Friday, May 29

My Upcoming Spanking

As you all can imagine, I've been absolutely obsessing over the spanking I am due to receive on Sunday evening from my Dad.

Will this be me Sunday evening???

The circumstances leading up to this are detailed in A Promise Made in case you missed it. It's not what you think. It's not a punishment per se, although I expect it will feel like it. It's my Mom and Dad catering to their grown-up daughter's silly request.


My flirting with being spanked in a family setting was first exposed to my Mom and Dad more than two years ago. I set it up in advance with David. I playfully (and inappropriately) swatted his bum while he was standing chatting with Mom, and so he "chased me down", turned me under his arm, and gave me six hard swats to the seat of my dress in front of the extended family.

 Julie Spanked in Front of Family

This was done with the explicit permission and encouragement of my Dad. David asked him, as a joke sort of, if he was allowed to give me "just one" as I dangled there ass out after he had caught me. Dad told him to give me more than one! I got six zingers over the seat of my tight dress while everybody watched.  It was played as more a sort of fun affair, but as I wrote at the time,
I am proud that I am married to a man who knows what a woman sometimes needs and gives it to her regardless of who is there to see it!
My Dad definitely enjoyed it and my Mom was very tolerant of it. My younger sister was disgusted, and Sue, my older sister, thought it was hilarious. My younger sister's teenage sons and her husband also saw it. They seemed to enjoy it also! I think there's something universal about a "naughty wife" being playfully spanked on the seat of her dress by her husband. It was very clear (due to all my giggling and my cheeky naughtiness leading up to it) that it was playful with no hint of abuse.

That event, more than anything, set me off on more submissive thoughts regarding my husband taking on a more dominant role in my life, with my family as witness to it. I wanted it "out there" among those I loved. As a badge of some sort. As well, I wallowed in all manner of public spanking fantasies, such as the one below, imagining that David had raised my dress not knowing I was not wearing panties.


I also spun off into fantasies of my Dad spanking me, in the most embarrassing ways, such as bare breasted.


or whipped,


Eventually those extreme thoughts faded, though they still lingered, and I became increasingly more and more subby generally, though I could (and can) still readily switch into Domme mode.


That domestic submissive thinking re-surfaced with a fury over the past two months where, as described in Julie Spanked for Being Irresponsible, David had legitimate cause to spank me (against'ish my will), but at home, in private, and very much for real. I was spanked then stood in the corner with my hands on my head and my freshly spanked ass on display as I was  lectured. I found myself (legitimately) receptive in that state, and legitimately obedient fearing a continuation or escalation of my spanking which had already brought me to tears.


As continuation of all this, my Mom and Dad were told about it as it involved me endangering them. This revelation was very embarrassing for me, as it was not a play spanking, but a real one for real justifiable reasons (if you are of the camp that spanking a woman is ever justifiable, which I am).

I must say though, they did not take it too seriously. Partly because they thought what I had done was not too serious (David disagreed, and it was his assessment that mattered!). So they assumed we were playing and their reaction was a combination of amused and supportive of my at-home spanking from David (they spanked me growing up, but only until age 10, so they were not against the notion totally). They also think it is cute and sexy for David to be doing that to me "against my will" (nudge-nudge wink-wink) or not.

The whole incident had me spinning in submissive space, and really, really craving to be taken in hand properly. We subsequently tried a DD Contract of sorts that did not work out as written, but the essence of it is intact. David spanks and otherwise punishes me whenever and wherever I need it, at his sole discretion.


When I was still very much in DD Contract mode,  I really, really wanted to tell my close family that we were adopting this as a new lifestyle: the dominant husband and the disciplined wife. I admit I am obsessed with them knowing that and taking it more seriously. It's not just nudge-nudge wink-wink fun. There's an emotional need wrapped up in there somewhere that I feel is very important to me. (Yes, it's all me me me, I get it.)

