spanked Bottom! The large photo from which this was cropped was this one:


Violet had taken the photo, and the photo was of course the dead giveaway when one of her clients pointed us to her blog (Violet recognized the roleplay scene of course, and my lingerie, bottom, and pussy). This was early on in my journey towards submission, and I wanted David to "break the ice" by giving me a fondle-heavy "birthday spanking" (it was not my birthday) in hopes that Violet would make out with me later in the scene. This is David doing yeoman's work on my butt. The pinkening was entirely imparted by him. I think he took advantage of my horny situation and I sort of reveled in the view I was presenting to Violet. I hoped my red-bottomed squirming was turning her on.

After David had his turn, it was Violet's turn to spank me. She did, and she teased me in an intimate way as well. Afterwards, I quote, "When she was done with me I stood up and told her "that was hot!" She replied that it sure was, and she kissed me on the lips. A long and lingering kiss with my dress still hiked up and my panties still around my knees and with her grabbing my bare butt! Who's seducing whom here???" Yes, I melted at the female domination, I'll admit it. We went on to the scene where I was David's daughter and Violet was my new step-mom. We ended the scene, after co-domming David, with him jerking off while the two of us, above him, were half-naked, fully entwined, hands groping one another, and kissing passionately on the mouth.


Sometime in 2019, while I was exploring my subby side a lot, I was having an email exchange with somebody asking if I could make an animated gif of David spanking me. I talked David into allowing a video that I could make into a gif, but he wanted to see and approve the end result before I released it. I learned the whole Photoshop cropping and editing thing and wound up making such a good video that sufficiently concealed our identities that I actually got permission from David to post that.

see: Strict Julie Spanked on Video

David did however, put up a fight. We were dressed in some of our regular clothing, and anybody who knew us in real life (like my Dad, e.g.) would be able to recognize us. But he relented in the end and I got to treat my regular blog readers to an actual video of an actual spanked wife! I was proud of David's showing in that video as well. You can tell from the first smack that he has a hard hand perfectly capable of taming a spanko wife.

A couple of years earlier we had made this other amazing video of ourselves, as part of a pretend sort of thing where I told him I was going to send it to my Mom so she can see how I deal with him. The way we played he was 99% sure it would not be sent to my Mom, but I am 1% crazy-ass-bitch, so he can never be absolutely sure, and that added the necessary edge for the sake of realism. Afterwards I made him put the video on our big screen and masturbate to himself being spanked by me while I watched.

Strict Julie Spanks on Video

There I am "showing him off" to my Mom over video.

Well, I had just learned the video editing, cropping thing, and had now also learned how to blur videos, so I started work on this older video. I showed it to David after literally a month of effort and he indulged me by allowing me to post it. He is being utterly humiliated in this video, in every way a man can be humiliated by his wife (save for a public pegging). We know it's dangerous, but both of us thought that this video, more than anything else, completely captured "Strict Julie" at work, and so we felt we had to post it. I was proud of David for being so vulnerable and allowing me to post it. We are in fact proud of our kinky sexuality, and we figured if it gets out, it gets out.

It was in fact this video that was the "nail in the coffin" for Mr. Stevens. He recognized me from my figure, my stance and stature, and the way I moved, and combined that with multiple other clues.


David and I are now both trying to slow down the amount of "Strict Julie" photos and videos out there. We have enough content that I can recycle a lot of it, and it will be fresh to new readers. I don't want to become an "onlyfans" type of girl. I want the blog to be mainly text describing our real adventures, augmented with evocative images. Every now and then we may post another pic, of either David or me, but expect few and far between, and treat them as delightful little Easter Eggs when they do show up. I will no longer feel pressured into putting up pics. That boat has sailed. If you don't think I'm real by now, there's no hope for you.


So yes, David knows, Violet knows, and Mr. Stevens knows. That's all who I am willing to confirm at this time. All others will be met with a firm "no comment" and you may speculate to your heart's content.

