My Poor Baby!

There have been several requests for me to pose for a photo. I finally got my act together and figured out how the auto-timer thingy on the camera works. I dressed in one of my business suits, but with fishnets that I thought you would like, and I am holding my new strap. Sorry I can't show my face (the little "me picture" is actually me, photoshopped up a bit artistically to hide the guilty!). I hope you like the photo.

And here is a photo of my new strap (although a pen-pal, from the description, thinks it might actually be a "tawse"?)

In my last blog entry, Strapped!, I described david's first disciplinary strapping. I said then that I did not feel at all guilty. Well, I am feeling guilty now.

All the rest of the day my poor baby was walking around very gingerly, and wincing as he sat down. On Sunday he said his butt felt better but that his legs were still very stiff and sore. I looked at them, and they were much bruised. This morning, while we were still in bed, I had him turn over and I lowered his pyjamas to inspect. Oh My Goodness! They were even worse. Did I ever get carried away on Saturday!

He was no longer fire engine red, as he had been directly after his strapping, but there was still a discoloration all over his butt and legs, like a funny tan. But the worst of it was the bruises. Both his butt and legs had very angry-looking and very large purple and black bruising.  I saw the bruising come up as I was strapping him, but I didn't expect it would look like this a full two days later! I had reddened him and bruised him a bit before with the hairbrush, and it had gone away much more quickly.

Ok. I admit it here. I was wrong. I apologize. I should have used an implement I was familiar with, like the hairbrush, for his first real disciplining and saved the strap for more of a play spanking where I could take it easy on him at first and learn its ways.

I didn't apologize to him, exactly. That would have been counterproductive. I did, however, tell him that I was sorry I had to punish him so severely. An apology of sorts.

He then surprised me by apologizing to me for putting me in that position (!) and admitted that he had been deliberately "pushing the envelope" with his diary misbehaviour, and had gotten what was coming to him. He said he was sorry and would do everything he could to avoid a repeat performance. Awwww... my baby is so cute!

I told him I didn't want him exercising today, so I called Rebecca and told her he was ill. I had to pay her for the missed session, but I guess that's my penance. My original thought was that I wanted her to see the strap marks on his legs, but I sure didn't want her to see the bruising I had inflicted on him! She would not have understood - thought I was some kind of sadist - probably call the SPCA on me! By excusing him from exercising, it also let him off the hook from diary grading as he hadn't yet had enough time to change his ways and I really didn't want to have to strap him again so soon.

david thanked me for that, and joked that it was a real good licking he got. It's a funny word, "a licking", isn't it? I guess it means that the ends of the strap are like a tongue "licking" at his butt? I told him that to even things up, he could give me a real good licking also. He knew what I meant. When I ask for a licking, it's with his head down between my legs!

So, in summary, I do feel bad about being an "uncontrolled spanker" and vow to do better in future.

That having been said, and given that david, my poor baby, seems ok despite all, I will admit that the severity of what I did to him turns me on. I guess I am a bit of a sadist. In fact I want nothing more now than to bend him over for a hard ass-fucking so that I can admire my handiwork, getting me nice and horny, and then have him give my wet pussy a good licking as I grind myself into his face.

However, I decided that I need to make amends, so I won't allow myself that pleasure. Instead, as punishment for me, I promise, publicly to all you horny guys out there reading this blog (which is kind of humiliating, because you are mostly all subbies), that I solemnly swear I will submit to a hard pussy fucking from him which he has not had for a while, and then give him the best blowjob ever (I hate cleaning my own pussy juices off his cock like that... yech!) letting him cum into my mouth, and that I will swallow every last drop like a good little tramp. I will even pretend to like it so he will think he is a real man, and won’t know I'm punishing myself. There. Hope you're all happy!

Oh, and I'll lay off the spanking until he heals, cross my heart!