So one Sunday, David and I were alone with Mom and Dad, and I told them about our new "lifestyle" (Honesty is the Best Policy). Mom and Dad expressed zero surprise at the announcement that I had become a disciplined wife. She and Dad had already figured that much out. I still felt they took it lightly, as if indulging a child (which was in fact what they were doing), and treating it as naughty fun.

I explained a bit more about why I wanted this. As I mentioned above, I actually have two motivations. Yes, one is sexy, but the other is emotional. I focused exclusively on the emotional component, the idea of regaining my inner child through childish treatment and temporary abdication of responsibility from being self-disciplined to being externally disciplined. I think it's similar to what my blog friend michael is going through with his weight loss problem he describes at Held Accountable: giving his self-discipline a motivational boost by "pretending" (honestly pretending) at external discipline.

Mom was very understanding. She thought it was sweet and sexy as between a husband and wife. It was going so well that David told them that part of what I craved was for them to be involved in some way. One thing led to another and David wound up giving me a demonstration spanking in front of them. Full bare bum and everything  Oh God, that was so embarrassing yet exciting!

This was literally the view my Dad and Mom had.

Having my Dad see me like that, submissive, spanked, on display, really had my fantasies around being spanked by him spinning up. My folks played it off as no big deal to see me like that. I am their baby girl after all. Their "baby girl", though, masturbated to the thought of receiving a legs splayed belt whipping from her Dad...




Not so long after that I had some alone time with my Dad, which was rare, and I sort of spontaneously and shamelessly draped myself across his lap as he was sitting on the couch next to me. I asked for a playful spanking, baring my bum a split second before flopping across his lap to catch him off guard (Spanked by Daddy). He gave me a few playful swats and laughed it off. But he for sure enjoyed having me across his lap like that! (No, there was no erection - that I was aware of - it was just playful and he laughed it off as he does, and said that it was a bit of fun.)



And then on another Sunday there was corner time... (Monday Dinner + Politics = Nose in Corner)

 
We were over for dinner and I was egging David on to raise my spankings in a cute way, but he did it in a legitimately embarrassing way, not the way I wanted, rather in an overly sexual context that involved hints of him being submissive to me, which I did not want. I got a bit mad and decided to be a brat and for some reason deliberately rile up everybody with politics talk at the dinner table. I even insulted Mom a bit, sort of inadvertently. David got angry with me and sent me to stand with my nose in the corner for the WHOLE rest of the dinner and until we left. I have never been treated like that before (at least since I was a little kid). Humiliating. My Mom even asked if I could be released, but David told her no, that I needed to learn my lesson, so I had to stand with my nose in the stupid corner, like a child, for a ridiculously long time in front of everybody, even after they left the dining room to go to the adjoining living room and turned out the lights. Plus, as we were leaving my parents' house I was made to apologize and they were basically told I was getting a spanking as soon as we got home, which happened. Total cringe.


A few days after that incident, mid week, Mom called me and asked me to stop over for tea, just the two of us (Tea with Mom). She wanted to know I was still ok with that kind of treatment, and we spoke very openly and honestly between just the two of us about my domestic discipline needs. I straight up asked Mom if it was ok that we kept involving her and Dad as we had been. My Mom said yes to that. I then pushed my luck and asked if it was possible for me to get a spanking from Daddy... Mom had to think on that one (and no doubt consult with Dad as well), so she left it at that.


Then just this past Sunday, a lot of the conversation I had with my Mom was recapped with my Dad, David, and my sister Sue present as well (A Promise Made). Sue came out very openly that she had spanked me herself, and really hard ("blistered my butt", which was literally true - evil big wooden salad spoon).


That provoked a discussion of safewords for me and spanking technique. David got into it and explained about the hand/paddle/strap progression,


where on my ass and thighs he spanks me, and for how long and for how hard I seem to need it to get the emotional release I am seeking. Everybody was talking about how to spank me and how hard I wanted it! OMG!