I did feel it was important to indicate that David knows, as I do believe in consent, and with David's photo and video all over the blog, I didn't want people to think I was doing it non-consensually. However, David will not be posting any articles, or writing any comments, or even reading most of my pieces. I just wanted you to know the truth about my husband knowing.

Sorry for the deception.

87 comments:

  1. Honestly, always figured he knew about it, regardless of what you claimed.

    -Craig

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  2. Julie, thanks for that comprehensive reveal. It's totally understandable that your blog unfolded the way it did. I've never encountered any other blogger as adventurous as you when it comes to pushing the envelope when it comes to involving third parties in your scenes and thus flirting with the danger of being revealed. And the fact that David doesn't regularly read the blog does make it kind of true that he doesn't what you are posting. I can see why he'd deal with it that way. Thanks again for sharing all this history. - Frank

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    1. My pleasure, Frank. Thank you for all the well expressed comments. I know it's crazy how adventurous I/we are, but it feels normal to me?

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    2. It’s interesting to think about David choosing not to read the blog, in contrast with the generally held idea that couples share intimate secrets, and that’s part of what bonds them together. Now here we have a case where the man leaves the woman free to share her intimate secrets with a world of fans and admirers but he himself renounces reading those secrets. And as Julie points out somewhere in this thread, the fact that she knows David is not reading these blog posts enables her to more freely share what’s going on with her own experience of all this spanking play. If she would have written it with the knowledge that David would be reading it, she might be a bit more guarded about saying certain things. Recently in a post on how she spanked him, Julie admitted that she planted dirty dishes in the sink after David had finished washing up and then she blamed David for it afterwards. That’s not what she would write about if she knew he was going to be reading it, because it seems to show her as being less than truthful, and specifically using falsehoods to create a pretext for spanking her husband. Now maybe this kind of thing is understood between the two of them as fair play when it comes to making spanking scenes more real, but on the surface it does look like something she might share only IF she was confident David wasn’t reading her posts. And just think what a lot of time it would take for David to actually read all of her posts and follow the comments. Julie writes a lot, and there are often 100 comments on each post, trickling in gradually over the course of a few days. David needs his sleep, apparently. I don’t see how he could find the time to read every word Julie has written on this blog over the last ten years. He needs a life. Who knows, maybe David is also keeping a blog that Julie doesn’t know about, and the whole truth will only be revealed when you read both blogs together . You know, kind of like how the four gospels don’t all have the same stories in them. - Frank

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    3. The washing up thing he knew right at the time was me messing with him. Ha ha!
      But it's true, with David we share intimacies silently. With my blog I share them out loud.

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  3. Interesting how your attitude to spanking developed. It began the same way here: my girlfriend started spanking me and found that she enjoys it. Unlike you however, she has not shown any strong sub tendencies. I occasionally swat her bottom, but nothing more than that. An incident a few months ago made me realize the difference in our roles. We had a slight disagreement which was beginning to get heated when she said "That's enough, get your pants down and bend over!" I hesitated but then obeyed, she grabbed a paddle and gave me a quick spanking - not too hard, but enough to demonstrate the principle that I can be spanked for disrespecting her. I do not have the right to do the same with her and I am happy with this state of affairs.

    Jon.

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    1. I love that dynamic. I would say David and I have the same dynamic in that real swats may be delivered for real misdeeds, but it could land either way. If we TRULY disagreed with each other (rare/never?) we would not cope by spanking, and probably wind up exchanging spankings one dust has settled for each of our respective parts in the disagreement.

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    2. I agree with you there. A fundamental disagreement cannot be settled by spanking. But it is good for minor day-to-day conflicts that arise in a relationship when one partner (usually the male) has behaved unreasonably. In these cases it is immeasurably better than yelling at each other.

      Jon.

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    3. Sometimes the wife can be naughty also...

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  4. An interesting read, but not too surprising! It seemed most likely that someone was taking your picture for those few Easter Eggs, unless you were very good with a tripod and time delay! Mainly I figured the blog and your books would be such a huge time suck that you couldn't keep it under wraps for a decade - it would be clear you were doing more than just browsing.