Right towards the end, Mom said that I had asked if Dad could spank me. She said that in discussing it with Dad, she discovered that I had already taken matters into my own hands. I don't think she was really mad about that, but she used that, I would say, as a little excuse to promise me that next week, and I quote,
after dinner, your father will be taking you upstairs for a proper spanking, young lady, just like David described.
Mom and Dad had clearly talked about it, and had decided to grant my wish. Yay? Gulp? I do not know any more details about it than just that, and "just like David described" could mean a variety of different things, all the way from a hand spanking over Dad's knee to a nude strapping with bare naked corner time, and anything in between.


But at least it meant a "proper spanking" for sure.

I have since discussed it all with Sue over the phone. She's looking forward to hearing me get spanked by Dad. She thinks "high time!". She scolded me for putting Dad in this position. She is convinced I engineered this whole thing. She accused me of being the type of person who goes into the revolving door behind you and comes out in front. She says I have been trying to provoke Dad sexually since I was a kid, and she hoped Dad would give me "more than I bargained for" (she meant spanking wise, not sex wise, get your heads out of the gutter! Or is that my head...)

While I fantasize a lot of things about my Dad, I don't want this spanking to be any of that. I just want a straightforward punishment spanking from him, with the requisite baring and inevitable exposure that comes part and parcel with such a punishment. I realize that inherent in a spanking punishment is removal of clothing, and that's deliberate. For an adult woman it's embarrassing when it's done for that purpose. Modesty is a privilege that is lost for the duration of the punishment. I accept that, as if I had a choice.

And so that catches us up to my present state of anticipation for next Sunday where Dad will be spanking me, for real, for sure.

While it was not said, I'm pretty sure Dad will be spanking me in front of Mom. That in itself makes it more embarrassing. With my Dad we can play it off as fun. With Mom there watching over it, it becomes more punishment than fun already, which I suppose is good, but more embarrassing. Mom already thinks I should be seeing a therapist, and this will not help that cause! But she indulges me. She does not see the harm in it, but doesn't really approve.

I am almost certain I will have to go across my Dad's knee, my bum will be bared, and he will give me a significant spanking with at least his hand. Dad's "manhood" may be a bit at stake if he is unable to raise a ruckus from me that can be heard downstairs, and is unable to make me cry. Dad is not one to back off from a challenge, and he is still in really good shape for his age!

Holy shit...

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  1. I just wanted to share a somewhat similiar situation in my life. As you may remember from some past comments, I am a sissy submissive to my wife. I dress full fem f/t, as I have been working from home for the past several years. I have always had the fantasy of being spanked in front of others.
    My wife's parets know all about our lifestyle and are very tolerant of it, my mother in law actually enjoys seeing me dressed and submissive. My father in law accepts it, commenting that now he has another daughter.
    Several weeks ago, when they were visiting, I was having a "hissy fit" and ws rude to them during their whole visit.Naturally, that evening I paid for my transgressions with a long session with the hairbrush. I thought that was the end of it. But, no, my wife had other ideas.
    She told me that in talking with her mother she had told her of punishing me for my rudness to them. My mother in law apparently felt that they should have been consulted regarding my punishment since they were the aggreived parties.
    The end result of the conversation was that I was to be punished at their house, this past Sunday morning.
    When we arrived I was shocked to learn that I was to be punished in front of them, very embarassing, but also very exciting. Then I was told that it was my father in law, as the man of the family who would punish me with his razor strop.
    I have never been so humiliated as I was when he put me over the arm of the sofa , raised my dress, lowered my panties and blisterred my bare bottom in front of my wife and mother in law. He reduced me to a mess, crying like a little girl.
    As I said, never had a spanking that humiliating and painful, BUT so very exciting. I get excited just thinking back on it. I already know that I'm going to do something to earn another session with his strap.
    Good luck on Sunday, I hope it's all you want it to be. Really looking forward to reading about it.