    It's always been clear that whoever knows about the blog it's your unique creative voice coming through. I'm glad he's not a frequent reader - it's very sexy imagining you confessing all of this anonymously, like a guilty little girl, without her Daddy finding out and punishing her with his heavy hand!

    It's a shame we'll never get a "Husband finds out about blog and punished wife" post, but reassuring that David won't find you out and ask you to delete the whole thing.

    Making him wank to his own spanking video sounds very sexy and humiliating!

    Expect a lot of "hope David never reads about THIS" style teasing from now on, you cheeky little fibber!

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    1. You're right about the time involved, though I can be a real little night owl while he sleeps like a log. He of course knows and approves of my ebooks and is very encouraging and sees the meager profits that result!

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  5. Always had thought it was wrong that he didn’t know so I’m glad to hear he does but I’m definitely disappointed that you outright lied about it for so long

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    1. Well, yes, me too, but it was more like him lying about it!

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  6. I think a lot of people who regularly visit your blog figured this *had* to be the case, despite what you were claiming. The reason for this is that you've always been so careful, so intricate with your plans, so mature with expressing your wants and needs (Mistress Violet, Mr. Stevens, your personal trainers etc etc) that it was simply unfathomable that you would have allowed something like this to exist without David being aware of it.

    Sure, very early on, when it was just little recounts of your adventures Dominating your man, one could have easily accepted that maybe this was your dirty little secret but as more and more was shared (pictures, videos), as more and more were included in your play it just became less and less likely that you were hiding this from him.

    That said, I think, again, this shows a level of maturity that you're willing to come out and admit this to your community. To peel the band-aid off and to start afresh with this new status quo. Also, I should just say, it frustrates me to hear that you ever felt pressured into sharing images or videos. I had naively thought that you had shared them of your own volition, but I guess it does make sense that there would have been community pressure to prove you're a woman who spanks and Dominates her man and not some 30 year old virgin writing spanko porn.

    I do wonder if someone needs to have her mouth washed out with soap for telling fibs though? :P

    -Kasey

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    1. Well, since it was really David making me fib, maybe he's the one who needs the mouth soaping?

      I have felt pressured and continue to regarding photos, but I do also get a kick out of it.

      With David I tell him, "the whole Internet is going to see your bare spanked bottom young man, and your penis!" It embarrasses and excites him. He was so embarrassed that way when I posted the video with audio of his spanking. He's definitely reduced to a crying little 6-year-old across Momma's knee! Very feminine reactions to his spanking, I think.

      I get the same embarrassed kick when I post a nude, or a spanked bottom photo. EVERYBODY will see me naked or spanked and tease me about it! And, the way I've encouraged it, I do get a good teasing each time, to our mutual pleasures, blog readers and I.

      So it's complicated I guess we can say.

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    2. Lying is still lying even when coerced. I wonder if one of your friends when you were 16 convinced you to stay out late, then lie about it to your Daddy whether you think some old fashioned discipline from Daddy would be in order, hmm?

      And yeah, I hear you. There is definitely something sexy about being exposed, knowing that everyone here has seen you completely naked. Knowing everyone has seen your most intimate of areas, or if they don't they now know it's all there if they take the time to read back. It must be very, very exposing and embarrassing for you, right Julie? :P

      As for David, in the very unlikely event that he happens to read this comment... my god does he have the cutest and most delightful whimpers when you spanked him. He sounded like a naughty little girl getting what she definitely needed! I can only imagine his embarrassment knowing so many people saw his bare little penis before you punished him too! Poor dear.

      -Kasey

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    3. You make a good disciplinarian, Kasey. You're of course right about me and my lying. A good old fashioned spanking is definitely in order.

      It IS embarrassing! But that's the point... I think all these women posting nudes on the Internet should be embarrassed as well. Imagine flashing them up on a big slide show screen at Church for parents, pastor, and the whole community to see. Do you think even the thotiest thot would not be embarrassed? Yes they would be.