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    1. That is so cool!
      Daddy with the razor strop is a powerful image. Especially bad for you as the sissy being punished by the man of the house.

      I obsess over whether my thing is "sexual" or not. But delivering a good butt wooping is just danged fun, right? For all involved except for the one receiving it in the moment (and maybe even then... blush, blush, blush)

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    2. You're so right, fun for all. I know that the anticipation of the whipping is so intense, as is the memory of it. I find myself excited right up to the moment of the first few strokes of the strap/paddle, then it justs hurts too much to be exciting.

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    3. Yeah I know. Why do we want it if it hurts so much, and it does! It's all the before and after, and some of the all too short during.

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  2. Only two months in pandemic social isolation and look what you've already gotten up to!!!! Julie, I can't imagine what'll be next. Please keep me posted. Thanks for all the fun.

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    1. I needed to work fast! Before too long my younger sister and the nephews will be allowed back in and then what??? No more fun times for me.

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    2. Oh they will visit I'm sure!

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  3. Oh Ms. Julie!  Only two sleeps and then it's Sunday,  and it will happen. And I agree that he'll probably not go easy on you.
    vic

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    1. I count important things in sleeps also...

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  4. Julie did you get cornertime when you were a kid? After a spanking?

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    1. No. Spankings were very mild and quick affairs, but I cried anyway...

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  5. You have explained its important to you and I think it will provide the missing link you have wanted from your child hood imprinting ( on the mind rather than your fathers hand prints on your bottom) and your needs now.

    I am sure your mother will be the arbiter or all propriety as your father wallops your bottom. I also have a suspicion that she wants to go over with you either at the same time or before or after. It will make the bonds between all of you stronger.

    I am sure your mother will understand your need to be smacked and your arousal from it. She will to be aroused and its perfectly acceptable that your rather becomes so too.

    All that will happen is that you two will become wet and him hard and you will validate your emotional and sensual preferences and will be open and understanding of each other.
    Femsup

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    1. I think arousal is inevitable, at least for me and my Dad, and at the very least "titillation" for my Mom. We will all pretend not, though!

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  6. Imagine, if you will, that your Daddy knows about your blog. In fact he has been reading it for years, paying particular attention to your dirtiest Daddy-fantasies... and on Sunday he is planning to make them all come true!

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    1. Then he'd have to fuck me and I very much doubt Mom will allow that! ๐Ÿ˜Š

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    2. Wow, that's really over the top, I think you would want to talk to a professional about that one. If it's hysterical it's historical.

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    3. Hells yes! It's called Oedipus Complex by Freud, or the Electra Complex when applied to girls by Jung. "The Oedipal complex, also known as the Oedipus complex, is a term used by Sigmund Freud in his theory of psychosexual stages of development to describe a child's feelings of desire for his or her opposite-sex parent..." I never grew out of it and am "fixated". See, no need to spend all those bucks on a professional. I can just google me.

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    4. Freud for Julie
      During her early years, Julie was entangled in the excitement of her parental complex.

      She is tenderly fixed on her father who has done everything to earn her love, depositing in her the germ of an attitude of hate and competition towards her mother.

      1st phase of the spanking fantasy:
      My father loves (in the genital sense) only me, he does not love Nancy.

      Early choice of incestuous love / having a child from her father / no clear idea of ​​what the genitals have to do with it

      Julie despises and hates Nancy

      Julie understands that being beaten means revocation of love and humiliation.

      It is therefore a pleasant representation for her that of her father beating Nancy.
      that means: my father loves only me, he doesn't love Nancy.

      2nd phase: repression of incestuous desire and appearance of an awareness of guilt linked to the persistence in the unconscious of incestuous desire.
      Reversal: No, dad does not love me because he beats me

      the proposal the father beats me is a compound of conscience of guilt and eroticism
      father beats me: punishment for forbidden genital relationship
      father beats me: regressive substitute for prohibited genital relationship

      3rd phase Julie fantasizes herself as a boy

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    5. I crave the spanking because I crave the love that comes after all guilt is expiated even more.