      And I shall definitely read him your comment, Kasey. I think so too. SO unmanly. He does have a nice cock though. Big, hard, and bouncy on that first reveal! A little deflated by the time of that pic I posted, but excusable, given the state of his backside. It roared back to life soon enough after that.

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    4. Oh, I never meant to imply that he has a small little dick. What I had been trying to emphasise in how cute it is and how adorable it is when he knows he's not allowed to cover it up and that the world will have seen it. I would never expect him to be at full alert after all that had just occurred, but it was so adorable nonetheless. His reactions to his spanking were just as cute and adorable, fitting for any little girl getting what she rightly needs.

      It absolutely it and should be very embarrassing knowing that anyone who wants to can see in intimate detail every tiny little bit of your body, and everyone else who has done the same should be equally embarrassed. Imagine if Mr. Stevens had a powerpoint with all your pictures and videos and showed them in a meeting at your workplace? How embarrassing, you may as well have stripped for everyone there! And...and yet, for people like us... that embarrassment is exactly what makes us blush and drip and tingle... it's so bad...but it just... feels so good.

      And, if we continue the little thought experiment I offered earlier. Of course 16 year old Julie would be severely punished by Daddy for lying to him, but surely her friend who convinced her to lie is due a very painful lesson over Momma's knee with a dose of her paddle, hairbrush or wooden spoon too, no? After all, she convinced young Julie to lie to save her own backside, seems fitting that this ought to be corrected too...no?

      -Kasey

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    5. Sorry, that was not intended as a correction to your "little penis" comment. I totally agree that relative to human bodies, all men's' dicks are tiny, and they need to be reminded of that. Moreover, they treat them like little toys, always yanking on them like little monkeys hoping for a spurty. And yes, what I love about the video is how palpable his embarrassment is when his penis is shown off. He so wants to cover it with his hands but I won't let him. In his head, it was going on display for my Mom, and possibly others, to see. Little children run around with bare penises, and now so do you.

      Mr. Stevens: "and now everybody, one final item on our management meeting agenda. It has come to my attention that a certain junior manager has been spending company time and resources on a personal project, if you can call it that. Next slide, please..."

      Totally agree: liars should be punished.

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    6. My wife makes the same comment on my 'little toy', the picture she said reminded her of the first spanking she gave me, it was for playing with my 'toy' and looking at spanking magazines. She smiled and said do you remember, I said could not sit for several days without squirming, and did not like at all that you told your mother of the spanking and reason for. Finally you don't need to explain yourself to anyone, it is between you and David. I follow your blog because your honest, and pull no punches. Jack

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  7. You implicitly gave up the fact that David knew about your blog in your previous blog " ... junior manager to be spanked..." as you seeked David permission to be spanked. You had to till him the fact that you were exposed by your former manager and your ass was to pay for it.
    That implied that David knew all along about the blog.
    Do we have a claim to punish you for hiding this all the years?

    Your NOBLE PRIZE for Erotic literature.

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    1. I realized that. It was deliberate. As David and I discussed Mr. Stevens' outing of me, we made the decision to come clean, as it felt way too contrived to make up a story of how I could get spanked by Mr. Stevens with David's blessing, and I did not want to mislead by indicating I did not have my husband's blessing for something like that. And, like many of you, I thought this lie was straining at the seams by now.

      You're right that I'm the one that feels like the naughty little liar, but it was really him making me!

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  8. Goodmorning...you wake up early,it is 5.30 in Toronto....I am writing from London at 10.30

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    1. And go to bed late. I seem to need less sleeps then others, which accounts for the prolific blog output!

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  9. At first I was proud of you for coming clean, but most of your comments are deflecting the blame back on to your husband! This shows that you're not really sorry at all, and deserve a long hard spanking and a mouth soaking for definite! I'd throw in a nice soapy enema too - may as well clean you out properly!

    If you should then feel the need to punish dear David for putting you in such a position, then so be it! But no more passing the buck (or the loonie)!