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    6. What guilt? You haven't dona anything wrong to be carrying guilt around? What do you have to be guilty about honestly?

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    7. I'm mad at myself for things I should have done, and for things I shouldn't have done. Its better now, but it's deep inside and complicated.

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    8. Spend the money on the therapy, you're worth it and the guilt isn't. Probably have it on video chat now!

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  7. Hmm, no popcorn. Is there a good Keto friendly snack you suggest while waiting for this post on Monday?

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    1. Porky pork rinds into a dip of sour cream and salsa!

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  8. Rogering here.Well, I said a long time ago that this would come to pass. Have to admit your an exceptional person Julie, and even if this is just the fevered imaginings of a fantasist; the intellect,dedication and desire you have displayed over years deserves commendation. p.s of course I expect a well written post next week. Cheers :)

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  9. I predict that it will be more of a punishment than you imagine and that your mom will have a very dim view of your manipulation and overstepping of your boundaries in her house. I also think that it will be strap/belt from a distance and to quite an intense level. There may also be an intervention of some sort or extracted promises of future behavior.

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    1. I think you're off base on this one. Mom is clearly indulging me and is not angry. It would never have gotten to this stage if she was angry with me. Although I'm hoping the strap is still a possibility.

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    2. I don't think she is angry, I think that might be the angle she uses. The reason I guessed that the strap would be employed is that it provides a bit of space between the 2 parties. I'm also imagining some unforeseen 3rd act, that should serve to put the icing on the cake, It will be some sort of comment while you are in the corner or back at the table or a future appointment, some sort of topper, the older generation never forgets dessert!

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    3. I can't wait to find out!

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  10. Poor little Julie.Her imagination is on fire and she's as nervous as a cat.She's getting a whipping from Daddy Sunday night but in her fevered imaginings she is somewhat roughly pulled over his knee and only gets 40 hard swats to her bare bottom.She tries to be brave but after 10 or so she's making all the right noises,promising to be good,she'll never do it again oh Daddy.. She can handle that.Growing in the back of her mind though is the thought that as a big girl,she's going to be face down over the bed and Daddy's newly purchased razor strap is turning her back into the obedient daughter she once was.The whole neighborhood is going to know that

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    1. you made my pussy tingle...

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    2. Sure it tingles,but not as much as in that micro second before the first thing happens advancing this from fantasy to the slow motion reality of being told to pull your pants down..

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  11. Oooerrr. It’s all getting very close and very real. I know there has been a lot of debate over the last week about your clothes tomorrow. My personal choice (but I know it won’t happen) would be nice dress, Lacey matching lingerie set, nylons and garter belt, with heels.
    Dress off for punishment, panties down....and the bra? let’s see how it develops as to whether or not you get to keep it on.
    Only my preference, but it does invoke some strong images.
    Good luck tomorrow - Enjoy what you have coming to you, but do not push your luck and try to ‘Top from the Bottom’
    Stay safe
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    1. It's not a date, it's a spanking!
      No topping from the bottom for me. I'll just go along with whatever and report back!

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  12. Julie I'm so jealous !

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  13. Julie have you decided on an outfit yet? Certainly non sexualized, that’s not why I’m asking. I’ll just be disappointed if I hear “yep...jeans and a tee shirt”.

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    1. I'm not changing ANYTHING from what I usually wear. It's not a date!

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  14. Don't worry, your father will look good.
    Pleease daddy ! AWWWW! WAAAAAA!
    Your howlings will be heard through the house leaving no doubt about his virility for those who will stay downstairs.
    When you were a little girl, your girlfriends would have been jealous of you if you had a father like that!
    After there will be a lot of « love you sweetie », « love you so much daddy »
    - what ?
    - … you too, mom... of course...