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  10. Have you ever been given a spanking that truly was a spanking and no matter how much you pleaded for it to stop, the spanking continued? Also have you ever spanked someone and I mean truly given a spanking to insure they learned their lesson? Been wanting to ask, and your recent blogs prompted me to ask. As you know all my spankings do not stop until my wife feels I have been properly punish, no matter matter how much I plead, cry, she decides. Jack

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    1. Yes I have on the first.
      And pretty much yes on the second as well.

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  11. Miss Julie, i have been reading Your blog for years. Always thought David knew about Your blog, whether You had knowledge about it I simply took Your word for it.
    There has been a couple times in Your cottage town i have seen a blonde Lady and wondered to myself " is that Strict Julie ". I will never have the nerve to approach a gorgeous Lady i dont know and ask such a personal question. If our paths ever cross, it will forever be a mystery to me.

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    1. Ha ha! That would be great! "Are you, by any chance, a blogger named Julie?"
      A bit futile though, if you came up to me like that on the street, I would just say, "you must have the wrong person".

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    2. Miss Julie

      lot people said they do same mostly if person is out with family or close friends who dont know what they do as spanking and wondering why walk up ask question sorry you have wrong person be good respond i am sure you be able tell person know really you when ask or say Miss Julie you say got wrong answer deep down inside person know it really you

      Pixie from punish brat on her blog she said she would say sorry you got wrong person if out in public she get reconginze but with family a fan see her

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    3. Fun to imagine, though!

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    4. There was a blogger called BambinoGirl who posted a lot of photos of herself in a dirty diaper, being changed, given enemas, spanking aftermath etc, all with her face. She often posted pictures of herself in a diaper in the office bathroom. She had a rule that if you saw her on the street you could check her diaper and change her if necessary, but not fuck her! On the other hand, she took her blog down for reasons unknown!

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  12. I would't put it past David to sign in here and try to make "random" suggestions for play scenes from an "Anonymous" poster.

    Emily

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  13. The only thing I think we havent seen in pics is David's bottom nicely padded in diapers Unless I am forgetting something.

    JK Emily

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    1. I believe not. I suspect I would have to go first for that reveal!

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    2. Sounds like you just volunteered for Sue to diaper you and David for being naughty at some point

      Emily

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    3. I want my David to diaper me!

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    4. I can't believe it hasn't happened yet! Maybe you should start wetting your pants until he gets the idea?

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    5. Next time we go up North (2.5 hour drive) I will deliberately drink a lot of water and not "go" before we leave. I'll be in the car cross-legged begging for him to stop. Maybe that will give him the hint!

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    6. Hooray! I guess I'll keep reading!

      It seems that if David was going to read any blog post it would be this one, and you've called him Dopey, tried to pass your (thoroughly deserved!) punishments off onto him, and expressed a desire for a soapy enema and a diapering.

      If there isn't some fallout people will stop asking if David knows and start asking whether he has a pulse! You may as well gift wrap your little tushy and pop a bow on it!

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  14. I would guess that the obvious question is your sister Sue, does she know about the Blog? I would guess that she must based on how close the two of you seem.

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    1. I was waiting for that question!
      No comment.
      No comment.
      No comment.
      Just know I have a whole bag of 'no comment' with your name on it.

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    2. Sue is clearly the one player in this drama whose knowledge of the blog is yet to be confirmed. However, Julie has acknowledged that Sue is kinky and as such she is likely to read kinky blogs. So if she's out there exploring in the kinky blogosphere as kinksters are wont to do, it's hard to imagine how she could miss such an outstanding blog that has been publishing regularly for ten plus years now and has stories in it featuring her. That scenario assumes Julie didn't tell her upfront about the blog, which I'm guessing she likely did. But we can't expect Julie to spill all her secrets at once now, can we? - Frank

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    3. Ummm... no comment :-)

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    4. Another point to add to this: Julie was absolutely fucked for outing her sister previously. I would be shocked if after that little episode things weren't revealed, if not well and truly prior. But Julie is more than entitled to keep certain things to herself and to not expose everything to her community.