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  15. Following what you are doing, I was faced with a spanking from my mother-in-law, really no different than you being spanked by your dad. My mother-in-law made sure I remembered, and that meant she bared my bottom, made a comment about my erection, all this with my wife present. Once over her lap, her hand stung and I wanted it to end. When my mother-in-law applied the hairbrush that was when I truly was begging, pleading for the spanking to stop. Standing, rubbing, facing her afterwards, I enjoyed it, and I hated it. One thing at least for me, a woman giving a spanking she means business and I don't know if the spanking your Dad gives will be the same, he might take it easy on you. Also having my bottom bared and all on display was worse than the spanking. Jack

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    1. Oh I hope he does not take it easy on me.I have reason to believe he won't...

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    2. I showed to my wife, she hopes "Daddy" gives a sound spanking, especially at your age.

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  16. A well blistered bottom in your bedroom with the window open , then pulled back into the living room for nose in corner Bare bottom to stand and sob while the family talks. If it could be arranged then around 7 pm marched back to your room given a good bedtime spanking and sent to bed alone while the family enjoys the rest of the evening.
    Paddle Daddy

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    1. I sooo wish Daddy would treat me like that...

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  17. By your own deliberate action, said you’re starting to occasionally wear full bottomed, cute printed cotton panties. You’re consciously doing this because it’ll make you feel more “little” and vulnerable. I wasn’t suggesting you dress provocatively. I was asking if you’re going to be mindful of your attire and how it can amplify your situation?

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    1. Ok, a little I guess. The panties anyways.

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  18. Just wanted to say I absolutely love your blog. Not only does it show the mind of a true spanko, but it also makes some of us not feel so alone or odd seeing that there are so many others with the same fantasies and desires. I would probably die of embarrassment if I had someone on my wife's side of the family spank me or be witnessed to it, but theres still that crazy deep down urge to see how far it can go. That absolute thirst for a real honest to goodness spanking is hard to ignore

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  19. Really just waiting to see how bad Julie brats David in the car afterward when spanking isn’t even brought up at dinner...

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    1. My nightmare scenario!

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    2. Or,
      Dinner begins but suddenly
      Someone's knockin' at the door ??
      Somebody's ringin' the bell ??? Surprise !!
      Oh my gawd!!! It's our beloved Nancy and her little family !!!

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    3. I don't know. That spanking was promised. May have to go on. "Aunty Julie is getting a spanking from Grampa, boys, try not to listen." ;-)

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  20. I'm waiting desperately for Monday so that I get to hear about what happened
    Please try to write what happens on Sunday night I'm way too excited to wait

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  21. We are all eager to know how it turns out. Unfortunately for me, my wife is sick of my obsessing over it. I cannot look at your site until tomorrow. Today, I am to do chores - laundry vacuuming, etc. in a bra and panties. Then fix a nice dinner for her and her mother.

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    1. Well, hopefully I'll have something up for you tomorrow after your chores are done.

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  22. Almost there.... must be getting pretty exciting at this point. Hope you can stop playing with yourself long enough to type it out for us. Good luck!- Alan

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    1. That has never been a problem before ;-)

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  23. Julie - what time do you arrive ay your parents? I'm guessing around 6:00 pm, so T minus 9:30:00 and counting!

    -T.

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  24. Hi Julie,
    Shame and guilt are complex emotions. Don't forget full and free expression of your feelings and emotions, especially during the session.:-)

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    1. Yes Sir. Crying and screeching it is! (but I'm thinking i should tone it down in case Dad gets too worried!)

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  25. Julie - wouldn't it be funny if, about 15 minutes before you and david leave to go to your parents, he gave you a little gift to wear for the evening...a butt plug with a bright jewel on the end!!

    What would the family say about that?

    Funny, eh?

    :-)

    -T.

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  26. Just so I know,,at what time can I expect new blog entry from you ? I'm so excited

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  27. You must be back home
    Quickly tell me something about it

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  28. Julie breaks the Internet ๐Ÿ˜‚

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