      -Kasey

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    5. Kasey's referring to when I told Mom and Dad that Sue had spanked me. She played it cool but was actually quite peeved at me for that, and I paid the price. Culminating in 100 prices paid, counted out aloud.
      As for the rest, no comment :-)

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    6. And here I thought I was being discrete as to force readers to plunge back into the depths of your blog, but yes. Absolutely correct, and 100 well deserved... "prices" paid, indeed.

      -Kasey

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    7. At least I got a break a re-lube after 50!

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  15. I'd forgotten how good some of those photos/vids were. The rarity probably only adds to it.

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    1. Thank you! And I agree. Absence makes the heart grow stronger.

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  16. As a newer reader and fan of your blog, I am not surprised that David knows about it, nor that he only reads it minimally.

    And your genuine description of scenes removed any doubt about you being Julie.

    You are both to be commended for living an authentic and loving married life the most people can only dream of or hope for.

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  17. Profile: Says you are in your 30s. If not mistaken, it has said that since 2011. Math and facts. Stubborn things. If we are coming clean on a bunch of things this week...

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  18. I'm not surprised David knows .With all the time you must spend blogging, David would have to be wondering what the heck you were doing!
    You never seem to run out of ideas.

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    1. I like being creative 'in the sack' so to speak. I do most of my blogging in the wee hours. I seem to need a lot less sleep than dopey does ;-)

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    2. You deserve a good spanking for that comment young lady...just wait until dopey reads this!

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  19. Despite your assertions to the contrary, I fully believed that David at least knew of the blog's existence. Especially once you started sharing more about the emotional depth of your relationship with him and telling us more about his heart rather than his ass, I figured it was well nigh impossible that you would hide something like this from him, especially for so long.

    I'll admit, when I first found this blog I was a bit concerned that this was an abusive marriage (some of your earlier kinky talk made it sound like you truly held him in contempt), but as I read more and learned about interpersonal dynamics more (both here specifically and also in general), I realized your relationship was honestly beautiful.

    For all the kinky degradation, relentless spankings and harsh buttfuckings, you guys are truly really sweet. It honestly reminds me of my wife and me, although we are much less sexual due to her psychosomatic vaginismus making intercourse not fun for either of us. An abusive sex-shaming mother and a wannabe rapist ex make a deadly combination. But regardless of whether our bed is active or not, she's my all and I'll be at her side until one of us dies. She's so much more to me than her womanly grotto.

    Thanks for sharing all that you do Julie. And thanks to David for going along with it and for being such a good husband to you.

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  20. Hi Julie I have been reading and enjoying your blog for several years now and enjoy it immensely. With my schedule I am usually a couple of days behind and everything has already been said, but this time I will repeat what most have already said. Never believed David knew nothing about the blog and I am sorry to hear you felt pressured into posting somethings, although with your outgoing personality it is a little hard to believe, you are a bit of an exhibitionist. You are a beautiful woman and can proudly show your beautiful body. the pictures have made a great blog even better. Please keep up the great work being so creative and inspiring and helpful. Even inspired me to do some writing of my own.

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    1. I did feel pressured, but it did not mean it was not my choice in the end and that I did not derive an exhibitionist enjoyment. All those things can be true at once.

      And thank you for the compliments!

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  21. I wonder if, after this revelation, we already could expect soon some of that baby play (like, with diapers, pacifier, baby bottle of milk and breast suckling) with david that you say in comments here and there along the years that you should do sometime.

    Anyway, congratulations for your blog (and for your adventurous life). I read it regularly for more than 8 years now, and it's always inspiring to all of us.

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    1. Thank you for being a reader and commenter. I appreciate it! No fun without you guys...

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  22. Part of me figure your husband David knew about your blog after few years i been reading your blog was just hunch i mean how do you think he react if he find out about blog same time Mr Steven then do you think David would made you get rid of blog


    i think people or guys like me who first started your blog are one who love being spanked or get punish by female was drawn to your blog cause it was an actual wife who was spanking her husband on daily basic to me i was looking for blog or website has f/m spanking some men might be wanting female who does the spanking not one that switch but now you switch i am still going be fan of you & blog i even like when people respond to me & other

    Like you said we can live our fantasy threw you and david us pretending wishing was us you were punishing spanking as you been told lately lot of us guys love be spanked by you for real but has accept never going happen

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    1. I knew that coming out as a switch would turn off some of my readers, but i needed to be honest about it. Thank you for your loyalty over the years, mike! You make the blog a fun place to hang out.

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  23. Where were all these “I knew all along” folks previously?

    Everyone knew but no one said anything? Right, because people are so restrained in the comments section of this blog ... rofl.

    Roger

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    1. Well, nobody could be 100% sure. But I think many, if asked to venture an opinion, would have ventured that David knew, despite my assurances otherwise. So we can give a bit of leeway on that to the "I knew all along" folks.

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  24. My wife while dating caught me masturbating, my first adult spanking was the result. Not always, but prior to a spanking she will place a towel on the floor, I must get on my knees, I'm naked, and masturbate. I quickly learned that one she enjoyed watching and the spanking hurt like hell. Facing the wall she will remind me that is her toy and will decide when it is put in use. Jack

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  25. I believe a good long spanking over the knee with the Purple Paddle , Corner time , mouth soaping , corner time and then The strap across the bare bottom on the bed. I do not condone Lying and deception young lady . GO TO YOUR ROOM ! :)

    Paddle Daddy

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  26. the long bean5 May 2021 at 02:10

    Maybe this is yet another indiscretion that is added to Miss Chris list of "offences" for when yOu visit and get your posterior warmed. (I expect you will need an extra soft cushion for the journey home.)

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  27. I have always thought that spankos were born not made. That is, one can't become a spanko. One of the litmus tests that I used for "true" spankos was whether they obsessively looked up the work "spanking" in the dictionary.

    Another issue with "true" spankos is that they are obsessed with spanking. It is all spanking, all the time. Sometimes a partner can indulge in spanking play, but it gets old for them since the spanko always wants spanking.

    Given this account, Julie, I think that I'd have to re-evaluate the idea that spankos are only born spankos. From what you write it sounds like this was not a long time fantasy for you, but you have definitely become a spanking, both as a top and a bottom.

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    1. David did that, looked up spanking in the dictionary. Ha ha!

      I was spanked as a child, and got to see a boy being spanked over his PJs, and both did shape my sexuality, I am sure. But I never used to obsess over it as I do now. I absolutely took to it like a duck to water when spanking him. It was slower to come to me, though. I think it was masked by some loss of control issues I was dealing with. I did like the ass slap during sex thing before I got messed up, and was a bit thrilled by it. There were also messed up Daddy fantasies along the way, so... it's complicated with me!

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  28. I think anyone who was paying attention knew that David was either fully aware of the blog, or somewhat aware. The reason I say this is as you alluded to in your post - you write about incredibly personal things, not just about you but about your husband too. And to do so without at the very least his knowledge would be such an egregious betrayal I don't think many relationships could survive it. You do not seem, at least from your writing, the kind of narcissist who would do that, therefore he must have known, and pretty early on too.

    The next issue is: did it matter whether we knew for sure or not. And honestly I don't think so. We've all bought into the fantasy that you have expertly created, otherwise we wouldn't follow you. And what percentage is fantasy and what percentage is reality - well that's up to you to reveal, if at all. But now you've drawn back the curtain slightly. Time will tell whether this is a good thing or not because now all your stories have a slightly different dynamic behind them don't they? I suspect you are creative and persuasive enough to be able to adjust and move on though :)

    In the meantime keep up the good work!

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    1. I try to keep it honest on my blog, and reserve fiction for my books and stories. But of course you are free to have your own opinion!

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  29. What does he say when you/us readers suggest and encourage you to have him spanked thoroughly over another mans knee while you taunt and humiliate him? Not to mention the cuckold implications of it. It’s the only thing left that’s more humiliating than anything else you’ve done to him

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    1. He won't agree to it. If I push too much, it'll be me getting my butt spanked!

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